my music

Don’t read it because she’s lying (she knows it so she shows it). Don’t think this much at home. If u got platitudes in yo head…..JUST DONT SAY EM.

Feels like a lie like my heart is going to pump out of my chest. A lie about my conventionality to people that don't matter, also a lie about my growth to people that do. A lie about my person to everyone. There is a schism of where I am and where I want to be that can only be achieved by long term investment but I just crave crave crave crave to be instantly gratified. LOL. I should not delete this stupid caption to acknowledge the shame of self-betrayal and the wound it leaves. I write this to depart from the dead skin but not dispose of it. Read and weep at All these dumb platitudes that aren't even funny. Because all these funny insincere words are just me lying to everyone like I used to. To everyone's long-term detriment but to postpone a short-term realization of shame. Because I am literally too guilty all the time to even bear a moderate average amount of shame. I want to be stronger than this but I'm trapped in the cyclical need for strength to handle the shame I feel constantly but lie about to not confront because Ultimately I lack that strength but I need the strength, I need to break the cycle. Sorry for the dumb caption originally. I want to be as funny as I can even when I'm incapable because I don't want to be alone. I need constant validation even though I am self aware of the fact I should try to be strong enough to stand alone with an internal understanding that I am valid. I want this to be temporary, so I am sorry for the time being where I am not where I want to be. I will achieve this growth by the correct and most sustainable means, however long it takes.

FebMar 23

Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VXXLUP-xnzI&ab_channel=1N3K0
presave for streaming servies :) https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/1n3k0/double-agent
prod. @veinwires
(Angel, save us!)
patience is key
switch sides double agent
on me
3.5 ima face it
so geeked

and i can show u a life u wouldnt believe
cuz i was sitting up in the nosebleeds
aint nobody act like they know me
no im not ur bro not ur homie
back when i was broke tryed to hoe me

woah
smoking gas yea its medical
really wierd questions feeling like its federal
woah

patience is key
switch sides double agent
on me
3.5 ima face it
so geeked

and i can show u a life u wouldnt believe
cuz i was sitting up in the nosebleeds
(sniper enemy sniper take cover!!)
aint nobody act like they know me
no im not ur bro not ur homie
back when i was broke tryed to hoe me

and i didint even care
life aint fair
everywhere i go
they just stare
so i dont like to go nowhere
all designer fabric its a must
yea u can look but u can never touch
yeah turning all these flowers into dust
i been up for hours
i cant trust noone
i cant have no fun
one more line then im done

stand up and my vision gets blurry
gotta go i think im in a hurry
baby ill be home dont worry
gotta go i think that she heard me

patience is key
switch sides double agent
on me
3.5 ima face it
so geeked

and i can show u a life u wouldnt believe
cuz i was sitting up in the nosebleeds
aint nobody act like they know me
no im not ur bro not ur homie
back when i was broke tryed to hoe me

(found an exit lets get out of here)

Double Agent (wirecutter)

@y4ndere @h1yori

i rest my head and sleep pretending
that i am fine and that i never let you down
fall in this cycle of unwanted actions
suicidal an unconscious state of mind x2

thinking back
i realize
i was too blind
now my heart is numb
you were never honest
this time i can tell
you always break your promise
wish i could be indifferent
my brain is in dissonance
  
this burden that i carry
wish you could see thru my eyes
you said that i should grow up but
you could never live my life
and i would never trade it 
i know that ill make it thru
the night, ill be fine

ive been self reflective lately
i know i cant fix everything 
but it feels like im running out of air
every time i wake up and youre not there

fine「prod. yandere + hiyori」

betrayed 「prod. yandere」

@onepttwo
@dearlyxdeparted

@heartstopmiami

ship tht shit all the time get my money in
put it all right 2 the side im not an idiot 
bro caught double homicidies nd he was jus try fittin in
fell down offa line nah he aint finish it 
stg yea alotta yall pussy 
good in every city make a call come nd book me
leave me alone if this shit jus for looks pls
i skipped the state cant find me they still looking
pullup nd we fill the room with lemon tree 
bouta flip a sweater turn margiella into ketamine
old friends they embarrassed they cant fw me
pullup nd they starin i live luckily 
tell em hml u need ur remedy 
i jus want u to die we aint enemies 

yea yea ok 

when he starin in my eyes i swear its meant 2 be 
couldnt care like if i die snort more amphetamines 
and my bro still in tht cell they gotta let him free

(miami)
i might cry in this bitch
i got ties in this bitch
i hope everybody mf dies in this bitch
gang slide in this bitch
shoot fye out the whip
bullets fly out the whip
did he die? we dont know
we just dip man
countin cash in the whip, with the hitman
big bong rip man
feeling sick man
took a tab on the train
ima trip man
and it meant something else for me
333 my body, zero dna is all ibleed
take a bite, i got winter on my teeth
smoke that big thang then i fall asleep

lemon tree

lemon tree w/ heartstopmiami (1.2 + dep4rted)

(mannonightmode)

had 2 tell u what it worth
and what it aint hoe 
pls dont get it twisted
onna mission nd we take those 
4 the guap 
id do anything id trade souls
had 2 feel the pain, heavy rain 
stayed the same tho
we jus walk in 
they take pics of us like vouge
to the ppl tht stay stalkin 
pls just leave my ass alone
in my zone 

kno tht its prolly nvr gon feel tht new again 
i pick up the phone my bro poured 
.25 of mutagens in his drink 
makes u think 
does it get much better
any way good w/ me 
ig its whatever 

(wsup neko)

but it wasnt whatever to me
i jus been flyin i go overseas
alotta yall wierd i see u agree
thts why ion hear when u talkin2 me
wasnt whatever ig 
movin weird nd ur bro get left
i like smokin cz of the stress 
couldnt hear bro what u said? 
i said wait gimmie just a min
cant put ths down nvr quit it no

i wanna look back like we did it bro
the way tht yall act it be pitiful
really unfixable 
i cant say tht i missed it tho
tht shit made me miserable 

walk in the spot like i did it
they sayin they aint seen sum1 like me ina minute 
dont cut me off i aint finished 
if we in ur city then dont even wonder who did it 
yea 
gave me time now they seein the vision 
we goin up u cant miss it x2 

(ion really like ++) 

had 2 tell u what it worth
and what it aint hoe 
pls dont get it twisted
onna mission nd we take those 
4 the guap 
id do anything id trade souls
had 2 feel the pain, heavy rain 
stayed the same tho
we jus walk in 
they take pics of us like vouge
to the ppl tht stay stalkin 
pls just leave my ass alone

mutagens

mutagens (mannonightmode)

prod. @onepttwo @akutonu

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/4oj7AXuUjIK0BKUkSgi8jo?si=00e93e51098a45c9
Music Video: 

like aah 
had it cross my mind 
but i swear id give it all up 
i swear id be fine 
do u have the time to call us? 

well 
i dropped outa college
ill get it up tho
lived till 21 bitch
i miss my damn bro
fucked over tht one shit
cant understand hoes
leave with what im done with
thats how the plan goes 

all know thts not how it went
or how it should
nd no i dont keep 2 many friends
prolly good
i told bro i nvr stress
but im stressed out
im not one to be impressed
keep ya head down 

theres ts i wouldnt wanna miss out on
omg i aint seen u in so long
hesistant thats some shit i cant count on 
ima keep on singing till the crowd gone 

(yea but u chillin w/ ++ bitch) 

like aah 
had it cross my mind 
but i swear id give it all up 
i swear id be fine 
do u have the time to call us? 

well 
i dropped outa college
ill get it up tho
lived till 21 bitch
i miss my damn bro
fucked over tht one shit
cant understand hoes
leave with what im done with
thats how the plan goes 

stand up my bros they right next 2 me
bad luck nd my blood full of thc
hope alotta ppl dont remember me 
roll it light it up its like a effigy
keep telling myself tht it was meant to be 

like aah 
lost it all b4 im not scared to give it up 
if ur life is boring go ahead and switch it up
or give it up
ket nd molly got me walking like im drunk 
in it prolly im not gonna give it up 
winnin prolly im not good @ giving up  
in the party i cant give a single fuck
have i evr been enough? 

(yk what i think i am? i think im just a rock chick)

like aah 
had it cross my mind 
but i swear id give it all up 
i swear id be fine 
do u have the time to call us? 

well 
i dropped outa college
ill get it up tho
lived till 21 bitch
i miss my damn bro
fucked over tht one shit
cant understand hoes
leave with what im done with
thats how the plan goes

effigy

effigy (1.2 Akutonu)

prod. 
@yumenikki
@reklus1ve

Spotify:

lyrics: 
tell me when its up
when theres nowehre left to go
come and say wsup 
im tired of letting go 

nd i know it sucks 
but i shouldnt rush the process
head down need to reasess
and i know it sucks 
when im really fuckin off it 
so just call me when u need me next, oh
ion wanna be the one to let, go 
and ill make it work because i said, so
bby hold me close nd nvr let go 
i been wishing for the weather turn cold
walking back thru that snow 
feels like magic i know 
walk away and break slow
hope that we can stay close

say im down for like whatever
bby hmu whenever u just gotta lmk
ya ill pull it together 
ill handle all the pressure
trust me bby ya i know 

im sayin u can kill me if u want to
or hmu if u just wanna talk to
im goin i think you should come along too
cause it would be a shame like if i lost u 
if i fucked up
long walks holding hands till the suns up
with u like i got nothin to run from
aint that fake shit
this is real love <33

real love <33

real love <33 (freger ++ reklus1ve)

plus plus (laughter) 
hahaha 

woke up still got ecstasy its on my tongue from last night 
still remember what they said to me the first time
so dumb kno this plan aint gonna work right 
ionex in my soda cause it looks nice 
kno we blessed ya we know what the hurts like 
kno im stressed of tht powder picked the worst life 
had 2 go nd lose it all, get it back again 
if u need it js call aint no middleman 
nd he think tht he involved but he js a fan 
burnin bridges as i fall gotta stick to the plan 
im indifferent to it all on the scale mg 
nd ur reqlly not at fault ya i seen tied hands

jump dont look back 
made a wish told myself it was gonna last 
mad as shit, prolly bout the way tht i been actin 
ion do it for applause or th reactions 
nd no ill be long gone fore the action stop
roxy in my stomach im so high i cant talk 
or walk
bby where u even goin all th time u seem lost
if i ask u what u kno u js gonna say lots 

really dont talk to the dudes tht i used to 
i can barely walk when im rollin *shh* 
had a bitch blocked, he still screamin i need u 
so see thru 
man ts sad 
miss what we had ig 
bby dont be mad put ur hands on my chest 
screamin from the stands we the best we the best 
ion got a reason to be stress ig i

ionex

Ionex (1.2 akutonu)

prod: yandere
vocals: kerosene + crescent
lyrics written by: yandere + crescent

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