ah aaah!! Always in hardcore (っ °o °;)っ

@prodgreentop
yeah im packin my bags
to go to no where 
and you say that im bad
but you just don't care
whatchu want from me 
whatchu want from me?
cant you see that you done ripped the life right outta me
heart cold
my soul
turn stone
on my own
and i change
my ways
for you
to leave me anyway

and i cant find a reason for me stay
swearing that you'd leave so please wont you just let me stay
i just wanna know
i just wanna know

would you give me your all
or would you hate me?
would you catch my fall
or would you let me?
cause i dont wanna see
the dark side of me
cause when im with you i
feel like a fantasy

feel like a fantasy x2
fantasy im in a fantasy x2
fantasy
you and me
feels like its a fantasy
(hook)

fantasy (greentop)

@yyuskee

@kiraiu
@rpsu
@rpnf

(vocal mix @crescentxx)

Keep Going w/yuske (prod. kirai, su, nefa)

@1tcyxo
@monaco16

yeah fck it we can kick it
got a place downtown
i cant make this up
theres a hole in a me
look @ da sky so pretty
im rlly glad ur w me
i took that risk u paid 4
how much 2 take? 
cant take more
ik the way ill b there

i want it all
is it 2 much
2 much
ima go until im done
adderall nauseous
bby ur so toxic 
got a ciggy mayb i jus need a breath
sumthin 2 clear my head
bby ur so toxic
bby ur sooo

shawty looks so fine
it won't get me high
think I 2 more bottles 2nite
think I need 2 mo pills 2nite
yea I'm doing better than b4 
shawty looking better under tha moonlight
it j tastes better on silver paper
I luv it cuz it shows another side of me
I'm feeling damn right now I won't
left myself unarmed always feel unsafe how
tf they turn around w endless promises
stay in da cut
live in da shadow
we w da gang now

0ur//wrld
@allenafs

holeinme {+allenafs}(pr. tracyxo + monaco16)

prod @evanjolley
ft @ultravialit

4 yrs im giving myself 4 years
I'll get my life together or i will rest in peace
it's kinda comforting to know that the end is near
why can't i just leave this world without hurting my family

i don't wanna hurt u but this is hurting me
writing songs about same thing is not helping me
i have no goal or motivation im just existing
i feel so miniscule just forget about me

i always bring myself down
there's no one to lift me up

can't someone just stick around
everybody leaves that's just life

ik u don't believe me but im trying to keep my head above the surface
it's hard to breath and my lungs are filling not with water but with poison
im trying not to hate myself so much and accept me for who i am
but im a person that i hate and it's ok to feel this way


ultravialit:

about 4 years
giving myself about 4 years
living in doubt for years
put my hand to the flame ouch shed tears
i need to work out a routine, gotta keep moving
gotta get out of here
gotta be ready for the storm before the clouds appear

anxiety im not going quietly
there's an infection a disease that grows inside of me
i need a doctor i need a surgeon cut this out of me
right now I'll bleed but when this heals i hope that you can count on me

i always bring myself down
bring myself down when nobody is around
i always bring myself down
so in 4 years time i hope i get to climb out

yuh
putting off all of my problems
i dont know how i can solve them
instead all i do is just stall them
yuh
and maybe this really is my fault
wish you'd forgive me dont know why im living
ill find out as soon as the sky falls

4yrs w/ ultravialit 「evan jolley」

Why did you tell me that?

I love you all, thanks for waiting for me. <3

--

@squidemoji

ended up here again last night...
caught me in a good mood, thats fine
but i dont really know why youre here.

it took everything i had to try to forget
and every sleepless night i blame on you.

you wanna see me bleed?
i guess this time ill take a picture.
you wanna take your leave?
cut out my heart: here's the scissors ✂️

nothing i say has any meaning.
you wont catch me crying
when it happens to you. 

@ultravialit

(yea)

(yea yea yea yea)

(you know it x2)

(lets go in x2)

you caught me in a good mood

(bwah)

came through like good looks

(yea)

hanging off every word like good books

(yea)

serve it up very rare like good cooks

(yum)

woah!

(di di di di)

(la la la la)

i feel lit

(its lit ummm)

like who i be if i wasnt this

(huh?)

i pick up pieces with chopstick

(yah)

i put on brave face i got this

(gosh)

clock spin like beyblade let it rip

(what)

whoa im feeling it

(im feeling it)

because without you there would be no me legit huh

the look on my face when your walking in yuh

(its lit its lit its lit)

@squidemoji

its do or die!
its live a lie, or fantasize!

i know what i want and what im worth
its not much, but ill come first
this time, for the first time!!
trying something new, learning how to love myself

i really LOVE my friends! <3
theyve been with me through the worst times
want them to live their best lives
everything is beautiful, forget about my past life

caught me in a good mood w/ ultravialit (dercept)

@guccibelt730
@asurxh
@negative_creeper

i make digicore
no hyperpop
i do it for me if u don't like it idgaf
im invincible
was quiet but now i turn it up
invisible light
tearing thru the night

they look for me cuz im something they haven't seen yet
i got stories to tell and distant dreams yeah
i got trauma need to carve it in your ears yeah
hidden gem it's up to you to get the meaning

and you can never see that
what's behind the curtain make believes yeah
and honestly just beat it
pushing ppl away that's what im best at

i keep cruising thru the night
blindfolded but im not blind
they say it's wrong but to me it's right
doing things different out of spite
my emotions pacified
and the rope is getting tight
but im ok don't wanna talk about no sui sui cide

guccibelt:

all this shit just happened im indifferent
in love for a while now its different
and im floating in the water like a widow
so i put my drip on and go back home
esoteric darkness
hold u in my apartment
question all those governments that keep u far from me

i make digicore no hyperpop w/ guccibelt 「asurah + negative creeper」

@ultravialit

all these words they hurt me bby
acting like im tough but lately
it's rly rly getting to me
im not that strong as you may think
can u can u get closer to me
cuz i can't really be now lonely
everything is falling on me
everything is dooming on me

ah aaah

(in czech:)

stejně se chytám každé naděje i když ona falešná je

a aaah

a to že obtížnost je hardcore neznamená že nedá se

ultravialit:

keep ur head up do what u believe in
almost there just keep on reaching
ask me why i got my reasons
my life really has no meaning
so i had to give it meaning
mistakes i just keep repeating
that was then this a new season
heart still beating I'm still breathing

uh oh if i cant go on i will go what hope i have i will hold on to
uh oh if i cant go on i will go on heart on my sleeve what its sewed onto

pretend to be fine when im not
its taking all that i got
all that i have so that i can hold on
really these days i can barely go on
dirty laundry and dishes and so on
zooted out my mind im really so gone
picture of perfect im really so not
i took an l and another so what
almonds and cashews i really go nuts
i hit the bottom can only go up
keep your friends close and dont make the mistakes i made karma is really served up in cold blood
shredded confetti my wrist is a deli just look at the scars on my arm all cold cuts
too late to save put a foot in the grave if you feel like a lost cause, don't. there is no such

"repeats"

keep ur head up do what u believe in
almost there just keep on reaching
ask me why i got my reasons
my life really has no meaning
so i had to give it meaning
mistakes i just keep repeating
that was then this a new season
heart still beating I'm still breathing

uh oh if i cant go on i will go what hope i have i will hold on to
uh oh if i cant go on i will go on heart on my sleeve what its sewed onto

if i cant go on i will go on heart on my sleeve what its sewed onto
if i cant go on i will go what hope i have i will hold on to

hold on to your hope w/ ultravialit 「lileffort」

from that one night when i made this type of stuff

paradise.exe

mix and prod by @decago
cover art by me

Thinking of you right now. Can we fucking talk it out
Maybe you can show me love but I know I would turn it down
I got nothing on my side
And she know that there’s no time for us
Wishing things would change for me
But that won’t happen so
I just tell myself “it’s okay”. life’s hating on me though
目も開けられないって
けど時は動いていく

Don’t think I would ever lie for free
Cuz i know it hurt
Dropping tears and it’s not helping me
But they just run down
Do you even care about me
You left me in pain
When is it the fucking right time
I can’t keep it safe
次の日また通りすがる君の思い出
月を見てる時に近づいてくnightmare
I’ve been feeling too much pain and she know that too
けど取り戻せない、わかってる

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I think we [decago]

--

@squidemoji

𝘣𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘵𝘸𝘪𝘤𝘦 𝘪𝘧 𝘶𝘳 𝘰𝘬𝘢𝘺...

everything i love turns bad
whats wrong with my face
whats wrong with my head

𝘶𝘩 𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘵 𝘩𝘪𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘶𝘱
𝘪 𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘬
𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘵 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘸𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨--

im still lonely as fuck
i guess ive given up
it happens so much
cant rly chalk it up to luck

i dont have the words left
theres no point in "talk it out"
ill keep quiet 
𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘬𝘦𝘱𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧
til i kill myself

@haunted_sad

lately i think that im not ok
i wanna cut myself wit the blade
𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘥𝘪𝘦 i dnt wanna be this way
i-ibeenfeelinsostuckinmyways

w-why do i fear our love fading
i been reminiscent as of lately
say the same old words ik u hate me
well maybe i hate me too :))

hold on to your hope w/ ultravialit 「lileffort」

ㅤ

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