i wanna slam my head against the wall

stream!!!

gloves

credits to Joji for the instrumental. 
original song - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bv-1BnoB75k
ukulele and mixing done by me.

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lyrics -
there's two of us in this room and nobody can hear us,
i'm wondering maybe, would you be my first
i'm trying too hard to make sure i don't mess up,
i'm falling apart and i can't keep my head up.

speechless.
before i fell in love with you girl,
i never had any weakness.
completeness.
a a a a

i just can't believe you wouldn't try,
after everything i've sacrificed,
for you to catch my fall,
for you to give your all.

speechless.

it's something about the way you move,
it's something about the things you do,
no i don't have anything to lose,
and everything i did, i did it for you.
x2

[ @nclkyr's part ]
ohh
everything i did
was just for u
and all i wanted to is
all i ever did is to

walk alone the streets tonight
just to make u hold me tight
and i cant stop it
i cant stop it

speechless w/ kyra

Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KolZJ7TPfFY
ss03
prod me
song with @1glaive : _)
lyrics:
---what was the last thing you said?
i took like over a year to get you out my head
and now i can’t sleep 
thinking bout everything and all the things we did
and i don’t think i miss you
i don’t miss the shit that we been through
but now i’m stuck with this
try not to reminisce 
or i think i’ll start to miss you

i don’t know how to explain it
a year of racking my brain and i hated it 
it’s like i’m holding onto something that you never did
it’s like i’ll never have something just like we did
it’s like i’ll never hold hands with someone again
it’s like i’ll never introduce them to my friends
i guess it’s the end 

just fucking look at you 
you moved on so fast like did you want me in the first place 
i wish you the best but only mean that in the worse way 
took you only a month to act like everything
was ok
you fell right in love with him like i was just a half-way
now i’m all on my own need someone to talk to
my friends all abandoned me cause they’d rather choose you 
this shit is so draining need to do something brand new
i get tossed up and used then thrown away like some old shoes
like fucking look at you 
i think that you’re right i’m not the person that i used to be
i can’t even hide that fact that this was all because of me
i made my mistakes i let my head get straight to jealousy 
all cause i thought i'd be the only one u  ever see
but you have to remind me 
you have to remind me
cause i know you said something
something with meaning
it was as i was leaving i could’ve been dreaming
you have to remind me remind me of one thing

what was the last thing you said?
i swear i didn’t mean to leave you on read
but now it’s morning
everyone’s sleeping 
and i can’t decide if i should get out of bed
like i don’t wanna miss you 
i don’t miss the shit that we been through 
but now i’m stuck with this 
try not to reminisce or i think i’ll start to miss you
it seems like everyday i look at the pictures
a couple years of my life in a camera roll 
i’m thinking maybe i really miss it
reliving memories as i start to scroll
it feels like lately i’ve been stuck and i can’t reach my goals 
and i can’t get myself out ive been stuck in a hole
i’m really starting to believe it’s the end

GLAIVE:
dude that this point it doesn’t even matter like fuck

every time they talk about us they say we went hollywood but 
if there ever was a spot to take i think they probably would cause 
every single zoloft that i take don’t do me any good but 
black hair black nails she thinks she’s misunderstood but
she don’t know me like she think she does
and i’ll be lying if said i gave a single fuck
and then you push me down and then you pick me up i’m like
one fight away from getting tired and giving up

just fucking look at you 
you moved on so fast like did you want me in the first place 
i wish you the best but only mean that in the worse way 
took you only a month to act like everything
was ok
you fell right in love with him like i was just a half-way
now i’m all on my own need someone to talk to
my friends all abandoned me cause they’d rather choose you 
this shit is so draining need to do something brand new
but after all that was said i don’t regret that i knew you

what was the last thing u said w/ glaive

Baby It's Cold Outside - Mac Miller & Ariana Grande

pain n b

i wrote da verse its not apart of the song

sugar cover (brockhampton)

my favorite song i made wit one my favorite artists : )@1glaive
prod meeeee

redeyes w/ glaive

my way out

prod by @heartdept
notes:// (つ´∀｀)つ
hi
trying rlly hard to get healthier !!
spending more time with my irls n shi
thank u all for the support :3 <3

sticks (p. heartdept)

guitar by saints tomorrow :D
prod me
sorry love u :/
thank u all for da support mwah
love love love
<3
lyrics:
couple big songs
but the same old me
n
talking to my friends 
drains all my energy
n
ik of this place
thats filled with memories
n
im so toxic 
way to often
its my tendency

n i been fucking over 
all my friends in the process
n im not being rude
im exploring my options
n i dont sleep right
cause it fuck with my conscious
4 leave clover
but i fucked up n lost it :/

n i been fucking over 
all my friends in the process
n im not being rude
im exploring my options
n i dont sleep right
cause it fuck with my conscious
4 leave clover
but i fucked up n lost it :/

i been bored 
i been chillin at da skate park
n i even if tried im pretty sure i couldn't skate far
they say that lifes a movie 
i dont think that im the main part
1 day ima skip town get away inside a freight car

n i could sing 100 songs
n i could think 100 thoughts
n i could right 100 wrongs
but my lifes fucked 
so it wont be long :(

n if im being honest 
i just needed a friend
n i been tryin so hard
to get this weight off my chest
n i been tryna write songs
catch a breath 
i only like my hooks so here we go (again)

hook

clover

@1glaive

lyrics:
[ericdoa]
you don't trust me alone
but somehow you're miles away
if the shoe fits in the wrong shit
then its all a waste
the same strut that you do man when you walk away
you moved out of your hometown but its not the same

my heart's stuck on the same shit it wont ever change
old friends losing contact said im acting strange
you pull your hair out in the mirror asking to be saved
i can hear them talking bout me say it to my face
i been dazed and confused tell me to pick it up
i hold my weight in the wrong place hope i dont get crushed
a parking lot in a new place where i fell in love
ill talk later but right now im in a rush

we stopped talkin baby i just hope that we can be friends
she texts back and shes pissed off, she said it depends
well fuck you baby i don't have a hand i can lend
when its all over baby would you treat me less in the end?

[glaive]
and ever since a child yeah i've always been a pessimist
public target crossed up on my back like im a methodist (sick ref ash)
and all these labels, a&r's keep asking what my method is
im just tryna put on for joelle cuz he where heaven is

and if im being frank baby you know im an asshole
imma tell a secret baby you can't tell a damn soul
i've been under so much fucking stress that i can't handle
watch everything that i've ever worked for get dismantled

nah fuck this
i don't really need it
and i just blacked out i think that i might be anemic
fiending for something
it might just be a meaning
and im not being harsh lately you've been fucking tweakin so
and you're dead to me
you're my enemy
i been running out of time and wasting energy
and you say that you my friend but you ain't friends wit me
do you even remember what you said to me?

[ericdoa and glaive]
repeating the same day 
it goes on and on and on
repeating the same day 
it goes on and on and on and on

[ericdoa]
you don't trust me alone
but somehow you're miles away
if the shoe fits in the wrong shit
then its all a waste
the same strut that you do man when you walk away
you moved out of your hometown but its not the same

its all a waste

its all a waste w/ glaive (glasear & colliding with mars)

prod me 
i hope u likey

(hook)
im rude 2 everyone
thats how i am
thats how ill stay :)
and im a prick because its fun
because i can
and thats ok
they only call me when they're gone
all turning dumb
all turning fade
so i hope you choke on your own tounge
and fucking die
just suffocate 
... im a pessimist

(verse)
and its hard 2 hide
so i hardly try
yes i wonder why
that i try 2 lie
about the way i feel
about the way i feel
about the way i feel
about the way i 

(bridge)
pretend 2 care at all
pretend 2 care at all
pretend 2 care at all
i dont care. at all.

(hook)
im rude 2 everyone
thats how i am
thats how ill stay :)
and im a prick because its fun
because i can
and thats ok
they only call me when they're gone
all turning dumb
all turning fade
so i hope you choke on your own tounge
and fucking die
just suffocate 
... im a pessimist

INSTRUMENTAL BREAK !!!!!!! OMG GUITARS!!!!!!!

(bridge)
pretend 2 care at all
pretend 2 care at all
pretend 2 care at all
i dont care. at all.

(hook)
im rude 2 everyone
thats how i am
thats how ill stay :)
and im a prick because its fun
because i can
and thats ok
they only call me when they're gone
all turning dumb
all turning fade
so i hope you choke on your own tounge
and fucking die
just suffocate 
... im a pessimist

pessimist

"Life"

Angel Numbers

seventeen

will you still love me when im no longer young and beautiful?

melatonin

2267 (feat. ericdoa)

@qtgf

waste time
something i cant fix
ive been spending all night
can you catch my drift

if i spent my life getting away from this shit
could i even get a break from this shit
no
love

you dont want to watch things fix
you would rather watch things burn like sticks
i would rather take blades out of my wrist
but instead they going in and im sorry to begin this

ive been taking pills 
cant cope
ive been trying to look
trying to find where to go
i got cuts i can call my own
but still no home

yeah

it will bring me down
but wont bring you around
so sad
you know that
i dont really know that
but

i hate this town
but i love you right now
i cry but
i never want to see you
frown

rest easy jd

<3

critty