upd: made this song when i was bored and it became my biggest song, i appreciate everyone who listened or listens to this song. thank you :)

one of us prod me

@paranormalparty
@vampiremutual
@prodelxnce

nobody can find you
i need a sacrifice and i think i found
the angle voice sounds so weak when i cut inside 
dont you betray me im gon lose my mind
(hey, let go)
i need to let go of the reasons why i lost my mind
and it's not your fault you can't decide 
see them in the pool i fantasize about you

and ik she in love with me
we were meant to be
you belong with me
the room gets filled with clouds 
you dont think i control you now
you say im crazy i said me too
do you wanna live or die it's on you
who in my top 5 nigga not you
treat me as an angle from above i watch you

what you want me to do 
im way too good to you 
you left me down up on my knees you left em black n blue
im so sick and tired of doing what they want me to
and it's all your fault 
you built into something im not
and now it fells like i ripped out my heart.

I WATCH YOU. prod sydney + elxnce #PARTY

someone like you .edyn

shelved since feb 2024
wait, and i'm sorry that i'm distant
and everything you do, i'll go against my wishes
tell me oh
hurt my bones tryna fix it
then why do i still miss it 
ill stand bleeding in the kitchen
and you'll sit by and look and listen
and you’ll sit by and look and list-
sometimes i wish i did
cut me off just with a snip
all our life was just a fib
for better or worse
 i wish that it worked…
and if you killed me 
no one would notice
and when she killed me
i guess i never noticed
hold still and watch me tote this
i cared for you so much i guess i owed it
wait, and i'm sorry that i'm distant
and everything you do, i'll go against my wishes
tell me oh

@PatheticGirl43

prod me
10.5.24

chorus
what's up witchu 4x
what's up
what's up my luv
having fun
thats what's up 4x

cant give it up
nah nah nah
think im stuck
ran out of luck
think i need some help yea
or i need a hug
thats what's up yea
thats what's-
switched up
yea they all switched up yea
real love
all i want is real love yea
big truck
whipping in that big truck
all these other dudes they suck
im the one to cuff yuh
i dont care about the fame
i just let the money talk
i just got a brand new chain
i just dropped a hunnid ball
im feeling invincible
its about the principal
aint nobody listen tho
aint nobody, aint nobody

what's up witchu  4x
what's up
what's up my luv
having fun
thats what's up 4x

what's up?

@scorpiioh photo by @zzoos

what do i do when ur not here
falled in love with u but its not clear
i know that u got options
but i dont want u to choose
and u never told me that u knew
living life in a perfect blue
all these nights that i cried over u
and its all bc u couldnt tell me that one thing
tell me u want me to change
u could tell me ur tired of the same
i would tell u im tired of these games
(that u play) and i thought that u wouldnt judge
but is it my fault im not enough
im feelin awful im feelin stuck

bae dont look at me like im the one that u wanted bc we both know thats a lie
and im tired of this shit but i cant show it cuz i know that i'd break down and cry
(and i say that i miss u) but before i come back yea i think that i'd rather just die
and it took u so long just to tell me the truth that it must've been a thousand lies

and its all bc u couldnt tell me that one thing
tell me u want me to change
u could tell me ur tired of the same
i would tell u im tired of these games
(that u play) and i thought that u wouldnt judge
but is it my fault im not enough
im feelin awful im feelin stuck

blind faith prod. scorpiioh

tell me all your deepest all your darkest fears
ill keep them in my head store them all far from here
and right before i go i start to shed a tear
and girl i might as well let you know it’s getting hard to hear

baby please just see that i’m somebody, body
you loved me well when i had nobody, body
you know i’m better than the first option, option 
you loved me well when you had no option, option

is it weird that i think about you still
glimpses of our motion, real (reel)
picture off kilter 
i watch you still
ohhhhhh and i give you 5 stars
and i look up at my mirror-
saw it was too dark (yeah)
(i'll see you on your worst day)
and when the thought of it all comes back to bite me
…its right beside me

and when i bite my lips girl i think about you 
and when i bite my lips girl i think about you 
girl i think about you oh

(i'll take you with a grain of salt)
too

baby please just see that i’m somebody, body
you loved me well when i had nobody, body
you know i’m better than the first option, option 
you loved me well when you had no option, option
(and it's like oh, how far i gotta let you know)
(late to escape, how far i love this place)

i think i'm scared that i still love you, no
i think i'm scared that i still love you, no

The fear of loving you / Tooth sinker + gunk

take it all from me
i need you to take it all from me 
need your touch
take it off for me
i need you to take it all from me

yeah i like it like that
whenever you’re gone i just need you right back, my love
yeah i love you like that
do you like it like that
whenever you’re gone i just need you right back girl
baby don’t move too fast

i don’t gotta say a word she know what’s next
all these other guys are nerds, give it a rest
she know i’m sliding through i just sent a text
now i’m all up in her room, looking for the bed
when i look her in the eyes, she say “you the best”

and i latch onto you so hard they’d have to take me
like the fourth of july, make it boom for my baby
i tell her “shut up, make me”
too gorgeous, i thought i was dreaming girl save me

i can’t even front, yeah i want you so bad 
got you in my grasp, make me feel so glad
all i do is write songs bout you girl, my bad
if i saw you on the road, think i’d almost crash

one of us prod me

2xdev