prod. by myself

i spilled my guts all over the floor
im throwing up what id hold in before
swear we expired now we gotta throw it all out
every well i try to wish in i just fall down

im stuck here tryna pick up pieces of what's left of the truth
dont try to tell me that you think my life was better with you
turn of the tv i cant stand to see your face or ill lose it
ill let it consume me

my throat is closing up
i cant get what i want
said you wanted forever but it wasnt what u thought
now its hard for me to talk
was i never what you wanted
ill drift off thinking how we were in love last august

i try to tell myself that somehow theres another way
that somehow i misread the text you sent the other day
i swear to god now theres nothing to your promise
i know you gave up it's what i get for being honest

it's too late i cant sleep anymore
sun in the sky as it bleeds in the door
said i would change like every day but im the same as before
dont wanna stay ill take a break from always getting ignored

i just took off with no GPS
after i drive out your life you wont have nothing left
leading 2 lives always caught up when they intersect
do what i do to survive and breathe another breath

my throat is closing up
i cant get what i want
said you wanted forever but it wasnt what u thought
now its hard for me to talk
was i never what you wanted
ill drift off thinking how we were in love last august

i try to tell myself that somehow theres another way
that somehow i misread the text you sent the other day
i swear to god now theres nothing to your promise
i know you gave up it's what i get for being honest

my throat is closing up
i cant get what i want
said you wanted forever but it wasnt what u thought
now its hard for me to talk
was i never what you wanted
im looking back ur tearing up
about the fact that we are done

i try to tell myself that somehow theres another way
that somehow i misread the text you sent the other day
i swear to god now theres nothing to your promise
i know you gave up it's what i get for being honest

it's too late i cant sleep anymore
sun in the sky as it bleeds in the door
said i would change like every day but im the same as before
dont wanna stay ill take a break from always getting ignored

i just took off with no GPS
after i drive out your life you wont have nothing left
leading 2 lives always caught up when they intersect
do what i do to survive and breathe another breath

throwing up

created in a week for the niztopia x pharaoh vice contest
listen on all plats here: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/yonklolz/tell-me-what-you-want-feat-lo3rd--qliche

prod by:
https://soundcloud.com/yonklolz - 0:00 - 2:00, 3:18 - 4:12
https://soundcloud.com/lo3rd - 2:00 - 4:12

vocals by:
https://soundcloud.com/yonklolz
https://soundcloud.com/lo3rd
https://soundcloud.com/inholyful

lyrics: 

yonk:
when you know
that something's up will you care for me
i dont wanna keep on running
feel like it is all for nothing
the struggle
of giving up everything for this shitty dream
i dont know who im trusting
well we were just kids
doing shit for the thrill of it
struggling just sitting here
just whispering
i cant relapse
i cant help this feeling that its all gon be alright
just you hold on tight
circling, spiraling 
i dont know what to do
but we'll make it through

lo3rd:
i got sum reasons... to believe u want me, to believe u want me
oh ik that im in ur head
ohh just, tell, me
jus take my hand and... tell me what u want why u need me
i jus dnt kno what u wait for..

and if youre used to
playing all these games
dont lose your times cuz ill jus tell u no
and if youre used to
playing all these games
jus turn away n dont be looking back

tell me what u want why u need me (x3455)

qliche:
Tell me what U want
cause I aint wastin no time
Just tell me whats on your mind
and Im so god damn sick and tired 
I guess I got to move on
But do you want me to?

I keep doin this shit over and over 
You keep pulling the strings like a puppet now
Telling me that you dont love me now
And got someone else that will hold you down
In the end ill be okay
Unitl these feelings go away

Tell me why it hurts
whats with all the pain?
Think ive really had enough
Im giving up
Ive had it with these games you play
Its so insane, now

and I cant break FREE 
Your eyes are so decieving 
Contradicting all your lies
and I see- 
I see right through your disguise (THIS iS WHO YOU REALLY ARE)

radio bitch:
is equally...*unintelligible*

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tell me what you want (ft. lo3rd and qliche)

everything by me

ima come back better than before
i try my best to restore
you wanted less but i wanted more
i sided with the bitch who hurt my core
fuck it i don't want her anymore
got me feeling things i cant describe 
in my head; i keep inside
now i just want you to die
got me feeling like im insane
plant evil thoughts inside my brain
you dragged me through the rain
i'll put the pain inside your head
i don't want your love anymore
throw out my heart onto the floor
dagger blade cutting out my sores
i don't love you anymore

i bleed blue but my blood red i'll stay that way 
faith fades along with the passing days
they try to stop me they always hate
i walk the path inside a broken brain

far from home (i cannot feel anymore)
i would know
far from home (i cannot feel anymore)
i would know
far from home (i cannot feel anymore)
i would know
far from home (i cannot feel anymore)
i would know
i need your trust
i need your trust
i need your trust
i need your trust

stream

restore

Preesave <3 https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/tigerstar/been-that-boy 

Prod. tigerstar
co-written with @yazida-essia 
SHOUTS OUT TO CABBY @silentcxbin FOR DOING THE INTRO AND MASTER <3 Check him out NOWWWW...!!!

CREDS TO THE CLIQUE GIRLZ .... My ultimate idols that inspire everything i create
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yYJ284Hndzk

if there was a single day where we could just talk
i'd fade and i'd block anything thats not you
I’d cave when u walk in the room
I wonder if u listen, heart transparent
can u hear it?
u said u couldn’t 
so i'll turn it up just enough
like I wanted for us

you know i
kinda shoulda wish you woulda coulda maybe been that boy
you need to know i...
know you never yea you did you never been to be that boy...
but every little word was true 
i dont wanna waste a minute waiting for ur call back
here i am 5 hours later  and i'll respond so fast
after all thought i was certain thinking u were all that
and theres still a part of me that thinks that y could be that boy

so can i at least plead my case or do 
u just want me to be thrown away and you'll choose 
from all the girls lined up and i'll be another one
its such a  force of a wave to try to get through

im in a daze for u n
spending all day in a trance
when im just looking at u
no one can say that i cant
i gotta look for u
i gotta tell u too many things i said that i won’t get into

already came in like a wreck, like could it get any worse?
i always talk it down i hope that i dont get hurt 
found out all of the words that you had said and i…
kinda shoulda wish u woulda coulda maybe been that boy

NO U NEVER
YES U DID
U NEVER MEANT TO MEAN THAT
AND U SHOULDA 
WISH U WOULDA
COULDA MAYBE BEEN THAT

got my hopes up for it to mean nothin
if ur just gonna pretend all along 
that u could be that boy
wouldnt have let it
if ur never gonna get it
through ur head
i should forget it, for what?
( u'll never be that boy)

u couldn’t have been him at all
figured it out on my own
i should’ve known that he was never gonna be that boy
i cant help but say that it’s dumb
and so i’ll stay on my own
i should’ve known that he was never gonna be that boy

Been That Boy!

produced by @typhoondll + me

lyrics:

[long ass intro with hella vocal chops for no reason]

u try to bring me along somewhere i wont go
u think ur calling my bluff but bitch i wont fold
got hyperflexed knees bending so low
my head is scraping the ceiling pray i wont grow

im losing feeling in my legs sitting waiting
got so much pressure on my head to keep it vacant
i run in place, keep posting my face make it famous
just so i can go replace it put a glaive where my brain is

i said im happiest for you that you lucked out
somehow only way i show it is i run out
smoke my lungs out 
try to hold back tears they send a flood now
every day's the same gotta wait another one down

counting all the time i lost watch the clock as it ticks by
all i got spending every drop i wont miss mine 
all i saw, u took my bar hit it six times
its gonna be all ur fucking fault when that shit dies

remember please, you dont own our memories, no
you shared with me and at best u had a lease on it
all i see bitches stare at me, keep watching
cant make me bleed, wont prick my finger on cheap comments

im sick of fake compliments im begging be honest
i hate the way the friendly faces are the least common
alone time for my whole life making me chronic
dont need a feature im the only one i see on it

i said im happiest for you that you lucked out
somehow only way i show it is i run out
smoke my lungs out 
try to hold back tears they send a flood now
every day's the same gotta wait another one down

counting all the time i lost watch the clock as it ticks by
all i got spending every drop i wont miss mine 
all i saw, u took my bar hit it six times
its gonna be all ur fucking fault when that shit dies

lucked out (p. typhoon + leyton)

this took a while
huge shoutout to dirkle aka @deadman

prod. me
live instruments recorded by me also

available on all platforms!

lyrics:

(chriad)
you know your words cut deep
everything you said to me
you make it hard just to come back home
you know i'm struggling
'cause i'm never sure what you mean
when you change your mind and i never know

but i know the
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
got me fucked up for no reason
i don't understand your feelings
and you never step out to calm down a bit
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
got me fucked up for no reason [for the rest of my life]
put all the blame onto me
you give me no choice but to leave

(deadman)
i‘ll take the blame for it all
despite the fact i tried
you just put up a wall
and filled my head with lies
and i know you won't change, love
you fucked up the way i think, love
and i don't know what i'm doing here
with someone who'd take my life
(deadman + chriad)
if they could now

(chriad)
if they could now
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
truth hurts you don't want to hear it

truth hurts you don't want to hear it
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
got me fucked up for no reason
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]
truth hurts you don't want to hear it truth hurts you don't want to hear it
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
got me fucked up for no reason got me fucked up for no reason
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]

[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]

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truth hurts (ft. deadman 死人)

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oh how I'd know
it would take the toll
oh I can't go
back to where I fell from (x2)

another fleeting thought
I'm anxious once again
I'll double down on feeling worse
thought I'd get far this time
and how I'd know you'd fake me out just in the end
I'll take my chances, spin my fate
I'm on the angel's time

oh how I'd know
it would take the toll
oh I can't go
back to where I fell from
run from those
empty thoughts, no more
oh how I'd know
you'd leave me down and torn

(vocal chops)

yeah it takes the toll (x4)
oh yeah it takes the toll (x2)

oh how I'd know
it would take the toll
oh I can't go
back to where I fell from
run from those
empty thoughts, no more
oh how I'd know
you'd leave me down and torn

(vocal chops)

It takes the toll

@osoarin
prod by me
spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/6zpZxjbIRakhJmLzQJ4wnH?si=326ec8f3acd245c0

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It takes the toll

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