i wish i lost my memory it seems like all ill ever be is all i ever really was im so disgusted with the things i think so take my broken wings and fly away with them for me im scared ill be a memory im scared you'll hate my entity my energy my damages im scared you'll see my bandages

Back 2 U

thank you so much for all your support. i am forever grateful to you. all of you.

llɐ ʇᴉ sʎɐs ǝɔuǝlᴉs ɹnoʎ

ƃuᴉɥʇʎuɐ ɹoɟ dn ǝɹǝʍ noʎ uǝɥʍ ssᴉɯ ᴉ (ft. Barren)

Mixed by me. 
Act 1 - Club Fukai [SadieWhere'sMyLighter?]

[9;30pm Club Fukai Back Entrance] - "A man stands outside of the back entrance of the club diligently typing away on his cellphone, while partially distracted from his surroundings. A woman in black high-heeled boots approaches him and they both make eye contact for a short time before the man diverts his attention back to the phone".

Woman - Must be important. 
Man - What was that? "Confused"
Woman - Your phone homie, they can probably hear your ass typing from inside the club "she giggles" let me bum a light off you for a sec before you crack the screen. 
Man - "Reaching into the inner pocket of his leather jacket" What makes you think I smoke hm?? 
Woman - Uhh I don't know.. you look sketchy, and plus you got little spots of ash on your jeans. 
Man - "smiling"  Fair enough, I'd like my shit back when you're done.
Woman - Yeah yeah.."Smiling Seductively" thanks creep.

"Motive smiles back".

"Two girls burst out of the back door and grab the woman by her elbow frantically"

Woman 1: BITCHHH!!!! Our song is one bring ya ass in here!!!
Woman 2:  C'mon Sadie, you know we never miss this shit. LESS GOOO!!!
Sadie: Damn okayyy, fuck I can't even finish my cig!!? 
Woman 1; Nah bitch move it!

"Sadie drops her cigarette and the three rush in, music blasting as the door slams behind them to drown out the sound".

"The man opens the door after them and yells in"

Man: Yo can I get my lighter back or nah??!! 

"The girls disappear into the crowd, the man, now annoyed, readies himself to head in after them until he hears a voice approaching from the street behind him" 

Man 1: YOO Motive!!
Motive: "Looking over his shoulder" Yooo wassup Nova! 
Nova: "Approaching with two other men" What's good fool?
Motive: Shit bruh was just out here waiting on ya'll niggas. What's good smokey?
Smokey: Shit just coolin bruh, tryna turn up. 
Motive: Word, ya''ll tryna step in?
Nova: Yeah yo I got some gas to for the late night sesh as well. 
Motive: Ard bet as fucking well. 

"Motive heads into the club as Nova and Smokey follow behind him. The three walk through the crowd only for Nova to be sidetracked by a woman the other two aren't too familiar with. Smokey follows behind Nova as he makes his way towards a woman and her friends carrying on an inaudible conversation. Motive is about to follow but notices Sadie dancing further off into the crowd. Motive makes his way towards Sadie who's face disappears between the bright flashes of light. As Motive reaches a close enough distance Sadie appears to vanish, only to run her hand across his shoulder and whisper in his ear" 

Sadie: I saw you watching....Creep. 
Motive: "Now staring at Sadie who has moved in front of him" Yeah you ran off. 
Sadie: With your lighter? I'm pretty sure that's not the only reason you came looking "Sadie smiles seductively now wrapping her arms around his neck" 

"The two dance rhythmically for a short amount of time before the sound begins to intensify and Sadie pulls Motive into a dark area. Sadie turns around and presses her back against a wall with a dim red light above it, as she pulls Motive closer to her" 

Sadie: "In a quietly seductive tone" I felt like It'd be good to hold onto it...ya know..I knew it'd give you more of a reason to.."Motive slowly presses his lips against Sadie's neck as she reacts in satisfaction"...to come...see me. 

["SadieWhere'sMyLighter?" Begins to play]

ACT 1/5 - SadieWhere'sMyLighter? (Prod. The Virus & Antidote) [STORY IN DESC.]

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/innerheem Mixed by @rareakuma

"Motive wakes up in a hospital bed with bandages around two of the fingers on his right hand, and small stitches for the lacerations on the bridge of his nose and chin"

"Confused, Motive looks around the room as nurses and doctors chatter among themselves, Motive scans the room as one of the nurses glances at him and smiles. Motive recognizes her as Sadie, and sits up quickly until he suddenly realizes that his left hand is handcuffed to the metal arm piece of his hospital bed. Panicking he yanks his arm at the handle a couple times until a voice interrupts him from behind the sky blue medical curtain located to his left".

[Motive]: YO WHAT THE FUCK!!??
"Sadie walks out of the room carrying a clipboard, and closes the door behind her as she stares at Motive, all the while exposing a strange tattoo on her wrist".

[Motive]: YO LET ME THE FUCK OFF THIS SHIT...SADIE!!! SADIE YOU BITCH!!

"Panicking he yanks his arm at the handle a couple times until a voice interrupts him from behind the sky blue medical curtain located to his left".

[Unknown Male Voice]: Sheesh...They got you to huh bruh?
[Motive]: Huh? the fuck is going on?
[Unknown Male Voice]: Medical arrest bro, what'd you do?
[Motive]: I can barely remember to be honest, some bullshit DUI, but I wasn't even driving bro.
[Unknown Male "Pulls curtain"] : Damn that's rough...you must've been on some wild shit bro, what they call you out here?
"Motive starts to calm down"
[Motive]: Yeah, and it's Motive...you?
[Alex]: Alex bro, or you can call me fukk.
[Motive]: Fuck?
[Alex]: Yeah haha, "F..U..K..K." as in fukk you, or fukk them, or fukk off.
[Motive]: I'll stick with Alex bro. 
[Alex]: fine with me. "Alex gets up on his feet and starts pulling his IV needles out of his skin" 
[Motive]: the fuck you doing bro? 
[Alex]: Getting out of here. "Alex tosses his handcuffs on the hospital bed and covers them with a blanket".
[Motive]: Yo what the fuck how'd you do that shit?
[Alex]: Nigga this ain't my first time in. "Alex laughs". 
[Motive]: Well fuck bro help me out, im in here on some fuck shit this crazy bitch got me looped into, and im not about to let myself take the fall for all of it". 
[Alex]: Damn that's fucked bro, you know where she stay?

"Alex unlocks Motive's handcuffs in under 10 seconds using a sharp metal object" 

[Motive]: Nah bro, I just saw her leave this room in a fake ass nurse outfit, she was the one with the tattoos bro.  
[Alex]: Lol I didn't see anyone leave out bro, you sure? And even so this ain't the best spot to go looking....we need to roll out.
Motive: Im positive, but fuck you right.
[Alex]: You know where she stay?
[Motive]: Nah but she always be at this club I kick it at from time to time.
[Alex]: Well fuck it let's pull up, we can get my whip from my spot. I even got burners if you need em g. 
[Motive]: Probably won't but fuck it I need to scare this bitch. 
[Alex]: Say less foolie.
                                                          [Vengeance w/Fukkit begins to play]

ACT 3/5 - VENGEANCE w/FUKKIT (Prod. Dutchman) [STORY IN DESC.]

produced by nofeeling
@killstation
my vocals m/m by @prohibeo

nothing left to say ft killstation (prod dysphora)

Prod. @rareakuma

[11:30pm: A car slowly pulls into the alleyway of Club Fukai]

[Alex]: "Loading bullets into a an extended 9mm pistol magazine"  You ready bro?
[Motive]: "Sliding his M1911 pistol out of safety"  Yeah bruh let's get it. 

[Motive and Alex move in through the backdoor and slowly make their way towards the bar area].

[Alex]: You see her?
Motive: Nah, not yet...let's move towards the dance floor

[Motive and Alex slowly move throughout the crowd of energetic party goers scanning for any sign of Sadie]

[Alex]: What she look like again bro?
[Motive]: "Yelling over the loud bass" Short hair, on some Nia long type shit, uhh... brown skinned, fish nets, tattoo of a clock on the back of her neck, kinda grungy lookin.
[Alex]: Nigga that's like every bitch in this club right now.
Motive: I'll show you if I see her bro just stay close, and look for the clock. 
[Alex]: Ight.

[After scanning for about 20 minutes Motive gets frustrated and decides to grab a drink, while Alex checks the upper level].

[Motive to bartender]: Lemme get 3 shots of fireball. 
"A voice interrupts from behind"
[Sadie]: Make it four love.
[Bartende]r: For Sure.
[Motive]: "Staring angrily" What the fuck did you do to me?
[Sadie]: What are you talking about baby? I didn't do a thing but try to show you a good time.. you were just being rude to me :(
[Motive]: Fuck that you got me locked up! They got warrants out for me you fucking psycho!
[Sadie]: Well that's a shame, I think you too cute for jail to be honest.
[Motive]: "Pulling his gun and pressing it against Sadie's stomach under the counter" Fix the shit you did, TELL THE FED IT WAS ALL YOU!
[Sadie]: "Giggling" what you gonna do hun, kill me? Go ahead!
[Motive]: Don't test me...
[Sadie]: Shoot me... fucking shoot me....I don't fucking care "whispers Sadie into Motive's ear as she pushed the barrel up towards her head" 
[Sadie]: WASSUP NIGGA FUCKING SHOOT ME!!!

[A single gunshot rings off and people flood the exit doors of the club]

[To Kill A Wolf begins to play] 

[Alex frantically lean over the railing in a panic as armed security guards rush towards the bar area, multiple gunfire is exchanged as Motive fires off shots at the approaching guards. Alex then sends shots of his own to provide Motive some cover].

Alex: "whispering to himself as her runs down the steps to Motive" fuck fuck fuck.

Motive: "Wounded by multiple shots, and dripping blood" STAY THE FUCK BACK!!! "Motive continues to fire shots towards the security"

[Alex flanks from behind, and wounds the remaining shooters as he rushes to grab motive and drag him out to the car].

[Staring from a first person point of view at Alex, Motive slowly fades out of consciousness as Alex yells for him to stay awake. His words are soon rendered inaudible as Motives eyes close, and he passes out].

ACT 4/5 - To Kill A Wolf  [Prod. Rare Akuma] [STORY IN DESC.]

SpaceGodsNeverDie ! (Prod. UKNWWN)

TIME IS JUST A STR8 LINE U DONT GET SECOND CHANCES
IVE BEEN WORKIN SO HARD TRYNA GAIN AN ADVANTAGE
CHERISH EVERY BREATH I TAKE DONT TAKE EXISTENCE FOR GRANTED
LIFE IS JUST A GAME OF CARDS U PLAY THE DECK THAT UR HANDED
SO PLEASE DONT GAMBLE WITH YOUR LIFE CUS U COULD LOSE IT 
U GOT A BRAIN INSIDE UR SKULL THEN FUCKING USE IT
FACE THE FACTS U GOTTA LISTEN TO THE MUSIC 
I FEEL WORTHLESS I DONT KNOW WHY I DO THIS 
I AM JUST MY BREATH, I AM JUST THE BLOOD THAT IVE BLED
AINT NO TELLING HOW MUCH FUCKING TIME THAT I HAVE LEFT 
BUT IMA MAKE IT THE BEST, I WANNA SPREAD HAPPINESS 
EVEN THO IVE BEEN DEPRESSED I KNOW LIFES BETTER THAN THIS 
SHIT IVE BEEN GOIN THRU IT SOMETIMES U GOTTA DO IT 
U GOTTA TAKE A RISK, TAKE A HIT OR MAYBE TAKE A LOSS
TAKE THAT SHIT ON THE CHIN, PAIN AINT NOTHIN TO A BOSS 
BLOOD LOSS DONT SCARE ME I DONT WANNA FEEL EMPTY ANYMORE

LiL 137 - 6. Angel Tears (PROD. ÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷)

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ -🐍

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - 777 (PROD. EXSCOOB)

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - Take Ur Time (Prod. $en$ei $lime)

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - Garden Of Eden // Innocence Lost

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - UV LIT UP GARBAGE

I’ve got a home in th suburbs of th killers n theives 
Where th block is hot the cells a hundred degrees
Everybody’s bones break and everybody stabbed bleeds
Everybodys a animal and none of us leave
Just a number in the prison economy 
Just another orange jumper for us cogs in th machine
Where they outsource labor like legal slavery
And they keep us segregated so we all become weak
I’ve got one foot in the grave and one foot in a cell
I’ve got a mind in heaven and a body in hell 
I put my chips all in but they saw my tell 
Gambled with my soul now Ima ghost in a shell
Im just another cowboy in the wild Wild West 
Where they shoot so much you needa buy your child a vest 
you either Fuck with the best or you die like the rest 
When you walk through the valley of th shadow of death 
You gotta beat the heat or be a feast for the vultures 
Where decomposing’s just another part of the culture 
Theres lions and tigers and elephant poachers 
and a bunch of people tryn figure out if ur a poser
We’re all inmates and victims of our own narcissism 
In a system where our consciousness is built to a be a prison
I learned to think outside the box then I turned it to a prism 
Now I question my belief in my own nihilism 
keep chasing your dreams til their reality 
But I dream about facing my mortality
Theres no black and white no duality 
Just a lake of fire that burns everything 
Im a hostage of my catholicism 
While I down vote it like the caucus system 
Sometimes I get lost in the symbolism 
cus I’m so attracted to th masochism 
Ima traitor a sadist who’s playing it safest 
By not saying shit except solely the safest 
Collection of words that can cover all bases 
without blanket satements to make it blatant 
im at home in the prison of what is and what isn’t 
Im a inmate of my limits I’m the pain that I solicit 
And I’m always alone until someone comes n visits 
Im a foxhole im a pothole im a gutter ima divit

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - MIRAGE

dogpuke - aite

drums by grayscale
guitar and vocals by me

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - 777 (PROD. EXSCOOB)

David

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