So pretty. Arrangement here feels a bit like voyager - quadeca <3

unfortunately this will be the last thing i will ever release anywhere. this demo has been sitting in my files and i wanted to just put it out there, especially after my music has been deleted from all platforms. to anybody and everybody who has supported me and my passion, thank you so much and i wish you all the best! 
- ilytwelve/blank

prod. blank

lyrics:
it felt so wrong
until now
mind at peace
through sound
it's been so long 
since i've seen your smile
watch the weeds 
grow all wild
and oh i adored your face 
that never changed 
the river banks 
had our names on them
so here i am waiting 
for darkness to fade 
silence to say
to let go.

yellow ( demo )

Out On Spotify & Apple Music

produced by nte

~ lyrics
face down on the table that we yelled at
and there were words thrown on my phone that i stared at
and i got competition on the name that i excel at
yeah somebody sell that im sure nobody felt that
cant make decisions on my own
and my eyes and hands are glued to phones
and the words i said are set in stone
leave me alone, leave me alone

and im working past 5 with my hands on my head
thinking about how wrong you were
and to think i gave a chance to a person like you
makes me wonder what ive heard
now im dying alive feeling chained to my bed
cause i couldnt get to her
what a waste of my time thinking dead or alive
that id get to see you hurt

so i threw my face down on the table that we yelled at
and there were words thrown on my phone that i stared at
and i got competition on the name that i excel at
yeah somebody sell that im sure nobody felt that
cant make decisions on my own
and my eyes and hands are glued to phones
and the words i said are set in stone
leave me alone, leave me alone

so i set up camp im sleepin with a crown on
and i never gave a chance to hear him mouth off
and im takin my time to piss the crowd off
pullin out the 90 plus 10 to keep it real cause i
never heard you once say
that you ever meant it that way
and if i did im so sorry cause i fucked up
aint no turning back now yeah its too far gone

and you can tell right now that im upset
there's a whole lotta talk up on my name but nothings come yet
imma pack yall bitches imma put you in a blunt
smoke until im done yeah you better r-

uh yeah you better run, yeah you better run
ill smoke you like a blunt

out on all platforms 

https://open.spotify.com/album/690ROHhErsz0miOJW49LxF?si=mwg72MuCRH6Yp9y8geSpLQ

(prod. RFM beats and ‪beatsbyshvrs‬)

(mumbling)
(yeah x1 trillion)

yeah , tell me im the worst
baby idk if thats a gift or its a curse
cuz you never wanna make this work out
now all i do is fucking hurt now
yeah
baby do you ever need me ?
yeah yeah
put my issues in a damn shell
they like jayne why tf
do you even need some damn help
baby im just struggling
tryna pour my heart out
and you never listen to me anyways ..

oh oh oh
i been trying so hard
you look the other way
when im even in your arms
i feel like ill never be enough for u
baby i been struggling to love you
oh yeah
throw my life away
they be listening to my songs
but dont know what i say
sometimes i hate my voice
i cant really help it
i only care abt my self
im so fucking selfish

one plus one
yeah baby
thats just me and you
and were so stuck like
what?
thats glue
will you be there if i need you?
one plus one
yeah baby
thats just me and you
and were so stuck like
what?
thats glue
will you be there if i need you?

look the other way
i dont wanna be seen right now uh
i thought that i lost myself
and then you came and found me out
i just really hope
that you dont ever let me down
then i was so fucking sad
and you turned me upside
upside down

uh yeah
miss the days when you
left marks on my body yeah
miss the day when you
said that you “fuckin love” me yeah
miss the day when you
would look in my eyes
oooh my
god damn think i fell in love twice
god damn think you look so nice
god damn will you be my wife
(wait thats a little bit too fast)
like do you need a hug?
ik that these other guys just wanna
come and fuck
like baby i can treat you right
ik that you want love
like baby i can be someone that you trust.

(someone that you trust x 10 million)

one plus one
yeah baby
thats just me and you
and were so stuck like
what?
thats glue
will you be there if i need you?
one plus one
yeah baby
thats just me and you
and were so stuck like
what?
thats glue
will you be there if i need you?

(one plus one thats just me and you and were so stuck like what thats glue youll be there if i need)

self prod

when i cross ur mind will u look both ways
stand ona other side cant read ur face
too much on the line gotta win this race
cant feel my eyes off the novocaine
living like suicide i can feel no pain
tell me how u feel inside when u live wit no gain
lot on my mind i cannot, yeah

stay by my side when i wake up tomorrow
play bout my life not living tomorrow
k on my mind when i wake up tomorrow
no time to cry worry bout it tomorrow

every day that i live a decision
better stay out the way out my business
if ima aim ima shoot wit precision
keep to myself and act like i aint did it
in the whip wit the windows all tinted
i pray to God every night that im sinning
why they get mad what i did when i didn't
how can i trip bout a bitch i aint missing u
i sip dusse i sip henny
like its water i drink plenty
bad bitch feening buy her fendi
just to shut up she resent me
i get too much i get dizzy
count my moolah im too busy
aint gon do ya so get busy

when i cross ur mind will u look both ways
stand ona other side cant read ur face
too much on the line gotta win this race
cant feel my eyes off the novocaine
living like suicide i can feel no pain
tell me how u feel inside when u live wit no gain
lot on my mind i cannot, yeah

shit get too turnt im outta control
they do u worst its taking a toll
if i fuck up nobody will know
i cant find it tell me where to go

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#tmrw

produced by chromecue (n me a little)

cover art drawn by my brother & edited by ilxrrrr

//lyrics 

you been keeping my eyes wide open
you been leading a life im hopin
i can have a part in i chose it
dont know where we started
well, i forgot it but
oh well
dont tell nobody else
i need you to myself, oh
been waiting on a call all week
ill take it like its all on me
just give it up
tied around you and its pitiful
aint been getting much sleep, lately
around 3 terrified of that dream
i swear to god if i dont get sleep, ill
have you running back to me
my tears have only grown old
right here you saw me stone cold
my fears, ive never once shown
dont treat me like a sword in the stone bae if it all
depends on the weather
you cant move on when its said and, done
if you cant get better
dont, come to me with all your letters ill run
till we cross ill be far away from that era
when you fall i wont wanna get back together

like im in a coma
wrapped 'round me like a cobra
dont talk like i aint been in this so long
i got some memories that i could pull up
speaking of
i just wanna talk to you, baby
one stop till it all goes, crazy
dont drop what we all know
I, get a call when its autumn
it says you right there, (f*ck it)
it says you right there
we aint talk in so long
its like i dont even know ya
i dont care cause we're so in
scared and we know it
and i dont wanna give it up
tied around you and its pitiful
you dont act surprised its by design
tell me everything
it alligns i treat it like your medicine
like a crutch telling me it hasnt been, over
we gotta cut it off while we're still young
we'll grow old
its just fun, till your part of my soul now i need to grow up
we've grown cold
dont treat me like a sword in the stone bae if it all
depends on the weather
you cant move on when its said and, done
if you cant get better
dont, come to me with all your letters ill run
till we cross ill be far away from that era
when you fall i wont wanna get back together

cobra

everything produced and engineered by me
live guitar recorded by yours truly
im really goated yessssssirrrrrrrr

my brotha taught me how to ball
i got this new notion i could prolly rule em all
no its not if or when i dont decide when i fall
always tripping over shit so how exactly do i ball?
still the 4peat start just to show my respect
oh this my favorite part, new patek on my shit ahhhh

you get the sediment and we can make a settlement
i say it's vetements, im fresher than what the reverends in
i paid the settlement pardoned for all the debt im in
new rich embezzlement seeing life just for what it is
she got me stuttering speaking with speech impediments
just passing judgement will never make you benevolent
im smoking good weed im knowing this shit is prevalent
i keep on questioning character for my betterment

my brotha taught me how to ball
i got this new notion i could prolly rule em all
no its not if or when i dont decide when i fall
always tripping over shit so how exactly do i ball?
oh this my favorite part, i been sayin we the best
brand new whip push start, margiela on my chest

my ass is spent, smoked a whole gram that's .0022
im at the peak of my emotions don't know what to do
im swallowed up by the envy i need to change my view
god what the fck is wrong with me im only 22
i think i had my midlife crisis i was 19
my life's a battle with my ego i'm still fighting
and the music is my therapy
feel like before the music wasnt meaning anything

my brotha taught me how to ball
i got this new notion i could prolly rule em all
no its not if or when i dont decide when i fall
always tripping over shit so how exactly do i ball ball ball

my FavoritePart (1sloan)

li.sten.to/tansea-patience

Lyrics:
I just called lil' Scott the other day
He said I'm cooking
Got me some attention with this music
Now they looking

I can never pass up on this chance
Nah nah I took it
I gotta move real, yeah
I gotta move real

I gotta move real calmer
Stepping outside the house today
With a fit that match my bomber

Could've been up today
But I got my patience like my mama
I'm tryna bring my brothers, yeah
I'm tryna move real smarter

I gotta move real calmer
I gotta move real calmer
Stepping outside the house today
With a fit that match my bomber

Could've been up today
But I got my patience like my mama
I'm tryna bring my brothers, yeah
I'm tryna move real smarter

And I came a long way
Got big things coming on the way
And I think it's finally safe to say

That I'm starting to gain a lil' ego
And I saw that you got distant
But you're claiming it was me though

You're finally getting my vision
But for me it was simple and clear though

I don't need your recognition
I don't need your friends
I don't need your heart
I don't need your superstition

Don't place no label on me
I don't need no definition

Want to say it's luck
Want to say I got paid
I'm my own real-life musician

It's been a minute since I got inside my bag
Yeah, yeah I'm sick, huh
I've been outside for way too long
It's been a minute since I've came like this, yeah

I said what I said and I meant it
Viewing my life on the tv's getting you nothing
Not even a mention

I gotta move real calmer
Stepping outside the house today
With a fit that match my bomber

Could've been up today
But I got my patience like my mama
I'm tryna bring my brothers, yeah
I'm tryna move real smarter

I'm tryna bless my girl so bad
Like "bae don't worry bout' drama"

I gotta move real calmer
I gotta move real calmer
Stepping outside the house today
With a fit that match my bomber

Could've been up today
But I got my patience like my mama
I'm tryna bless my girl so bad
Like "bae don't worry bout' drama"

They keep saying I'm cooking
Got me some attention with this music
Now they looking

I can never pass up on that chance
Nah, nah I took it

patience (p. me)

all songs written, mixed, mastered, & performed by me
produced by micheal harrison
additional production by me, nerc

There's no need to cry
There's no need to worry
I'm right here my love
Tell me you can hear me
When I call your name out
There's something that fears me

There's something that fears you
What are you afraid of?
So what if I get near you?
So what if I know your in and outs?
So what if I know you deep down?
So what if I know your true self?      
Bae I'm never here to hurt you

My pretty girl

I wrote your name on the paper until I fell asleep
I pray to god that you're healing and find some inner peace
I tried to end it couldn't tell you what's got into me
Reach both my hands out and saw something that I'd never seen
We were so damn young
So damn young
So damn-
And it's not your fault
It's not your fault

My pretty girl
You’re such an angel my love
I miss you I miss you so so damn much
I miss you oh I-

my pretty girl

all songs written, mixed, mastered, & performed by me
produced by plantcham

Had the world in the palm of my hands
Oh pretty girl, why'd you do me like that?
The teller asked me if I've died yet
Told him give me couple minutes let me digest
Do you feel the high yet?
I like bleeding cause I don't think bout the time spent

Tell me, do you feel the high yet?
I like bleeding cause I don't think bout the time spent
I was clean for like a month but guess I digress
Tell me baby, do you feel the high yet?
Don't let go
I just need to get my mind right
Do as I'm told
I'll stay clear, outta your sight

Don't hurt me
I'm sorry
I hate my body
Do you smile at the thought of me?
Severed nerves and my bones grown weak

Oh judi
Oh judi
Have you thought about me lately?
Oh judi
Oh judi
Tell me, have I gone crazy?

Had the world in the palm of my hands
Oh pretty girl, why'd you do me like that?
The teller asked me if I've died yet
Tap her shoulder ask her do you feel the high yet

oh judi

produced by @arysvance
written by @arysvance
cover art by @arysvance

lyrics :

two double o nine

back in that time
there's nothing more than just a silly place
do you see familiar faces
oh yeah i know those are things that i grew up watching
so let me take you into this world

and i can't live without nostalgia
feature phones and old camcorders was a thing at it's time
but there's something so beautiful about it
so bring back to the old times

saving everything for the lights
through a wayback machine it's alright
it's more beyond daydreaming about the memories that have passed by

it's not that i feel lost
you think that i am sad about the things i miss
and you'll understand the joy of old things
sometimes it might have last for so long
it has never been gone

there's so many things to see
everything you'll ever need
all of the charm from aesthetic that seen from your eyes
green moutain white clouds & blue sky
so let the birds fly

i'll sing you a song with a melodyne
cuz my vocals aren't that great to shine
i stayed up for so long
i can't sleep what is wrong with me
oh i'm stuck in the past it's just who i am
live to see everything
over here where i stand
it's just a part of me that i can't let go
[ you're the deer in the headlights ]
and i can go back decades in the light to see the year

[ oh whatcha say ]

my pretty girl

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