Your music makes me cry. It's so cathartic in such a good way and your work is amazing man

Really painting the bigger picture 🩶🩶

S U I C I D E

Slow It Down (prod. KG)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CUatwmfJBrg

Drums by: OmenXIII

Greaf Album, Soon.

There's always so much going on, I can't go on like this.
I can't stay strong like this. Sometimes I'm wrong, like you. 
Sometimes I'm right, nothings new. 

Nothing new to me, 

I just go to sleep then lucid dream and I wake up again
 
I could work, get everything, but when I die I'll lose it all
I'm nobody special, but to me that really means a lot,
I've been copin' with my demons secretly I know a lot.
I don't see the point of life, so I'm a dissapointment, yeah.

I just wanna go to sleep and meet the thing that sent me here.

And now I'm runnin again,

VIDEO

There's Always So Much Going On (Prod. GREAF) [MUSIC VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=khUV37yUumQ


dont tell me fucking shit
stop pulling on my strings
tried telling you before
but you just wont seem to quit
im not throwin in 

im making myself known
and im ignoring inside tones
the race just started here we go
im not stopping till we dead
im fucking in

start (prod OmenXIII) (VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION)

MISS U SPENCE <3
FT https://soundcloud.com/barrenwaste
PROD @GREAF
mixed by @prohibeo

gizmo

Shitt, I still miss my fam and my friends but I swear that most of all I miss my bro lil spence, whip tha Acura out Tha pad smokin Newport cigarettes, I still think think about those times, little stress it was the best, but,

Now I gotta grow up, but I'm still wastin my money on green stuff ta roll up, you can eat my dick, if, ya don't know us, and I still ain't shit but I ain't gunna slow up now


Codiene, high - c, back woods fulla terps, Im without a place to be,

Feels like I'm living in a deam, but I'm missin the feelin of when I had you next to me girl

Naw wait, fuck every stupid bitch that twisted ripped my life ta shits,

that's a pain that Ill never forget,

I'm great, I could lie until I'm rich, if you granted me wish, I wouldn't take that shit cuz

I never fucked with my life, and there aiint a single thing, that could make it all right,

Everyday I'm up all night, with the music in my head, it's the only thing I like,

It's so hard to love me you don't wanna look at me I'm fuckin ugly

Fuck me let me disintegrate,

deep into the soil and deteriorate

barren

before i say a word
please listen close this time
i said this all before 
but Ive really lost my mind
i know you're always worried
my fingers looks so blurry
crossing over to a new world
i love the way you look so lovely 
my self worth is so ugly
i am absolutely nothing

contradicting thoughts
read back on the screen
makes no sense to me
its all a dream
i can’t be thinking these
dreadful thoughts about
you and me

I’m living in a void now
just testing all my patience 
with no one to try and say shit
its just a statement
that I’m making
please no mistaking

deteriorating ft barren (prod. GREAF)

shoulda crashed the car [Prod.Gertrude]

i used to be blind now my sights crystal clear 
But I still can’t see myself in the mirror 
I see my soul inside the eyes of a deer
I exist to spread love in a world run by fear 
Love makes the sun shine down on the plants
Love turns music into motion when you dance 
Love turns girls into women turns boys into men 
It turns animals to pets and turns strangers into friends
If you act out of love then you can live without regrets
love heals all wounds time has made your brain forget 
The truth is god and god is love theres no religion to accept 
but if it breathes or grows or feels then love and treat it with respect 
Love is infinite love is pure like a Childs innocence 
Its intricate interwoven we are just its instruments
Significant if you are alive its no coincidence 
Its intimate love everybody equal we’re no different 
selfless unconditional 
inexplicable how its all invisible 
and something so pure can be expressed thru the digital
to live and experience is nothing but a miracle 
We were meant to love as a species indivisible 
A universal consciousness convinced we’re individuals
United in the light we’re divided in the dark 
but we can be Enlightened by the love inside our hearts

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - Musubi

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kquAUAmBrVk
soundcloud.com/anobodyreally
vocal mix by soundcloud.com/iamrellim

someone go get him
he’s losing it
again
you not the only one
moving on
slowly from
a once in love
but now fucked up
bond as one
i don’t believe in love
after all I’ve done
i belive in trust
thats first things first
i don’t put past
a lot more loss
dragging from the back
of my cars old trunk

I’m alone 
I’m alone
i refuse to pick 
up the phone
i won’t check a
text or call
leave me be 
let me go
I’m alone 
I’m alone
drive the car till it won’t go
cut the breaks 
drive right off the road

don’t take
another turn
don’t make this
pain worse
hour after 7
times 
only beginning 
a sort of kind
of religion
with what I’m bout
to get in
you don’t want to know who 
I’ve become
stuffing down
the mess 
I’m working to repress
burning up
the last chance 
of blissfulness
ill ever have to get
oh great another text 
from a number I’ve 
never seen
asking if its me
what the fuck do you think?
i wonder who
it could be 
do i have to 
be any more subtle
don’t need
another rebuttal
please shut the fuck up
please just 
don’t talk

I’m alone 
I’m alone
i refuse to pick 
up the phone
i won’t check a
text or call
leave me be 
let me go
I’m alone 
I’m alone
drive the car till it won’t go
cut the breaks 
drive right off the road

leave me be (prod ʎpoqou) (video in description)

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - All Hail Discordia

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - Take Ur Time (Prod. $en$ei $lime)

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - Garden Of Eden // Innocence Lost

https://soundcloud.com/killedmyself
vocal mix by soundcloud.com/iamrellim

whip broke again and i still aint shit
you don’t what id do to fucking make this
you don’t know the road I’ve been down
just to stay here
pick it stick it flip it then erase it
check back try to relax 
dont mistake this as me coming clean
i aint sayin shit filler for an empty room

just to ease the pain in
roll a couple light em get up
for a minute now I’m changing
every line i right
i despise em all
i can’t stand this
delete another song
write another bar
just to hate it
work another day just to make enough
to get what little i want
that aint doing shit but rearranging
every fucking  thought 
i should have pushed way back
I’m just hanging by the thread 
we’ve sewn together
to make this bed
that we now lay in
have you even been
listening to a word I’m saying
so many delays
I’m losing count
tractions fading
I’m blasted in the black
lustful wishes
giving me a fucking
heart attack
this the tenth joint
I’ve smoked
in the past hour and
a half
fuck a fucking show
i just want my money back  

hop up in it
oh we back again
round for round
i be smacking hits
know you lames
all fuck with this
y’all be dropping duds
but they fuck with it
don’t you care a bit
change things up
maybe try to switch
sticking to the script
seems to work the best


putting my heart in to be washed away
waking up checking the fucking plays
lets see who aint gone respond today
another blog posting all the shit that i fucking hate
what the fuck is it gonna take
i love it and hate it all so much
i need a fucking break
watching the people move up 
who i want to cave
negative energy is all i can muster myself
to fucking bring
i don’t see why i can’t even think
a positive thought long enough
to keep me sane

still aint shit (prod killedmyself)

i don’t expect you to be submissive 
If I’m transgressive or aggressive 
I don’t intend to be dismissive 
Non attentive or oppressive 
I dont pretend to be cohesive 
Or impressive or permissive
i jus try to be expressive 
And progressive not regressive 
I’ve accepted that my memory’s repressive 
And selective 
Im still working on my self 
Im still crossing off my check list 
I know that you try to help 
And feel helpless when I’m depressive
And I’m sorry
That I’m broken 
And it breaks you too 
And I’m sorry 
Im not more open 
I hope you know I hate It too 
But I’m growing
And I’m learning 
And I’m sorry its so slow 
stoked the flames 
For so long 
But the fire would never grow
Now its burning
As I attempt to maintain control 
And I’m learning
That a fire is hard to hold 
But I’m okay
And I think its cause I’m cold 
And that numbs me 
Or at least thats what I’m told
Puzzle pieces fit together til we see th bigger picture 
Smaller patterns create larger patterns with their Lil mixtures
But as I solve the puzzle I see I'm not in the picture 
So I'm staring at u standing there with someone else's figure
Well go figure I'm not perfect I just create the perfect mixture 
Of aggression and depression in my body like some elixir 
And I don't need the scripture like my father or the liquor 
I self medicate in other ways I guess you get th picture 
So I solve these little puzzles getting more frantic by the second 
And as the picture becomes clearer I always start to second guess it 
It's like the puzzles just a mirror and I'm scared of my reflection 
So I hid behind my fear and I suppress my own depression 
So I'm sorry 
that I'm broken 
and it breaks you too 
And I’m sorry 
Im not more open 
I hope you know I hate It too 
But I’m growing
And I’m learning 
And I’m sorry its so slow 
stoked the flames 
For so long 
But the fire would never grow
Now its burning

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - Puzzles

David

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