I wish I never even did that stuff either.

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2025-09-03-213017027_04092025.m4a

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Every time I touch the surface,
I just want to go back under.
Pull me further, with your words
'Cause we both know that I deserve it.

Every sinking feeling feels like me and I can't help but feel, 
feel like I don't even matter.

And that's what keeps me going.
Proving myself wrong.
I don't care what they think
I just want to think I'm worth it.

And that's what keeps me going.
Proving myself wrong.
I don't care what they think
I just want to think I'm worth it.

As I look up to the surface 
I can see the moon now.
It must be the 100th time, I've tried today
I can tell my strength is fading.

The undertow can take me somewhere else
I don't want to be there.
Maybe that's not where I belong,
Maybe I am different, 

and that's okay 'cause
'cause That's what keeps me going.
I don't care what they think
I just want to think I'm worth it.

Yeah  that's okay 'cause
'cause That's what keeps me going.
I don't care what they think
I just want to think I'm worth it.

At The Bottom Of This Lake Called Misery (Prod. GREAF)

Death affects all of us in one way or another.

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I'm tryna feel alive, but I'm dead inside. 
I walk with with the moon and the night by my side
My friends and my family, they give me some purpose.
So they don't deserve this, nobody's perfect.

I am nobody without imperfection,
I die every night, every day ressurection
My shadows the closest thing to understanding me
Are you understanding me?

I feel alone,

even when somebodies right there beside me I feel alone.
It's nobodies fault but mine, I'm sorry I still feel alone.
even when somebodies right there beside me I feel alone.
It's nobodies fault but mine, I'm sorry I still feel alone.

I feel alone.

DEATH

Regret (Prod. color hue)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=khUV37yUumQ


dont tell me fucking shit
stop pulling on my strings
tried telling you before
but you just wont seem to quit
im not throwin in 

im making myself known
and im ignoring inside tones
the race just started here we go
im not stopping till we dead
im fucking in

start (prod OmenXIII) (VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION)

MISS U SPENCE <3
FT https://soundcloud.com/barrenwaste
PROD @GREAF
mixed by @prohibeo

gizmo

Shitt, I still miss my fam and my friends but I swear that most of all I miss my bro lil spence, whip tha Acura out Tha pad smokin Newport cigarettes, I still think think about those times, little stress it was the best, but,

Now I gotta grow up, but I'm still wastin my money on green stuff ta roll up, you can eat my dick, if, ya don't know us, and I still ain't shit but I ain't gunna slow up now


Codiene, high - c, back woods fulla terps, Im without a place to be,

Feels like I'm living in a deam, but I'm missin the feelin of when I had you next to me girl

Naw wait, fuck every stupid bitch that twisted ripped my life ta shits,

that's a pain that Ill never forget,

I'm great, I could lie until I'm rich, if you granted me wish, I wouldn't take that shit cuz

I never fucked with my life, and there aiint a single thing, that could make it all right,

Everyday I'm up all night, with the music in my head, it's the only thing I like,

It's so hard to love me you don't wanna look at me I'm fuckin ugly

Fuck me let me disintegrate,

deep into the soil and deteriorate

barren

before i say a word
please listen close this time
i said this all before 
but Ive really lost my mind
i know you're always worried
my fingers looks so blurry
crossing over to a new world
i love the way you look so lovely 
my self worth is so ugly
i am absolutely nothing

contradicting thoughts
read back on the screen
makes no sense to me
its all a dream
i can’t be thinking these
dreadful thoughts about
you and me

I’m living in a void now
just testing all my patience 
with no one to try and say shit
its just a statement
that I’m making
please no mistaking

deteriorating ft barren (prod. GREAF)

shoulda crashed the car [Prod.Gertrude]

growing up sucks (prod. frander)

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - Reincarnate

Didn’t mean to ever break your heart 
but at least the pain keeps you makin art,
Aint shit cool about takin bars 
But u got sum problems that facings hard
We could take this place and then make it ours 
Just a couple of dogs out chasing cars 
Or a few kids out playing in the yard 
who realize recreations a work of art 
And boredoms a lack of imagination 
thats why theres shapes in the constellations
Practice actualizing your aspirations 
Work hard maintain that concentration 
dont get sidetracked by your aggravation
know that joy is stronger than agitation 
I know you’ll reach your destination 
Inhale exhale feel the circulation
Just breathe

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷  - Breathe

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - All Hail Discordia

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - Purgatory

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - Take Ur Time (Prod. $en$ei $lime)

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - Garden Of Eden // Innocence Lost

i don’t expect you to be submissive 
If I’m transgressive or aggressive 
I don’t intend to be dismissive 
Non attentive or oppressive 
I dont pretend to be cohesive 
Or impressive or permissive
i jus try to be expressive 
And progressive not regressive 
I’ve accepted that my memory’s repressive 
And selective 
Im still working on my self 
Im still crossing off my check list 
I know that you try to help 
And feel helpless when I’m depressive
And I’m sorry
That I’m broken 
And it breaks you too 
And I’m sorry 
Im not more open 
I hope you know I hate It too 
But I’m growing
And I’m learning 
And I’m sorry its so slow 
stoked the flames 
For so long 
But the fire would never grow
Now its burning
As I attempt to maintain control 
And I’m learning
That a fire is hard to hold 
But I’m okay
And I think its cause I’m cold 
And that numbs me 
Or at least thats what I’m told
Puzzle pieces fit together til we see th bigger picture 
Smaller patterns create larger patterns with their Lil mixtures
But as I solve the puzzle I see I'm not in the picture 
So I'm staring at u standing there with someone else's figure
Well go figure I'm not perfect I just create the perfect mixture 
Of aggression and depression in my body like some elixir 
And I don't need the scripture like my father or the liquor 
I self medicate in other ways I guess you get th picture 
So I solve these little puzzles getting more frantic by the second 
And as the picture becomes clearer I always start to second guess it 
It's like the puzzles just a mirror and I'm scared of my reflection 
So I hid behind my fear and I suppress my own depression 
So I'm sorry 
that I'm broken 
and it breaks you too 
And I’m sorry 
Im not more open 
I hope you know I hate It too 
But I’m growing
And I’m learning 
And I’m sorry its so slow 
stoked the flames 
For so long 
But the fire would never grow
Now its burning

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - Garden Of Eden // Innocence Lost

David

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