"oh, i would give my world to you..."
how long do i have to wait for gravity to take me?
how much repetition can my broken heart bear?

PRE-ORDER CONSTANT COMPANIONS: https://jamiepaige.bandcamp.com/album/constant-companions

mv: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FftLImzl1-k
spotify/apple music/etc: https://fanlink.tv/iwticf

art by BEARVAMPS
https://twitter.com/BEARVAMPS
music and mv by Jamie Paige
https://twitter.com/pamiejaige
https://jamies.page/
mastering by Marcy Nabors
https://twitter.com/Shadolith

featuring GUMI Megpoid SV

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lyrics:

to spend a moment at your beck and call
oh, i would give my world to you
i live my life in simple repetition
but i would start again if it did you right
oh, i spend my days my fists against this wall
but not a single sound seems to make it through
count on my fingers all the grand admissions
and i can't make it through a single time
all i wanna do is to do you right

i wish that i could climb to the greatest heights
all the world beneath me when i meet your eye

i wish that i could fall a little bit harder
i wish that i could fall, like it would even matter
i wish that i could fall right into your life
but i'm not there at all, on the other side

i wish that i could fall and hit the ground running
i wish that i could fall instead of doing nothing
i wish that i could fall right between your eyes
but you just stand so tall, i'm left out of sight

i wish that i could fall somewhere it wont hurt

awake uneasy when the morning calls
oh, i would give my world to you
i life my life in simple repetition
but i can barely call what i live my life
all i wanna do is to do you right
hold up two fingers, check my double vision
beside myself again, beaten black and blue
without a purpose, i'm an apparition
but i could be your sword, you could hold me tight
all i wanna do is to do you right

i wish that i could fly with these broken wings
if it was meant for you, i'd do anything

i wish that i could fall a little bit harder
i wish that i could fall, like it would even matter
i wish that i could fall right into your life
but i'm not there at all, on the other side

i wish that i could fall and see the sky clearly
i wish that i could fall, not miss the ground completely
i wish that i could fall somewhere close to you
but i don't land at all, drifting out of view

i wish that i could fall, but only truly backwards
right into your arms

a fire lit within my chest
my heart's been burnt and wholly dispossessed
(these barely-blinking eyes that refuse to cry)
oh, what i wouldn't give to stay
to have my joy and sorrow cast away
but even if my wings have been set alight
all that i can do is to learn to fly
all i wanna do is to do you right

i wish that i could fall a little bit harder
i wish that i could fall, like it would even matter
i wish that i could fall right into your life
but i'm not there at all, on the other side

i wish that i could fall and hit the ground running
i wish that i could fall instead of doing nothing
i wish that i could fall right between your eyes
but you just stand so tall, i'm left out of sight

i wish that i could fall, but only truly backwards
right into your arms
your arms
your arms!

I Wish That I Could Fall

Death & Romance

Tunnel Vision

"i spend my hours doing alchemy..."
a song about wanting to be remembered / to live

mv: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1U6qefKcOrg
bandcamp: https://jamiepaige.bandcamp.com/album/cadmium-colors
spotify/apple music/etc: https://fanlink.tv/cadmium

art by Que
https://twitter.com/REVERIEQUE
mv by friendxp
https://twitter.com/friend_xp 
saxophone solo by Soneji of Project Mikan
https://twitter.com/JustSoneji
mastering by Marcy Nabors
https://twitter.com/Shadolith

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lyrics:

i spend my hours doing alchemy
i mix my yellows and my blues to make a shade of green
prosaic practice of depravity
suspending innocents above their disbelief
i wish that i could paint a pretty picture onto everything
and leave a mark upon the world that felt like anything
but maybe that's the essence of an artist and their legacy
just chasing down a sense of infamy

put brush to canvas with a pirouette
a simple motion makes the consequence intricate
all the little nothings and my parapet
i hope it's something that you don't forget

cadmium red is the ground beneath
cadmium orange, everything i see
cadmium yellow is the air i breathe
cadmium colors painted inside me
i can make autumn from a single leaf
steal a fine picture like a first class thief
make the water work like you won't believe
find a new world that can set you free
how could anybody ever live like me?

i spend my hours doing alchemy
i make a life refining zinc inside the smeltery
it's not exactly where i want to be
but wanting doesn't matter when there's mouths to feed
i wish that i could paint a pretty picture of a fantasy
and turn a feeling to a living for my family
instead i make the metals in the pigments in my reverie
and maybe that can be enough for me

oh, isn't it funny facing destiny?
it's like a knife inside twisting my arteries
god, i want for nothing but identity
i think that something might be wrong with me

cadmium red is the ground beneath
cadmium orange, everything i see
cadmium yellow is the air i breathe
cadmium colors painted inside me
antegrade fever, 101 degrees
shatter my body with a gentle breeze
dammit, i am real and i have my dreams
watch me burn brighter 'til i fail to breathe
how could anybody ever live like me?

(baby, do you know what it's like to die?)
(to see the sparkle fade from inside your eye?)
i can't remember what it's like to feel autonomy
can't even feel it in the moments that you left to me
(i don't wanna leave with a work undone)
(the paint can barely dry 'fore it fills my lungs)
i keep a bullet in the chamber, mocking me
but i don't wanna feel it coming out of me
i don't want-

i spend my hours doing alchemy
i mix my yellows and my blues to make a shade of green
chasing impossible philosophy
and hoping that this poison ain't the death of me

cadmium red is the ground beneath
cadmium orange, everything i see
cadmium yellow is the air i breathe
cadmium colors painted inside me
i can make autumn from a single leaf
steal a fine picture like a first class thief
make the water work like you won't believe
find a new world that can set you free
how could anybody ever live like-

(baby, do you know what you wanna hear?)
('cause you can say the word, make it oh so clear)
we're all just searching for a sense of solidarity
to hold each other close and confiscate our destiny
(no one wants to leave with a work undone)
(we only need a brush we can pass along)
i kept a bullet in the chamber for a rainy day
but what's the point in planning for it anyway?
i've got too many colors for a shade of grey
and i can make it autumn every single day!

Cadmium Colors

That's My Floor

Imaginal Disk

She Looked Like Me!

Love Is Everywhere

Music Production by Jaiden Furse
Artwork by Jaiden Furse

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