produced, written, and mixed by me

up so late ive been texting my friends
debating whether to call your phone to make amends
i shouldnt run away gotta say it what it is
say it what it is

so stuck about it
cant talk im out of it
feels like im drowning
so condensating
stuck up about it
thoughts they getting too loud
gotta make it up somehow

tell me what your up to
hearts getting colder
need someone to talk to
but i guess its over
these thoughts got me so wired and stranded
i just hope my wish it gets granted
i know you dont wanna be abandoned

cause you want attention
i can see it in your eyes
want attention
im so fed up with your lies
some attention
put my foot up on the ground
i cant take this shit rn
just accept that im gone
cause you want attention
i can see it in your eyes
want attention
im so fed up with your lies
some attention
put my foot up on the ground
i cant take this shit right now
gotta accept the fact that youre gone

go on and cry
you know it aint right
after all your just wasting all my time
you just wanna play the victim like youre right
im so fucking tired

tell me what your up to
hearts getting colder
need someone to talk to
but i guess its over
these thoughts got me so wired and stranded
i just hope my wish it gets granted
i know you dont wanna be abandoned

cause you want attention
i can see it in your eyes
want attention
im so fed up with your lies
some attention
put my foot up on the ground
i cant take this shit rn
just accept that im gone
cause you want attention
i can see it in your eyes
want attention
im so fed up with your lies
some attention
put my foot up on the ground
i cant take this shit right now
gotta accept the fact that youre gone

attention

written after a manic episode

lived my whole life living in fear i dont think im real
just one last time i see their faces
i dont know what is real and what is not
all these broken thoughts
i dont know who to trust

wash it off when its full of blood
act it off i dont give a fuck
it wont matter when im gone
everything ima tear apart

she said tell me why youve been this way
cant handle you being away
tell me why your world is grey
dont know hy im not okay
she said tell me why youve been this way
cant handle you being away
tell me why your world is grey
i just wanna be okay

lived my whole life living in fear i dont think im real
just one last time i see their faces
i dont know what is real and what is not
all these broken thoughts
i dont know who to trust

wash it off when its full of blood
act it off i dont give a fuck
it wont matter when im gone
everything ima tear apart

think you know me but you really dont
cant trust no one but myself
remember when they left when I needed help
i dont need no one but myself
i dont need no one but myself

self conceited

#VLM

Sample: "My Last (feat. Chris Brown) - Big Sean (2011)

Imma live this life like it's my last
Said a lot of things I can't take back
Hooked on you, trying not to relapse
Why do things always end so sad

Imma live this life like it's my last
Said a lot of things I can't take back
Hooked on you, trying not to relapse
Why do things always end so sad

Keep having nightmares
I'm just wishing you was right here
I only get you for so long like a timeshare
Walk right out the door, why would I dare
(Why would I dare)

I said a lot of things that made you upset
Know you hope and pray that I just drop dead
Is it so hard to believe I'm sorry
Left me then you switched right up, Cal Raleigh
Duck the paparazzi with my posse
Don't got time to talk, please, girl you lost me
Duck the paparazzi with my posse
Don't got time to talk, please, girl you lost me

Imma live this life like it's my last
Said a lot of things I can't take back
Hooked on you, trying not to relapse
Why do things always end so sad

Imma live this life like it's my last
Said a lot of things I can't take back
Hooked on you, trying not to relapse
Why do things always end so sad

Relapse

right here

@pyu
sample: flawed mangoes - birdsong

(Tell me it's, Tell me it's)
(Tell me it's, Tell me it's)  

Tell me it's alright
To let you in, don't fight
Tell me it's alright
To give you just one night
I'll make it up to you
Show you what is true
Tell me it's-
Tell me just- 
Tell me it's alright
Then maybe we'll be fine

Could you maybe give me more time? I'll do anything for you
Between love and hate there's a fine line
Was there anything I could do? 
What is my heart to you?
Am I just another passing through in your life
I gave you my soul but you let it die
Is there anything I did to you that was never right
Did I deserve all of the pain that you put me through
Everything about us, what did it mean to you?

Standing in the rain by myself tonight
Feel like I want to die, I know it ain't right
My mental's relapsing, I want you to catch me
When I need you here most you're nowhere to be found
My feet are wet but not enough to let me drown
Expectations of me is breaking me down
You said that you love me but where are you now?
So much for thinking of me, lies pour from your mouth

Tell me it's alright
To let you in, don't fight
Tell me it's alright
To give you just one night
I'll make it up to you
Show you what is true
Tell me it's-
Tell me just- 
Tell me it's alright
Then maybe we'll be fine

we'll be fine

we'll be fine (prod. meta)

@violetxx9

#VLM

Miss sign 3x
Too locked in idk what to tell you
I went undercover bitch idek you
That's another lie, ain't true this time
Smooth talk to the shit, I drew the line
Keep her out the mix, oh never mind
Bitch, I 2x 
seen the other side 2x, oh yeah
Big watch big shine, staying up on her mind
Trap house jumping 2x 
I don't need no plan, Ima see how it ends
Yeah, I know it's a lot, yeah she don't know what I'm saying
I keep this shit on a lock 
Outside, I don't fear no man

miss sign p. violet

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@zukobain @1kkyoto

Woah
I never thought that I would fall out
I never thought that I would fall out with you
Sprint as fast as you want, but you can’t outrun the truth
Saying all the shit I been through, you been through it too
Uh, uh, uh
But you don’t know the half
In that field for real, strapping up my shoulder pads
#throwbackthursday, looking at my posts so sad
Been in this shit so long, I don’t think the cold so bad
I’m on the highway to hell, I’m in a 4 door Jag
Cupid got some aim, stepback from the logo, cash
No I won’t go back, back, back, back
Leave it in the past, past, past, past

When I bring the boombox outside your window
Yeah, will you open it up and let me in though
Time heals all wounds, but I got bullets in my skin though
And they ain’t just skin deep
I know you miss me
Poison in my bloodstream when you kiss me
I do my own stunts but loving you is risky
Yeah, we from two different worlds like Mork & Mindy
Is you gon hold your ground when shit get windy

Bro need to slow down, he changed the color of his Simply
Brother seen how iCould did, said I’m on a killstreak
Smell the burnt rubber, hear the wheels screech
I’m on the road, baby girl, and I’m on the way to you
I’m on the way to you
I know I’m days from you, but just keep waiting, boo
Flowers, they fragrant, too
Know these your favorites, too
(It’s our anniversary I got you)

It’s our anniversary, I got you violets
If he fuck around with you, this shit gon get violet
Your nosey friends tryna get in our business, why they keep on spying
It’s this thing called “mind your business” baby girl, just try it
She don’t get Dior, Paramore, she start a Riot
Why we tryna build the plane out while we fly it
Wrestling with the other side of me like Bray Wyatt
You could put my shoes on, but you could never tie ‘em
You know me, I’m tryna chase a sack, defensive lineman
With the Vs, we flock like birds, we falling in alignment
Tell the label it ain’t six zeros, don’t know if I can sign it
Feel the Devil on my Heels, I ball like Carolina
He could pop it all he want, but we know he scared to try it
Big bank take little bank, I hope you feeling giant
Having nightmares of the bottom
Had a dream about being broke, the shit was terrifying
Fear the man in the mirror, you is not a threat to me
Man in the mirror, let him get the best of me
Man in the mirror, man in the mirror