marchtwentyone, twentytwentyone.
its all coming to a close.
produced by anvii.
guitar played by @ayyitsryo.

im sitting on the surface
i made me feel worthless
i know i fuck up
im angry with myself
cuz i cant stop thinking bout u
wish u could be mine 
because ur all i need

its all over
im getting older
all of this shit is all the same
i needed closure

tears on the way to the city

closure

stream

predictable

forget u

if u love me now then shoot to kill

i found a strand of your hair right in my pillowcase
i can't describe the feeling how my heart aches
there's so many things that i wish i could say
i guess i only wonder if you're playing it safe
everything was meant only to be, just not as long as it seemed

but i could never cheat on you, or even anyone
unless they did it to me first because i might be that petty
my insecurities, there might be too many
i wanted nothing more than us going steady

it's such a shame how the times have changed
i renounce it all and let the feeling remain
another day, dead and gone to waste

i tried to go back and find it, that's when i knew i was wrong
ran out of words to describe it, that's when i ruined the song

all the water in the ocean couldn't wash that stain
wish i was feeling something other than pain
and i've been going through the motions with no chance to complain
worried i'm working without something to gain

aching from the weight of my grief, show me mercy

show me mercy

but i could never cheat on you, or even anyone
unless they did it to me first because i might be that petty
my insecurities, there might be too many
i wanted nothing more than

i spent my days trying to be multifaceted
in some years i'd try to tally up the damages
i can't hope you'd take me back, i guess i'm past it
and like the other song goes, "i like to do magic"

fear is only a feeling that only feelings can change
i still try to maintain, but despite everything strange
our different phases of life, i'll never blame
i light the spliff and hope the emotions fade

i tried to go back and find it, that's when i knew i was wrong
ran out of words to describe it, that's when i ruined the song
all the water in the ocean couldn't wash that stain
wish i was feeling something other than pain
i've been going through the motions with no chance to complain
worried i'm working without something to gain

how can ever keep myself from harm?
running away to scream inside my car

MERCY

prod. me and 31sentinel 

sorry for not dropping that much this year, this is my apology

my lungs are fake
my arms will break
my eyes are glass
my brains a mess
i lost my friends
i lost my head
the walls are thick
the thought will pass
are we okay
are we the same
i love you more than i could say

so can we talk
of what we lost
the word is out,
think i forgot?
another day
a small mistake
the world is what
we make

f*ggot

prod by me :>

lyrics:

"sorry I haven't talked to you in a while.."
"I mean its only been a- [???]"
"..which I guess in the grand scheme of things isn't that long"
"isn't our life like a blip in the cosmic calendar or something.."

talk to me, i love your voice and it's features. 
love on me, give me everything you offer

down again, not near the top, again
i'm lookin down, again, not one to talk, again
i'm feeling lone, again, no one around, again
i'm killing time, again, still stuck on you, again

and i been..

down for a while now, feeling like im dead now
can't muster the courage to talk to ppl im 'round now
dried eyes from crying out, hoping someone hears how
im dying in my room, singing lonely songs to deaf walls

down for a while now, feeling like im dead now
can't muster the courage to talk to ppl im 'round now
dried eyes from crying out, hoping someone hears how
im dying in my room, singing lonely songs to deaf walls

"makes me hate myself that I've already gotten used to the idea of her not being here"

"in a year, I'll maybe think about her every once in a while. and then she'll become an anecdote"

“a thing to say..”

"..I knew a girl that died"


"with the added bonus.. of- ..she died because of me."


"maybe I should hate myself"

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sorry for being dead lately. 
life isn't good as of now. 

...

tomorrow is another day.

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again

Off “Darkflower”

[Lyrics:]

I sense the end might come
Like the water rising

You seek the missing link
Likely to sew or break the soul

Let's see if you'll try

lust

Everchanging

written by: Jesse James Pontt
prod by: Kvn. & JesseMelancholy
mixed by: JesseMelancholy
mastered by: Xenura

hit me, two am new year eve
miss me, i’ll see you next week
(uh) long road home, bet i’m driving it
in my mothers car putting up the mileage (yeah)
fake greenery on your ceiling, fake when i say what i’m feeling
chew on my tongue ‘cause i want the peace to stay there, at least for a month
we can’t tell if we should hold on, is all that we’ve got all that we want?

recall events so differently (yeah)
heart thumps i’m driving up your street (yeah)

chasing my tail right to your front door
we just can’t capture the feelings that we felt before
i know that everything is temporary, i can’t be your sanctuary
everything is temporary, i can’t be your sanctuary 

yeah, oh, yeah oh, yeah, oh, yeah oh
yeah, oh, yeah oh, yeah, oh, yeah oh

the tensions there so i might just leave (yeah)
flip a chair so my friends can see (yeah)
that what you said didn’t sit with me
my gut is turning around 

i don’t want to wake up and change my mind
but let’s be real, i probably will
the hill that we’ve already climbed, only continues to double in size
move in with your father if you just so please
couldn’t ever guess that would impact me in the way that it did
are we making it? are we making it? ‘cause i’m still

chasing my tail right to your front door
we just can’t capture the feelings that we felt before
i know that everything is temporary, i can’t be your sanctuary
everything is temporary, i can’t be your sanctuary 

yeah, oh, yeah oh, yeah, oh, yeah oh
yeah, oh, yeah oh, yeah, oh, yeah oh

i can’t be there, oh, i can’t be there, oh
i can’t be there, oh, i can’t be there, oh
i can’t be there, oh, i can’t be there, oh
i can’t be there, oh, i can’t be there, oh

sanctuary

Barely Functioning (Ft. Vrils)

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