oh my god.. i forgot how in luv i am w/ u n ur voice

house-pop + fellow villager @lizablaise

stream limina album already: ffm.to/limina
go follow igggggg: instagram.com/redhxrse

final lunge

maybe this life ain’t for me,
when i’m too used to scraping the barrel.
imposter in myself, it seeps,
every clique makes me the resident sparrow.
tried and tested method,
to be with them up there,
but i guess it’s not just me to save,
for the ones back home it don’t seem fair.

the shivers i get every time i feel pain,
are the only thing grounding this body of mine.
and i feel this burning in my eyes,
bright sensations of the sunlight,
it seems like a way out,
but i fall for it every time...

what have i gotta do to get me out of this shit?
it’s been five whole years n not a thing has changed!
feels like i've got too many eyes on me but no-ones watching at the same time...
what have i gotta do to get back my happiness?
i'm so sick n tired of listening to what she says!
is there a saving grace, one, where i don’t have to die?

@lizablaise limina queen slayed:
sure you knew everything, 
left all your troubles at home all alone in a box
you really think that's all that you got?
tried to explain to my mom and my pops 
but i'm late again for work so clearly it's all my problem
place all your bets on my chance of success
lace up my shoes put me through it again
the less you're letting me know
i'll carve the space out my own
and yeah, it's all cause of you
the reason i gotta prove

your expectations drove me down to the floor
i've tried but you ask for more
stuck sitting silently
i'm starting to believe you've got no way of remorse
burn through my time abroad
touchdown but still i find it odd
'cause who needs me here when the weather's much better up north?
done what i could to find what i find
all out of sight and all out of mind
a century of push and shove
tethered to the sky above
i don't want your sympathy
just remember me when the weight has caught up
soon or just eventually, we'll be back in place when the pain has washed off

what have i gotta do to get me out of this shit?
it’s been five whole years n not a thing has changed!
feels like i've got too many eyes on me but no-ones watching at the same time...
what have i gotta do to get back my happiness?
i'm so sick n tired of listening to what she says!
is there a saving grace, one, where i don’t have to die?

last breath...

limina

sparrow

stream the mf song

sparrow, +liza blaise

interlude

run up my album limina on streaming: ffm.to/limina 
ig: instagram.com/redhxrse

my bones
magnetised to this bed
it's perfect timing 
all my friends, they all left
but it's all okay
it's just my nature
all my life
never been nobody's favourite

tryna find my way thru this mental mud
n i say i'm fine when i know i'm fucked
by now i've gotten used to the eyes
when they turn to see n it's only cos they hate me
repeat !

i been reaching i been grasping
at these social straws for way too long
laying every thought out in these documents
this ain't a song
they keep saying that i'm losing sleep
n getting wrinkles but it's more than that
give a fuck about my sanity
can't ever relax

cos i keep burning all these bridges
stopped replying to a message
it's a fucking full circle moment
you're the ones in shambles
maybe the voice inside was right
since they left me right by the wayside
n it hurts talking to ppl
live a 24-hour bedtime 

my bones
magnetised to this bed
it's perfect timing 
all my friends, they all left
but it's all okay
it's just my nature
all my life
never been nobody's favourite

tryna find my way thru this mental mud
n i say i'm fine when i know i'm fucked
by now i've gotten used to the eyes
when they turn to see n it's only cos they hate me
repeat.

am i clean?

confessions

@c4v 
spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/4PNCcJCpwuHjmxpKZEA1Lq?si=LkS9nYRyQcirSq2oQKlK4

alwaysとvaletical

tryna get tips on love im fluent

https://soundcloud.com/scrufff :D

prod me and https://soundcloud.com/dramatrial

scruff - vanilla 🌿(sai ~ drama trial)

produced by aftrr and @prod_pk
featuring @scrufff

on my timberlake shit ion got no suit n tie
she think that im taken baby its just u and i
in the rari laneswitch, double doors it suicide
all these hoes they basic ion gotta decide

what u really want from me, i want u to decide
roll another collard green, dont worry bout no other guy
she dont wanna talk to me, on my page she stalkin me
new day new memory, if it aint bout money dont talk to-

like

new mercedes drop the top
that girl hate me she get blocked
double cup sip ciroc
i aint messin wit no thot, oh
copy me just stop, woah
trappin out the tahoe
see me up now they wanna follow

<scruff verse >


it seem impossible but i been ona mission
philosophical, her words, it gimme wisdom
bankroll, money talk, ur pockets fiction
baby come to me, u know u dont miss him

on my timberlake shit ion got no suit n tie
she think that im taken baby its just u and i
in the rari laneswitch, double doors it suicide
all these hoes they basic ion gotta decide

what u really want from me, i want u to decide
roll another collard green, dont worry bout no other guy
she dont wanna talk to me, on my page she stalkin me
new day new memory, if it aint bout money dont-

like

new mercedes drop the top
that girl hate me she get blocked
double cup sip ciroc
i aint messin wit no thot, oh
copy me just stop, woah
trappin out the tahoe
see me up now they wanna follow

yeah walked in, im the man of the room
look at me i look at her now she askin what it do
but i cant pay no mind, waste my time, sorry if im rude
but she know she still mine, still treat her right, cuz i aint like that dude

tryna talk down on my name but know nothing abt me
think im goin insane im off the gas so loudly
brodie bring that paint in case that boy he wanna doubt me
off the gas sleepin soundly, off a perc my head pounding

SPOTIFY !

suit n tie w/ scruff

max: https://soundcloud.com/maxrrss
bugs: @bugs
//Lyrics

(Scruff)
Obvious you tryna do this by yourself 
Stick up in the background keep it on the shelf
You got this sh*t passed down, i dont need your help
You dont need to back down, i could get this dealt
With
I cant be alive with the selfish
Puttin me on trial, but i felt it
All the gas wont help it
Im tryna say somethin

(Max)
So tell me, whats wrong
I dont wanna see you, too long
Be gone (gone)
(gon-gone)

(Scruff)
See your eyes you been cryin
Thats on me
You try to be biased
I cant breathe
I know my ex is proud of me
Get it out
Shoulda said sumn, but your missing out
See this out, whatchu on about
said im sorry
Thats on me
I dont need a possy
Set me free
Oh oh you dont know my pain
F*ck F*ck imma break these chains
I dont hear you, say my name
Say my name

Obvious you tryna do this by yourself 
Stick up in the background keep it on the shelf
You got this sh*t passed down, i dont need your help
You dont need to back down, i could get this dealt
With
I cant be alive with the selfish
Puttin me on trial, but i felt it
All the gas wont help it
Im tryna say somethin

(Max)
So tell me, whats wrong
I dont wanna see you, too long
Be gone(gone)
(gon-gone)

(Scruff)
You dont need to back down, i could get this dealt
With
I cant be alive with the selfish
Puttin me on trial, but i felt it
All the gas wont help it
Im tryna say somethin

(Max)
So tell me, whats wrong
I dont wanna see you, too long
Be gone (gone)
(gon-gone)

selfish w/max [p. bugs]

@traxee

*You know i wanna be ur MAIN

Rawr

valentines day W/ TRAXEE !!!!!!!

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/4Zb6IFiMkT0WwKw8u9vkcJ?si=ce7a676df2a04657
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/spoder/teller


produced by nate & jacob
written and performed by me
twit & ig: @1spoder
nate ig: @__nerc
jacob ig: @jacoblincoln_

something more upbeat for next one i promise
thank you for listening :)

///
i'm failing right down
you're a waste of time, wasted mine
waste of life
keep my feelings fortified
tell the teller if you really wanna die (die, oh die)
would you, would you put your trust in me
would you, would you turn your back on me (i tried, i try)
stay on weird timing (i stole this from humza)
i'm lost but i'll find it
an anecdote alive in
a pit in my stomach
responsible for pain
there's this thought in my-

beaten right down
a waste of life
i'll build a wall of concrete lies
i should've told you
i can't focus well
your soft spoken yell

head on the floor
walk in circles
you're all i adore
i'm still hurt though
is this how it's supposed to end?
is this how it's supposed to end?

i gave my all
you like watching me fall
i don't get it at all
whether right or it's wrong

teller

prod aftrr and maxwell4k
a celebration of everything, ty 4 all the love
out on all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/aftrr/sorry-not-sorry

lyrics: 
what u need
tell me its just me n u
maybe we could rendezvous
take u out then back ur room
ill see u soon
get a table just for two
i kno im not here for a long time
so tell me whats ur mood

im out in town like where u at?
dont get too close dont get attached
i spend my money make it back
my heart been runnin, livin fast
i whip it, dip in the mazi
shawty she tweak off the molly
in the club she thought she saw me
hate me, im sorry not sorry

money like manny but i aint no fighter
u still rockin Pandas, im rockin desiigner
bitch im a playa like word to luh tyler
i keep that beam on me, shoot like tie fighter
i keep that fye like a bic no lighter
dripped in all black let my chain shine brighter
aint no surprise, on my  grind, all nighter
did it by myself, need no help
im still self made
they said that im toxic
idgaf im well paid
she so bad 4 me but out of spite
i'll love her anyway
yo pockets falling apart
im sippin chardonnay 

bitch im the man of my city im finna hold it down
bp born and raised, for my fam ill turn they life around
gotta keep goin i dont think ill ever settle down
pretty hoe like how i do it she likin how i sound

im out in town like where u at?
dont get too close dont get attached
i spend my money make it back
my heart been runnin, livin fast
i whip it, dip in the mazi
shawty she tweak off the molly
in the club she thought she saw me
hate me, im sorry not sorry

drank, molly water
whole fit top dolla
oh all these lil boy they my son
im the shot caller
spend a bag, make it flip
double that, dont give a shit
spend a bag, make it flip
double that then take a flick

baby do u really need me?
when i talk to u, u dont listen, u only see me
idk, lmk if u really moved on
where to go, yeah u know, wya just reach me

(this last section is inspired by tyler the creator's pillowtalk remix :D)

im out in town like where u at?
dont get too close dont get attached
i spend my money make it back
my heart been runnin, livin fast
i whip it, dip in the mazi
shawty she tweak off the molly
in the club she thought she saw me
hate me, im sorry not sorry

sorry not sorry

its true though
(i do not condone the usage of coca*ne)

pretty girls do cocaine

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/16aPg17al8DKBm8LyMn4eE?si=9f8e74ca0f344527
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/spoder/cd-feat-ry-2

guitar by othello
additional production by me and ryan
written and performed by me and ryan
with @rywrrd (show him love please)

i lied i'm sorry next one will be a summer tune <3
thank you for listening always :)

///
a toast,
play your cd
the music brings you peace
alone
so don't mind me
I had a stupid dream again

you thought you had from the start
I don't want have to break your heart
but it broke
and now that cd drowns in static
a sour note
I highly doubt it

your favourite song
your radio I turn it on
we fell in love in your shitty car
with static on your heart
screaming out our favourite part

I made a stupid decision
in my mind, clouded dumb inference
I gave it all that I had
but all I had was indifferent
I'd break my arms off to help you
if it meant that you would listen
I stare and talk to the wall
scratched disc had tarnished the image
I thought I loved you

teller

spoder

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