Produced by Michael Harrison
Mixed and mastered by me
Lyrics by me

Multiply the reasons why I don’t wanna be alive
I’m such a cunt, that’s what you said, but I don’t seem to mind
'Cause we are only human, something you don’t realize 
Girl, we can only try, it’s just apart of life, so

Realign the words I say 
You’re not in love with me 
You do not love me babe 
I don’t wanna try
Girl, do you even mind if I don’t feel all right? 
I just wanna cry
I’m so petrified, girl, I don’t wanna fight
So I guess I’ll leave
I’ll leave you, I’ll leave town
I’ll head west, you’ll go south 
It’s apart of life, part of life, part of life
Damn, I really wish that you were around 
It’s apart of life, part of life, part of life

Every day I wonder why you’re never by my side 
I realize that every time it’s always suicide 
And you said I would never change, never change 
But you know it goes either way, either way 
And you always said that I was a jerk 
And I won’t be offended 'cause I know you’re hurt 
I did the best I ever could, ever could
But I was never any good, any good
And my friends said they sober, but I don’t believe them
'Cause they were always older, and I was under them
And I bet when I’m 17, 17 
That it’ll be the end of me, so

I realign the words I say 
You’re not in love with me 
You do not love me babe 
I don’t wanna try
Girl, do you even mind if I don’t feel all right? 
I just wanna cry
I’m so petrified, girl, I don’t wanna fight
So I guess I’ll leave
I’ll leave you, I’ll leave town
I’ll head west, you’ll go south 
It’s apart of life, part of life, part of life
Damn, I really wish that you were around 
It’s apart of life, part of life, part of life

Girl, I don’t want any part of this 
But you’ve got my blood stained on your cardigan 
And I did all this, just to fall apart again 
And now I fall again, while you fall for other men 
I realigned the words I say 
You’re not in love with me 
You do not love me babe 
You want everything
I gave you every bit of me
Oh I tried, oh I tried 
Oh I tried

apart of life [p. michael harrison]

prod miercoles
vocals @celestefallen (me) + additional vocals @b8r
shoutout @dramatrial for the among us ambience in the intro

lrtyiscew :
(among us ambience)

why are u
always on my mind .. ?
i don't have time 
i'd figured u
would forget me2
i know it's hard
but u need to let me go 
oh i don't wanna be
the one that runs away
anymore
is that too much to ask for .. ?

open that door
and walk out
you've done it before
so why not now ?
there's no more second chances
i already gave u three more

so what are u waiting for ?
what are u waiting for ?
i already told u there's no more us
leave it all in the dust
i need to find better people to trust
cause i can't keep this up (creamer reference)
maybe i just need to sober up
when is it ever enough ?
walk a mile in my shoes
u know how bad it'd be 
if half the things i said were true

oh i wish u knew
i hated the things u do
there's no turning back now
all i can do is stop and stare

@b8r - outro
ahhhhhh
ahh yada yada yada u get the point

(rain ,
thunder)

shy away (miercoles)

a lil old song i finally bought the beat 2 dis teehee
prod wixxy
mix + master me

6/15/23 ,, a lot of revisions up until january ? i think

lye9dewcis :
oh i spend
so much of my time
running running running
just trying to get to u .. :/

i wont ever get the time back
just trying to the most out of it
stg ur doing this on purpose
(on purpose baby , trying to test ur luck )
oh whoa oh

what i see in ur eyes can melt me
and ive been stuck losing my mind i need u to help me
and now im back at square one baby im a lost soul
oh
oh im a lost so o o o oul
promise me u wont let it go
say that u love me but did u really mean it tho ?
it just feels like we're slowly growing apart

but now ur out of my reach
cant ever win u back
win u back
win u back
ur the only person that i want
next to me :c

what i see in ur eyes can melt me
and ive been stuck losing my mind i need u to help me
and now im back at square one baby im a lost soul
oh
oh im a lost so o o o oul
promise me u wont let it go
say that u love me but did u really mean it tho ?
it just feels like we're slowly growing apart

*l

growingapart

probably the longest ive held off on dropping a song but now it's here :p
produced by wixxy

original cover gone .forever

4/7/23

lyirosd :
the other day was the first time i laid my eyes on u
and that's when i knew

i fucked my life up
falling into this cycle
again and again and again
and i can't help it
what will i ever do ?

don't tell me what i can and cannot do
i cannot feel
the only thing i wanna feel is ur touch
but ur barely out of my reach
and just like that i see u with somebody new
wish i knew sooner

maybe i just have to let u go
how will i change if i never grow ?
the last thing i knew

i'm falling into this old habit of mine
think im okay ?, im the opposite of fine
i just need somebody there , there

don't tell me what i can and cannot do
i cannot feel
the only thing i wanna feel is ur touch
but ur barely out of my reach
and just like that i see u with somebody new
wish i knew sooner

*m

appearance

@b8r
made in oct 2023

leyrdics ;
you lost me the second you brought up
him
oh is he better than me ?
you know how hard i try to be
myself ?

seeing these golden brown leaves
as they fall onto your palm
pray for a better day
ohhh

jealousy oh jealousy
it got the best of me
atleast that's what i believe ...

...
...

ooh i can't wait
anymore
for some better days :/
by the end my hair will turn gray
i said nothing wrong
so don't act that way
oh don't act that way

pray for some better days ...
i won't be here
forever </3

better days II (favour)

some lyrics taken from brave/afraid by mental :)
my singing was absolutely terrible on this song lol

lyitas :
i fell in love with you
the second i laid my eyes on you
feelings that i never thought i'd get back into
hold me tight and don't wanna cry
what if i don't get to see you in another life
where would i be if it wasn't for you
but i'm afraid of everything
and you're my everything so i'm scared of you
and i keep thinking to myself
is it even worth it ?
trying to pretend that i don't even care
when i really do
you said that i was brave
i don't wanna prove you wrong
but i'm afraid of everything
and you're my everything so i'm scared of you
right now i need you more than ever
you telled (wtf ?? i meant to say told) you'd stay here by me forever
so when is forever gonna be ?

*a

stay here forever prod idly blare

song made in april 2022 
ib @poptropicaslutz
i think hottub johnny prod this too but im not 100% sure

lyiwec : 
there's tears on your face
as i count down your days
im always on your socials
you can't erase me
i know you hate me
i know you hate me

and i can't do anything right
i'll do anything but read the signs
last july whenever i called you mine
now you're all alone in your room crying 
you don't want another repeat of what happened in the past
i can't tell if you're moving on this easily or this life's moving fast
and you don't know where you want to go in life
i'm sure you'll crash

last year was a mess i'll admit that
it wouldn't have been this way if it wasn't for this or that
but now i need something more than love
to feel something again
yeah
this is the end of me
i watched the sky turn gray and fall on me
but will this be the death of me
i wanna die right now so it's definitely
can't you see

and i can't do anything right
i'll do anything but read the signs
last july whenever i called you mine
now you're all alone in your room crying 
you don't want another repeat of what happened in the past
i can't tell if you're moving on this easily or this life's moving fast
and you don't know where you want to go in life
i'm sure you'll crash

all my bones are made out of glass
you pushed me down and broke me
blew all my ashes away
i'm starting to lose hope

get it together prod frevel

prod wixxy
made on 12/31/2023 , finished about a year later :)
this started off originally as a joke but when i tried to record an actual song over this beat i couldn't stop thinking about these lyrics lol

(yea i still said 2023 in the song but no one has to know that ... keep this between us)

lytrtiocas :
la da da
la da da
there's thirty two days
thirty two days in december
ya ya

uh
i know
there's thirty two days in december
how do you not know ? 
it's not even hard to remember
is it new years ?
or is it the thirty second ?
i shouldn't have to even tell you this

(thirty two days , thiry two days)
(oh ho)

thirty two days i promise this ain't fake
it's always been like that , don't know what to tell you
i've never been one to lie
so when i tell you , don't act surprised
how could you live your life
not knowing this not knowing this oh ho

(you're on your own now)
(i really tried to help you)

uh
i know
there's thirty two days in december
how do you not know ? 
it's not even hard to remember
is it new years ?
or is it the thirty second ?
i shouldn't have to even tell you this

(thirty two-hoo-oo-oo)

[digicore part]
thirty two days , there's thirty two days
and if you think otherwise you can sayit2myface
thirty two days , we're still in 2023
this year fucking sucks i hope the next one is better
i had my best and worst moments
s/o @funkops and to like all my friends
i wouldn't be here right now if it weren't for them

nah but fr tho
happy new years guys
have a nice 2024 !! :D
and uh
i hope ...
i hope next year gets better
and remember
there's thirty two days ^_^

there's-thirty-two-days-in-december

@lucybedroque @lucybedroque @lucybedroque
(scrapped off unmusique, BUT lucy so kindly let me drop dis for yall <33)
prod ivvys, mental, synthetic and noah

get it together prod frevel

celeste* [2]

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