written by sace6
produced and mixed by noah thomas 
mastered by chris gehringer

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lyrics:

[intro]
my insecurities are eating me alive
and I spend every waking moment stuck inside
console my friends and reassure them that I’m fine
but I’ll cast aside
my fractured mind
and maybe I’ll forget I wanna die

[verse 1]
wake up just to waste away
feel the poison inside my veins
and I
i think our parents were right again
fuck the game it’s so hard to win
so tell me lies my heart is open
criticize my art I’m broken
terrified of words unspoken
no second tries just forward motion

[chorus 1]
my insecurities are eating me alive
and I spend every waking moment stuck inside
console my friends and reassure them that I’m fine
but I’ll cast aside (aside)
my fractured mind (mind)
and maybe I’ll forget I wanna die

[verse 2]
felt this way since 18, yeah
dropped out of college still no escaping yet
i liked it
you like this
now I hate the excitement
whatever
when I think that I’m going somewhere I never am
fucking sick of your honesty, like I give a damn
they’ll call it a dusting; it’s an avalanche
avalanche
not a chance
saving me’s irrelevant

[chorus 2]
my insecurities are eating me alive (and I don't want to live a life like this)
and I spend every waking moment stuck inside (can't seem to figure it out)
console my friends and reassure them that I’m fine
but I’ll cast aside (aside)
my fractured mind (mind)
and maybe I’ll forget I wanna die

[outro]
console my friends and reassure them that I'm fine
but I'll cast aside
my fractured mind
and maybe I'll forget I wanna die

balance

Killing You To Heal Me w/ ghostsocial (dollategabeats)

prod by stezzyxl
enjoy^\^

lyrics:
lately i’ve been feeling like i’m fucking dead
a walking corpse hanging by a single thread
about to cut loose; the hand that i was once feed
oh no i beg

for mercy
i’ve done my best for you, but you just hurt me
i question myself if she really knows me
1 year down
i’m on my knees
and i still beg to this day

for closure
whenever u sad, u had my shoulder
whenever i was down, i just got lower
i screamed away
oh i’m in pain
and i still beg to this day 

for you
never once a day i didn’t love you
i treated u the same after i’ve been through
all the lies
and all the fights
and u won’t do the same

ur a piece of shit
ur a liar
our memories
are now on fire
ur like a cigarette 
with a bitter taste
left inside my mouth
i can’t erase 
ur pathetic
ur delusional 
u find it so cool
like an aesthetic 
u think ur always right
u wanna start a fight
u want the war? i’ll bring it to u
u won’t win this time 
oh i am different now
u can’t control me now
i won’t allow ur words to hit me if i hear a sound
and i will block u out
and i will turn u down
i’ll turn away from your mistakes, u cannot fix this now

self prod 
Check out @b_murph
Thanks to @sinxi for helping with the production of Murph's verse! 

LYRICS

If I could rip my own heart out my chest
I`d make the best life for myself
I`d take what I can
I never want to mix our mistakes
Feel like a cunt
But I dont want to lose all our love
I know that its gone
And I know all the healing is done
She don't even like my feelings for us
Rip my heart out when your feasting for blood
Cuz I know you need a hunt

Happens to myself Nobody exists
I share these planets to myself
So nobody is near
I hate these feelings man I swear
My hearts to closed to cope
My hearts been close to you
And if I wake up
Would it really ever change
Or would we break up
Would these feelings change our ways
Or would I stay tough
I dont like to fucking stay around
For you

I could restart my whole life
But would you let it go
Would you let it go
ima send him home
break down my life, check whats inside
would you break all of the promises you set to cause
I never go back
all these feelings when they go home
Never had it when you love back

Let me go
But now I’m all alone, it’s not that hard to phone
She looks me in the eyes
And takes a sip of wine
She says that I’ll be fine
It feels like it’s a lie
She takes another sip
And my stress multiplies
I cannot trust this bitch
It could mean my demise
So I
Leave while I can, I cannot watch this
Go by
Feet in the sand, my minds a mosh pit

I could restart my whole life
But would you let it go
Would you let it go
ima send him home
break down my life, check whats inside
would you break all of the promises you set to cause
I never go back
all these feelings when they go home
Never had it when you love back

RESTART (feat. B Murph)

lyrics -
hard to think there's no way, incredible
you had him take my place
then one of you
tried to drag my name so i wanna know
what part u had to play cos' i'm sick of u

and it's funny cos' i think you've gone and lost it
got your hand on the button saying 'watch this'
and my hand's under the table as i hear you
staring as i came into the room but i don't see you

why you gotta act like that?
waste my serotonin like that
baby fix ur attitude
why you gotta do me like that?
why you gotta act like that?
waste my serotonin like that
baby fix ur attitude
why you gotta do me like that?

S.O.S i caved
but i'm still alive barely
tried to beat the struggle but got lost along the way
went too far alone, no rest 
and took it on myself to prove the dark would coat the day
hard to show love most days
no compassion from my friends
but i love that i pulled through
never know for certain
but i'm glad that i'll be home soon

scared to death of life i'll
battle through the pain and kick it off so
don't you ever worry i'm okay, love
cos' i don't really care no not at all though
stick a sword straight through me, watch me bleed out
i won't say a word i'll make you feel that
this moment that we're in will never end
a new life for us will grow
begin

freeze baby, put your hands to your head
'this is love?' she said
i don't get this or the conversation
i ain't good with stress
i can't clean the mess you left
great now it's complicated
just put the gun away, love
there's no time to fight me, we'll figure you out
take my hand and slowly we'll figure this out

i could steal my heart right back
give me fuckin credit cos' i'm loving all that
trauma that you're giving when you're thinking too fast
take another pill i'm sure it'll slow u down

~ fear

your eyes are so pretty
oh, i cant walk away
noooo
you turn my stone 
one word and ill break
so perfectly far
cause me to shake
try to be the best
no less then you deserve
but honestly im a mess
i feel like the worst

sie ist meine frau, meine liebe
says she hates the way i talk myself down
tells me im enough i dont believe her
filling my head with my own doubt
maa baayad baa ham baashim
and i believe it honestly
your eyes when i fall asleep
so close youre apart of me

trust no one like i trust you
none of my friends know what ive been through
maybe 2, ask how ive been lately
i dont expect them to save me
youre all i have
i run 
deep in the forest while you grasp my hand
turn back
i know hes out there waiting im back

im all over you 
back, say it back
oh i need you bad
youre my plus, im a negative
you sorta show me what its like to feel anything
and even though im so embarrasing
i feel like nothing really matters when youre next to me

oh my lord how the fuck did you save me
holding on to you, my blanket of safety
oh my love, now my body is aching
a thousand miles and an ocean, between my home
home
let me bring you home
home

(hand)

grasp my hand

waking up, at least im by your side
cause when i fall asleep i know im only down one flight
and oh my voice starts shaking when i say goodbye
whys it such a strong word, no it doesnt feel right

you can see all of my flaws in this light
and still say you love them and tell me im fine
that dont make sense no i dont feel alive
i couldnt love me even if i tried

so where do i go
im sat here alone
and my bodys gone numb
nobody 
nobodys enough
so how could i be, worthy of you
i dont understand now im always confused
in truth
im obsessed with you
dont move
dont move
it feels like were fused
and i dont wanna risk our welds getting loose
so ill practise for years with a solder and glue

all my friends forgot me and left on their own
its such a small town and i dont fill any hole
maybe know me by my face but they dont know me at all
and its so bloody rubbish getting stamped on the floor
if only you could see how im the centre of it all
youd get why i keep leaving dont reply on my phone

so where do i go
im sat here alone
and my bodys gone numb
nobody 
nobodys enough
so how could i be, worthy of you
i dont understand now im always confused
in truth
im obsessed with you
dont move
dont move
it feels like were fused
and i dont wanna risk our welds getting loose
so ill practise for years with a solder and glue

flaws

Out on Spotify
@sinxi <3 
Self Prod 

Lyrics 

If you want to lie, tell me that you lie for me
If you want to cry, tell me something nice to me
Numb these feelings that you never learn to miss
I know feelings turn to shit, in this way that we stay up

Break up Break up
On our way out
Take us, take love don't erase us
I don't need nobody else
Left up in my head
Everything you said
I don't need nobody vacant
Tell me something when you say nothing
And these feelings that we left
I don't want regrets
I just want to feel things that we never left

I need someone in my mind that's going to love me back
I need someone on decline that's going to wait for that
Everything you ever say
You don't need no wedding ring
You change seasons in a day
You look at me you say
Wake up, took the day drugs
Love you till you speak to Satan
Then you break up
Tell me lies longer than acres
will break curse
On this leave your feeling vacant
So vacant, guess I got to leave

(Sinxi)
What you saying to me
Think you better calm it down
I just said I was on my way
Irritated by the words you say
And it ain't going to get any better
I been losing all sense of self
So it doesn't mean you don't recognise me
I been going for way too long
And I know that its so disheartening

Break up Break up
On our way out
Take us, take love don't erase us
I don't need nobody else
Left up in my head
Everything you said
I don't need nobody vacant
Tell me something when you say nothing
And these feelings that we left
I don't want regrets
I just want to feel things that we never left

CURSE (feat. Sinxi)

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Lyrics:
you called me out and i hate that
last night we fought through the combat
im so fucked and i know that
im a walking dead man in a Hellcat
i cant stop if i tried to
denied all the signs
you was lied to
im not worthy of forgiveness but

im stuck so far away from all the action
we was fucking like its passion
and i just self medicate
like an assassin, you shot me down
i don’t know anything when i unfasten
black out almost crash it
lowkey tryna end my life but make it passive
i cant reach out

somehow saying sorry feels too melancholy
i’ll just leave my body cut for you
soak in anguish
probably shouldn’t take this double dose
im spacing out
i feel brand new
cuz im not ready to talk
‘pardonne-moi’
you know that
its no competition
let go of that pedestal shit
but i see you win and choke on my own thoughts
i hate myself more than i ask for help
i tried to crack my shell and all i felt was loss

im stuck so far away from all the action
we was fucking like its passion
and i just self medicate
like an assassin, you shot me down
i don’t know anything when i unfasten
black out almost crash it
lowkey tryna end my life but make it passive
i cant reach out

you called me out and i hate that
last night we fought through the combat
im so fucked and i know that
im a walking dead man in a Hellcat
i cant stop if i tried to
denied all the signs 
you was lied to
im not worthy of forgiveness but

i drink
and drink
and drink
so excessive that i think i broke the link tying you and i
stay away
hurray, purging feelings in the sink
for the fifth time this week
how can i forget?
what you did to me is burned into my head
like a cigarette
smoke
the scent
the dread
nothing can put these pieces back together
(x2)

Vehicular Manslaughter

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lyrics:

I don't got lies to sell you
If you want I'll pretend to
Keep an eye out
For a daydream of a rescue
I don't know what to tell you
Maybe I'll just forget to
Keep a cover up
On the things I never meant to

I don't got truths to sell you
If you want I'll pretend to
Keep a blindfold on
For a nightmare of a rescue
Never know what to tell you
Maybe I'll just forget to
Keep it all away
Say the things I never meant to

What am I supposed to send
Letters all wrapped in red
A ribbon or two or ten
For anything to make sense at all
Every single thing I said
It's gift-wrapped in my head
All paired up with some greeting cards
I scribbled in my bed

So there’s a ransom for a promise that I'd never hear
Burn it down and build it up for another year
If I take my pictures down will I disappear
That's really what you gotta hear, that's really what you got

I don't got lies to sell you
If you want I'll pretend to
Keep an eye out
For a daydream of a rescue
I don't know what to tell you
Maybe I'll just forget to
Keep a cover up
On the things I never meant to

I don't got truths to sell you
If you want I'll pretend to
Keep a blindfold on
For a nightmare of a rescue
Never know what to tell you
Maybe I'll just forget to
Keep it all away
Say the things I never meant to

Hear me out
I'm not a saviour anymore
I keep on melting through the floor so I can't
Stay around
Let me just get my shining armor
And go ride off on my horse

That's what you wanted right
A daydream of a rescue
What you wanted right
A fairytale to run away to
What you wanted right
That’s what you wanted right

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