Prod @Sinxi
Feat @hiraethsry

LYRICS
Got me so alone
Even from the start
Way you pick me up
Speeding in ya car
To afraid to speak
Leave it in the dark
Trying aimlessly
See into the stars
Got me so in love
An evil demon in disguise
Way you fucked me up
A trance to put in with your eyes
This girls a succubus can tell the way she fucking lies
But I Just can't say no to girls who make me wanna try

I don't love you I gotta make it stop
No lust moves half the time we on
And fuck you you take my fucking arms
Got me spinning hate the feeling
I trust you what makes you wanna start
I don't love you i gotta make it stop
I don't fuck you we gotta make it stop
No ones healing hate the feeling

When your with him i know your thinking of me
I'm only 2 drinks deep
I put his head in the sink
I'm tryna
Fight him
So im gritting my teeth
And man he should have stopped talking
He could never be me
I wanna
Leave him to the pavement
There's dirt where his face is
Fuck him while ur thinking of me
Do i deserve this?
Why you gotta lie when you leave
I'm feeling worthless
Stab me with a knife
Till i bleed along the surface

I don't love you I gotta make it stop
No lust moves half the time we on
And fuck you you take my fucking arms
Got me spinning hate the feeling
I trust you what makes you wanna start
I don't love you i gotta make it stop
I don't fuck you we gotta make it stop
No ones healing hate the feeling

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SUCCUBUS (feat. hiraeth)

produced by me
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socials:
www.instagram.com/deadfishig/

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lyrics:

And I’m so sick of always fucking up
Always apologize, it’s the last time
Blame it on me, i’m never good enough
Lost my peace, now I lash out

Cant get rid of the taste out my fuckin mouth
Carve out my tongue, said too much, bleeding out
Doesnt matter what I do, it’s way too late
Screaming out and procrastinate

I can’t
Stay here
Mental
Dread and
Pain gets
Stronger
Isolated

I can’t keep it up, nah
Throw me out, leave me to rot
I think it’s easier that way for me
You have no say in this, so just leave me

I dont care what they say
I ignore, most of dms
I don’t know why it’s so hard to
Keep a convo, maybe laugh

Caught myself staring at the ceiling
Everyone pretends they know the feeling
7 years has passed and I’m still healing
You will never know what I’m concealing

Caught myself staring at the ceiling
Everyone pretends they know the feeling
7 years has passed and I’m still healing
You will never know what I’m concealing

blame

stream

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lyrics:
u saw me right through
i looked up to u
ur the reason i make songs, how could u
u made me live
but it came to this
oh thanks to all my friends
i’ll never quit

trying to find the love of my life
but it ain’t going to go so well
i act dumb but i know that u lie
everything for u is going so well 
i’m a fucking piece of shit if u know
i mentioned it in a song long ago 
still pissed but i have to let it go
break me down but i’ll grow 

oh stronger and stronger
i’ve been living my life with no father
take my time, im never bothered 
i wish for the worse upon her (x2)

how could i love you
i don’t even like me
why do i wake up
death dosent want me
i’m stuck in my room
they won’t let me leave
one day i’ll kill them all
they don’t believe me (x2)

it’s cuz i’m weak
it’s cuz im a bitch
when pressures on
i throw a fit
but not no more
build up my core
when pressures on
i’ll start a war

arrogant

rain w/ xona [p. jolst x 88STRAIT x xona]

single off of my debut album "home away from home" (track 5)
shoutout to @xona for featuring on the track :)
produced by: azure & aidanhan
special shoutouts to @bitekivibes for being the goat too

LYRICS:
murph:

i walk out in the forest
but quickly i lose the light 
and my skin turns to mould
and the birds start to fly
i thought that i was safe, in my home away from home
but as i saw the creatures running i simply do not know

s.o.s, please save our souls
i might not make it back, barricade the door
s.o.s, please save our souls
frostbite all over me im stuck out in the cold

and now you're looking at me must've came back as a ghost
i love the way there's blood splattered all over the walls
can we find a way to give me pain, 'cause i need me some more
she put diamonds on her pinky ring, i love it when she flaunts

s.o.s, please save our souls
i might not make it back, barricade the door
s.o.s, please save our souls
frostbite all over me im stuck out in the cold

xona:

i'll decide what i do now - i'm reeling in "ours"
uh, leaving the pits that i found myself
(myself)
you desired my help
but i'm sick of words when its just pure guilt
so it's on me, awfully killing my health
i'm sorry i reached this point myself
the story goes on, to build a home
where we stay safe from the cold

murph:

s.o.s, please save our souls
i might not make it back, barricade the door
s.o.s, please save our souls
frostbite all over me im stuck out in the cold
(s.o.s)
s.o.s, please save our souls
i might not make it back, barricade the door
s.o.s, please save our souls
frostbite all over me im stuck out in the cold

- if u reached the bottom have a good day/night 333+ -

s.o.s w/ xona

produced by sleepwater leftquiet and melonmusik

lyrics:

leave it down in my heart now
seeing stars in your eyes now
im alive but i cant tell
my life is fading out
stay here in my arms fly away
i look at you in my head to keep away
tomorrow dont come so i say today
i need you and i love you
ima relive it again
again again again
again again again

i slammed their door im scared of it all
ran past a brick wall and threw my phone
it felt alien that place you call home
i was never welcome there
inside the ufo
feels like you had afair
places i wouldent not dare
take me away from earth
life was never fair
questioning my worth
as i run down the stairs
her mother walks past me
and says im not having this
and says im not having this
and says im not having this

suck me up in the ufo and tell me you wanna go with me
you can feel my cuticles ur face has took a hold of me
pressure on my arm babe you damaged my artery
i might be unusual atleast i got everypart of me

feels like you had afair
places i wouldn't not dare
take me away from earth
life was never fair
questioning my worth
as i run down the stairs
her mother walks past me
and says im not having this
feels like you had afair
places i wouldent not dare
take me away from earth
life was never fair
questioning my worth
as i run down the stairs
her mother walks past me
and says im not having this

am i the anomly
or am i common
im not an enemy
im too broken
im too broken
why cant you just come here
why cant you just come here
why cant you just come here
why cant you just come here
why cant you just come here

come here, i love you

produced by: @tnvr555
vocals and lyrics by: me and @heylog

lyrics:
just a sec, i needa bit to catch my breath
i try to hold onto what's left
but it seems that you're leaving again
and i saw your face
you're laughing at the back of the room
you're with someone and i can assume that
you have moved on, so soon
(you have moved on, so soon)

and this jealousy consumes at my mind
i can't believe that you're not mine
it gets harder to breathe, when you're not laying next to me
i think i've fallen in too deep

summer's coming round the corner, i can't wait to be warm
the uv's high so we lay some blankets out on the porch
and do you remember what you said to me
our past is something hard to believe
don't go
cause i don't want anybody else
oh no
i really don't want anybody now
i'm edging toward the ground
but that's what happens all the time as soon as life goes on
to you i'm not important
and i hope i'm wrong
without you it's harder to breathe
cause you're not laying next to me

and this jealousy consumes at my mind
i can't believe that you're not mine
it gets harder to breathe, when you're not laying next to me
(not laying next to me)
and this jealousy consumes at my mind
i can't believe that you're not mine
it gets harder to breathe, when you're not laying next to me
i think I've fallen in too deep

hope every1 has a good day/night xx

jealousy w/ heylog (tnvr)

bubbles /
depends, can you go fuck yourself

hira /
i can see a lot of shit coming out of you 
throwing hands until my face turns a darker blue
the evil in your eyes is pouring out of you
i still wonder why, im never mad at you

you could have some decency 
left me vacant while youre down on your knees
i should be more patient 
but its hard to be
when youre out fucking anybody that

breathes

is it too much to ask for your time
love my patience is walking the line
save me
its not like youd try
fell too close
breaking my spine

too close i feel like an option
i keep tryna run girl 
run into the forest
i could use some safety
are you tryna hold me?
stop shaking
eyes are getting blurry

i dont trust nobody
but i saw you as family
its getting too warm im struggling to breathe
its blatant im nothing to see

i can see a lot of shit coming out of you 
throwing hands until my face turns a darker blue
the evil in your eyes is pouring out of you
i still wonder why, im never mad at you

you could have some decency 
left me vacant while youre down on your knees
i should be more patient 
but its hard to be
when youre out fucking anybody that

breathes

breathe

produced by speedlmt

lyrics:
before i found u
i was going through hell
oh do you miss me
im still going through hell
i still cant even tell
what its like to be me
she doesent miss me
she doesent miss me


i vanish i go into hibernation
crucify me its isolation
no one will find me 
lost in the pine trees
walk right by me hallucinations
i vanish i go into hibernation
crucify me its isolation
no one will find me 
lost in the pine trees
walk right by me hallucinations

she my bandage
walking through the forest empty handed
blood on my screen
with dirt on my shoes
where have you been
i sorta miss you
well no defiently do 
im shaking in my room
i really hate this house
im shaking in my room
i need a way out
im shaking in my room
im shaking in my room
shaking in my room

i vanish i go into hibernation
crucify me its isolation
no one will find me 
lost in the pine trees
walk right by me hallucinations
i vanish i go into hibernation
crucify me its isolation
no one will find me 
lost in the pine trees
walk right by me hallucinations

isolation

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lyrics:
i wish i weren't so kind to people i dont know
they step all over me got dirt all on my throat
and as the time flies by i think that i might choke
this rope it follows me, it follows far from home
these bones have yet to see the depth of all these trees
this forest i will go, its right beside the creek
ill meet you here again when time passes you by
ill wait for you instead of passing on my life

as i walked thru the green of the spruce i heard your laughter
please tell me to stop im afraid of the after
every time i talk it just feels like it don't matter
every time i walk i feel my bones slowly fracture
why does everybody use me then just push me aside?
babe is there a reason you cant look in my eyes?
i cant talk to anybody, not even my closest
so i had to ask myself why do i even try?

if only you would focus 
(it gets hard)
then you could see what matters most
its not that hard to notice that you've been talking to a ghost

im losing my damn mind man everyone just acts the same
you cant tell me how to feel, please dont tell me its okay
you ain my friend you ain my bro so i don't care bout what you say
i do this shit all by myself while you sit back and waste the day
my throat is getting tight, it's so hard for me to speak
these woods are dark till dawn, so how could i even see
in the morning when you come looking for me don't be surprised if you find my body hanging by the creek

by the creek

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prod by stezzyxl
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lyrics:
lately i’ve been feeling like i’m fucking dead
a walking corpse hanging by a single thread
about to cut loose; the hand that i was once feed
oh no i beg

for mercy
i’ve done my best for you, but you just hurt me
i question myself if she really knows me
1 year down
i’m on my knees
and i still beg to this day

for closure
whenever u sad, u had my shoulder
whenever i was down, i just got lower
i screamed away
oh i’m in pain
and i still beg to this day 

for you
never once a day i didn’t love you
i treated u the same after i’ve been through
all the lies
and all the fights
and u won’t do the same

ur a piece of shit
ur a liar
our memories
are now on fire
ur like a cigarette 
with a bitter taste
left inside my mouth
i can’t erase 
ur pathetic
ur delusional 
u find it so cool
like an aesthetic 
u think ur always right
u wanna start a fight
u want the war? i’ll bring it to u
u won’t win this time 
oh i am different now
u can’t control me now
i won’t allow ur words to hit me if i hear a sound
and i will block u out
and i will turn u down
i’ll turn away from your mistakes, u cannot fix this now

rain w/ xona [p. jolst x 88STRAIT x xona]

☆88STRAIT☆(@88STRAIT)

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