@redhxrse (producer)
@oroahh
@lizablaise
@1spoder

@redhxrse
i feel the snowdrops touch
see them glisten in the sky
feeling cosy w a hot mug of coffee, 
oh, what a life!
n the nice warm glow of the fireplace
god, it could put me to sleep
i wish this season would never change
feel like I'm living the dream

hear the bells start ringing
and the snowman says hi
while the children in the distance
have their little snowball fights

@oroahh
it's 6pm now and the sun isn't out
the breeze is so cold when we were walking about
she was calling your name from like outta the crowd
don't leave her side yet
is it real bad that i doubt you?
don't get me wrong i feel like shit too
i feel the same
you fucked up this shit in like every which wayyy

@lizablaise
babe, it's getting so late
walk up to the door, you're driving me home
the glow on your face like lights that adorn
all the streets leading back to you
made my mind up, you're all i choose
last winter broke your heart in two
spin the record and watch our blues fade away
the mistletoe's waiting, the angels are pacing
impatiently i sway, then your hand's on my cheek
and the sleigh bells start ringing, my winter gloom's at bay

@1spoder
were you satisfied?
i lost my head in the snow, you found it
i wish i made it all up, i've fallen in love
there's no point to dance around it
i wanna watch all the snow pile up
frostbites cover my arms
up to my heart
there's no point in lying, it causes more harm
oh my dear you look frigid
the snow falls the same whether which way you put it
can you promise me one thing?
to let it down slowly

snowdrops

i don't wanna hurt you
oh do you
do you think i've hurt you
or should i lie on the ground like i'm supposed to
no i never wanna hurt you
take a breath white lies fill up your lungs
i'd rather give it up this time
you lied
throw it like a dud
i don't remember much
you said a couple words
my face thrown in the dirt
i thought it wouldn't hurt

dirt

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obsession (maskedman)

luv u twin soundcloud.com/scrufff

i could b there for u, idc what i do to myself

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scruff - flower journal (sai)

mel by @yokulol
written and recorded by me
cover by me

lyrics:

bitches talkin shit but they aint shit to me
all these fuckin labels want shit with me
why does everybody wanna deal with me
im too tired, too tired
but i guess its just what i deserve
faceplant, stomp down, know it hurts
last night i lost my worth
yeah, thats my shit dont care

yeah thats my shit, my shit
thats my shit uh huh
yeah thats my shit, my shit
thats my shit uh huh
no-scope through your face, know it burns
yeah i dont miss, dont miss
yeah thats my shit, my shit
thats my shit uh huh

you're so- you're so- 
annoying -nnoying
like everybody else just wants a piece of something
you're just- you're just-
like poison- poison
and my nights are highlighted with superficial noises

baby ima tell u straight up
every fuckin time i see your face i wanna break up
left the party early so id never have to change us
now im countin money in my hand its like im famous
and that shit was so difficult, mm, mm
like pins and needles through my skull, mm, mm

yeah thats my shit, my shit
thats my shit uh huh
yeah thats my shit, my shit
thats my shit uh huh
no-scope through your face, know it burns
yeah i dont miss, dont miss
yeah thats my shit, my shit
thats my shit uh huh

bitches talkin shit but they aint shit to me
all these fuckin labels want shit with me
why does everybody wanna deal with me
im too tired, too tired
but i guess its just what i deserve
faceplant, stomp down, know it hurts
last night i lost my worth
yeah, thats my shit dont care

curb

prod by aftrr and fortuneswan
cover art by aftrr
all plats: https://ffm.to/thelessiknow

[intro]
i cant keep begging for u
like
if it was me next to him who'd u choose
like
our love is falling off
cant get u off my mind at all
and now ur marching off
still waiting for u to call

[verse 1]
it's a lot on my plate
all this shit that they just throw at me
expect me to eat it up
only so much to take
but i keep going and going 
crawling my skin, ur my poison
i cannot show my emotion
am i so easy to hate
to u
in the mirror, who's who
look around, visions clearer
see u leaving too soon
step out of my life like what's new
late nights i'm up until noon
but for ur love i was a fool so

[chorus]
it's like the less i know the better
she want me to test her
dont need to remember
cold just like december
the less i know, whatever
ur dancing with whoever
go back n forth forever
no pressure
call my name like whenever

[verse 2]
take a picture, move past it
cant fool me, see thru u like plastic
spent 10 bands, make it back, match it
money dance, running man, balling like magic
blue, red my cup no superman
when i drop, the whole world get ecstatic
idgaf bout a bad bitch
savage
all this fuckin money u can have it
everybody wanna be up lavish
madness
treading water, chase another catfish
ima throw it all away and my heart still static
numb all the pain, why am i not happy
say we gon be okay, can't have it
so tragic

[bridge]
i dont wanna choose no side
baby tell me where u reside
i'm tired of losing my mind
so

[chorus]
it's like the less i know the better
she want me to test her
dont need to remember
cold just like december
the less i know, whatever
ur dancing with whoever
go back n forth forever
no pressure
call my name like whenever

[outro]
i can't keep begging for u
if it was me next to him who'd u choose
like
our love is falling off
cant get u off my mind at all
and now ur marching off
still waiting for u to call

SPOTIFY !

the less i know (aftrr fortuneswan)

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/0IHbekaueGek7nFPKpZpbD?si=89260079818e4242
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/spoder/desideratum

produced by 8een & arcane
additional production by me
mixed written performed by me
+ thank you eve for mixing advice

frick north york
thank you for listening, i hope you enjoy <3

///
the more that I try, more that I hide
the more that I try, more that I hide

the past few months I felt like I would die
before I did anything that I loved, oh my
I'll stay strong
eighteen round the corner, how'd I (make it!)
this long
all the pressure makes my head hurt
give it time and it'll get better
and if you hate it well then, know I put in effort :/
I do my best, how dare you say that I don't
still get nervous when there's lumps in my throat

I'm aware no one said it'd be easy
spoke to the teller now everything's clear, see
it all
pretty girl
girl

and if I don't wake up
tell every single person I love
that I put all my heart in
I will be an artist
there'll be people that care and I'll build something honest

go!
don't hide
do you even know who you are?
go!
how'd you even call that shit art? (desideratum)
go back pull your hair out, restart

I can't focus well my darling
got a stutter when I'm talking
you broke the news as I was walking
news when I was promised

desideratum

end the year right

all plats: ffm.to/redhorse-anecdote

words:

verse
felt like yesterday
that i had all these fucking words to say
i was free and all alone
no one was gettin in my way
keep on punching thru these walls
the clock keeps getting louder
bloody hands all up my face 
jus wanna tell u that im down there

prechorus 
n im wasting my time
putting those thoughts in my head
n i was reading ur texts 
try n feel some typa way
u know ur home to me
but i always pull the plug
from my reality
let you know now

chorus (one of my best)
that im way too fucking done
get me out this rut 
am i just another anecdote
another bit of fun
standing out here in the cold
stood me up with all them missed calls
they all look at me weird now
what am i here for   

break

rap
no eye contact jus mind my business
mantras like dat were drilled into me
not enough for the cool ones like u
not soft enough for the nerds and geeks
odd one out, was a way of life
too hard to make friends thru struggle n strife
sat by the keys practicing bee thoven
before i couldnt say it right
every day i stare down the clock and dread the time ticking
mum tells me that im just being silly
cry on her shoulder im too scared to die
see pitch black it’s the last day of my life
like what would i do then
anything to get out this system
9 to 5 nightmare situation 
n now u fucked me up lets face it
lets face it

bridge
what is life 
when we're drifting apart
what is purpose 
when i cant fall in ur arms
asking all the questions 
what is all your rush
oh u distress meeeee

alt prechorus
and im going insane!
having those thoughts in my head
thought u loved me in those texts
feeling all these kinda ways
u know ur home to mee
but i always pull the plug
from my reality
let you know now

chorus
that im way too fucking DONE
get me out this rut 
am i just another anecdote
another bit of fun
standing out here in the cold
stood me up with all them missed calls
they all look at me weird now
what am i here for
repeat

ty 4 listening, love all of u
also did sum actual non-midi guitar on dis 🫢

anecdote

@zephyrcove 
out on all plats

guess i always thought i’d be okay
things dont usually happened that way 
i wish i could miss u the way you miss me 
but we don’t have to talk about it 
never thought i’d leave you stranded 
but we knew things wouldn’t be the same 
as they were when we were fifteen 

you know i never found a way to cope 
but i’m glad to know that you never lose hope 
looking back it was never what we planned to be 
going home was what was best for me 

i wish i could miss u the way you miss me 
but we don’t have to talk about it 
never thought i’d leave you stranded 
but we knew things wouldn’t be the same 
as they were when we were fifteen 

fifteen 
never meant much to me 
but as long as you’re around 
i can see it  
i don’t wanna leave you now 
but that’s okay 
that’s okay for now

fifteen

with @riensu

produced by @ihateukidu

spotify: https://spotify.link/QvikfVoncDb

me:

tell me what you want
i cant help but follow through
you know what it was
you gon tear my heart in two
dont got time to lose
its way too hard to choose
you aint been in my shoes nah
girl what i need to prove im

falling out of love
you dont see it though
driving me insane girl
way too many lows
times not the issue
cant lie swear i miss you
all the shit we been through
tell me if it tempts you

i dont wanna mess it up
girl u dont know how to trust
got no time to readjust
many times my heart been crushed
girl you break down
all my walls
damn i hate it
when you call
said i wouldnt get involved
girl you dont love me at all

run around,
when the sun is down
do you love me now?
girl are you playing around?
run around,
when the sun is down
do you love me now?
girl are you playing around?

riensu:

baby you know that i still think of you
you got me thinking what did i get myself into
i been needing you
i hope you need me too
dont wanna waste my time
on you
youre the only one that i've been needing in my life
speeding on the highway, bae im going 85
only when im with you is when i feel so alive
so let me know if youre down to ride

tempts you w/ riensu (kidu)

produced by aftrr and will rhead
all plats: https://ffm.to/rqj2oyo

lyrics:

[intro]
i dont wanna talk if ur just gon run away
break my heart, said u wouldnt want it any other way
and my life, gave it all to u
ended all too soon
picked up my pieces, im not begging u to stay
no more

[verse]
damn
i guess we’re falling apart
everything so unexpected
wish i knew from the start
i kept it copacetic
tried my best to play my own part
still got a few more hours with u before my flight depart
u told me its not me its u
when did love become an issue
i know that im still missing u
but i cant deal with the misuse
and ur on my mind
feels like a waste of time
cant wait for u to decide so

[chorus x2]
i dont wanna talk if ur just gon run away
break my heart, said u wouldnt want it any other way
and my life, gave it all to u
ended all too soon
picked up my pieces, im not begging u to stay
no more

[verse 2]
hop in the whip v12 new mazi
pop out the rims new lens they carti
i am too up im ricch like roddy
yellow my cup like piss no potty
u know its up, fw nobody
count up the deads, my pockets zombie
sippin that red, blue pill that molly
ts been killing me slowly
the words that replay, u told me
do u tell ppl u know me?
yeah u know me u know my body
stick to myself, dont say u saw me
i dont pick up when they call me
i dont even trust nobody
cut em off like get off me

[bridge]
we on different sides (baby tell me, tell me)
where ur heart resides
fall in love, fall out, no surprise
fuck it up, run it back, its alright

[chorus]
i dont wanna talk if ur just gon run away
break my heart, said u wouldnt want it any other way
and my life, gave it all to u
ended all too soon
picked up my pieces, im not begging u to stay
no more

[verse 3 idk this the drop tho]
tell me what to do (is it me or is it u)
conversations overdue (me or u, who to choose)
cant keep up with the way u move
tell me what do we got to lose
u put my mind in a ruse so

[chorus]
i dont wanna talk if ur just gon run away
break my heart, said u wouldnt want it any other way
and my life, gave it all to u
ended all too soon
picked up my pieces, im not begging u to stay
no more

[outro]
if it's not me then who
u loved me, is that still true
reciprocated love, so overdue

dirt

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