born to die

timebomb

leave me alone

TECHCLUB
--
w-well i rly dont 
knowknow
if i'll be
anything
i guessguess
i'l just go to sleep
tonite, tonite
guess i'll just go to sleep 
at night, at night
atnight
nono
i rly dont
knowknow
what to do
knowknow 
what to do
no
i rly dont
knowknow
what to do
knowknow 
what to do
oooooo
oooooo
woahh
woahhh
d-don't know what to do
d-don't know what to do
i'm sitting in my room
i'm sitting in my room
i'm sitting in my roooom
don't know what to do
fade away
fade away

DONTKNOWWHATTODO

so fucked in the head
always to the end
stupid running out of luck
cant see things thru the rest
of these motherfuckers always crowding around me
get away from me x2

fuck, i guess it all depends
shit, i'm breaking everything
why, does it have to never end
fuck, i'll never get it in

feel so lonely
feel so fucking depressed
cant see thru all this smoke
in my room i'm dead in bliss
these motherfuckers always crowd around me
gtf away from mex2

fuck, i guess it all depends
shit, i'm breaking everything
why, does it have to never end
fuck, i'll never get it in

never get it in

i hate it

#techclub

lyrics:
you try to tell me something, hear no words / i'm tryna get it thru to you, it's absurd / life is so weird / you try to tell me what to do i don't / ima never listen / i like to walk around and cry / oooo / oooo / oooo / oooo / and i don't wanna be at school / i just wanna be alone / in bed /  and i rly wanna give in / coz i can't stand sitting here / lay my compulsions to rest / take myself right out of it all / swear i'm feelin funny feelin stupid feelin wrong / im feelin so fucked up / i wanna die / only thing on my mind in class is suicide / ring ring ring wanna hear the bell ring / watch em

absurd

Stay away from me
I don't want you around
I don't wanna belong to you
So you can put me down

I can't seem to breathe
Whenever you're near
I wanna fall asleep
Then disappear

Everybody knows
Or at least they act like they do
I guess that's the way it goes
When you're sad and blue

Stay away from me
I can't control myself
I don't need your company
I don't need your help

I can't seem to dream
Without wanting to cry
I fall apart at the seams
When you cross my mind

Everybody knows
Or at least they act like they do
I guess that's the way it goes
When you're sad and blue

I guess that's the way it goes
I wish that i knew

slit my wrists

Window Up Above (George Jones Cover)



this place is all i know
if i leave where else would i go
and i would feel so alone
i dont have anyone

and i fucked up every chance ive had
and i know theres no going back
i know i cant change the past
and thats so sad, so sad

this place is all i know
if i leave where else would i go
and i would feel so alone
cause i dont have anyone
i dont have anyone


internet addiction

"It's here, the end of everything we once knew" - Magnus
"What's going to happen to us?" - Unknown
"Only one way to find out..." - Magnus

Welcome to Vol. 8 of DreamScape DayDreams!

Dreams Awaken

Piercing Armor (Soul Version)

In the energy I devour to acquire

Stepping outside the static flowing 

The toxic death I consume to fuel the mach to the end of everything 

First step break every law I can 

To break the social normaily  

Fight the censors held like the prison of the media world



If life is so beautiful then why am I suffering

From the hands of ones so close to my blood  

Suffering breeds beauty 

These goddamn mental disorders

Given to me by the hands all around me 

In these environments built by suffering

Made from the trauma I endured while looking for the one 

Feeling I couldn't feel because of the life was given at birth



I explored the world at 19 to 30 but at 30

 I escaped the nightmare I made from the escape of living in another one in the home I called my hole where the monster brought me to see the demons where the ones with kind creeping teeth

itching at my soul,

Absorbing the world underground I found to escape the horror that crawled deep into my mind

Where they splintered into shattered self reflections

Who am I



 

As The drugs hit my mind like a apocalypse fucking me up like it's first time in love giving myself to a stranger hoping they will love me more than myself  

I crawl to the surface eating away 

Eating away at the barriers made to hold the memories I forgot without knowing I had even experienced the pain I felt by the search for myself  in a world full of so much death, fear, hate, hiding the truth, blending my truth to explore me and turn my illnesses against me. You always did I hate every word you spoke to me to this day I'm disgusted I was born into a life like this 

They misunderstand all I say





I tell them the truth 

They act like nothing ever happened

You call me a liar 

They seem so sure their right at the moments in time they had no Idea what I had been through 

You say no your just a pathological liar, 

The doctors never heard all the hell I was hiding

 In the bottomless holes I have inside my Fragmented guts to mind I watch the world die  

When I screaming the truth right in your face 

You played games to long with this sociopath 

I just got to get this off my chest 

I wasn't lying you just didn't want to hear the truth

So you denied what was right fucking in front of you

so now I'm here screaming it inside your deft emotional dulled 

I'm screaming to the world 

Since you don't believe a god damn world I say

Mother father you should have done better

Stop lying to yourself 

Believing the stories you made up so long ago 

I hope you know all the pain I can't even remember 

Now I have these alters clawing their way out of me 

never get it in

︎heelflip