lets not pretend

that autumn night i fell in love with u 
oh my fucking i hate myself for everything i said that time 
i even wrote a song for u
it was pretty shit i saw u trying not to laugh but its alright

lets not pretend

https://open.spotify.com/track/28jUCnEpAakgVoL2Vo7ylM?si=8ca473424fd04380

beat by me, other random guy is @1zakuro

i tried everything to make u love me
love potions and a fucking bunny
quiver from cupid, my shots were nothing
guess i gotta kill u, my dear lovely </333

blood on my hands 
and it's all ur fault love

hole in my heart
and it's all ur fault love

digging out ur guts
and it's all ur fault love

don't blame me cuz it's all ur fault love

i wanna tell u
how im feeling awful
how i hate myself
and dont matter at all
when i wake up
all i do is fucking bawl
all it takes for me
is just one call
dear lovely
please save me
thankfully youre pretty
cos if you werent id be
insane for an ugly

sorry dear lovely
guess i gotta kill u
looking at these bloodstains
i can't believe that they're you
so unfortunate
u could've said "i love you"
i would be happy 
even if untrue

sorry, my dear lovely w/ zakuro

ppwc hahahaha

slit wrist slit heart life doomed since the start
get a taste of ur waste lets be apart
in my skin all the time bothering like a wart
i get what i ask for but it never fucking works
im not meant to exist
all the art i make is piss
predetermined ima fail again yea im convinced
every girl wants a hero im a tragic prince
or lower
im a worthless witch

ur an overdoer tryna see me in person 
i dont wanna do nothing but hide behind the curtains 
stay online for my whole life
i will try i will try
feel like lain cuz no one's real
tried to save ur soul but now i cant feel
yea im starving myself i dont want no meal
yea im begging to god that i just heal

heart slits Prod bloodsekai

lovers inn motel room the tv signal sucks

hurting myself - i told you to stop why didnt you stop

2. @suban @zai sticked up prod. Imsg # finesse cult

Lyrics 
I want to end my life cs my girl done left me twice 
And she blocked me on everything no wonder don’t she reply 
Only took a couple words for her to change my life 
Idk what to do I can’t seem to get her out my mind 
I’m tired of ur words and I’m tired of this wrld i knew u were toxic but I ignored it cs i was desperate 
Cutting on my arm only increases my anxiety ima wear a sweater and do pills that’s how my life will be
It’s really ironic how im poppin pills like father like son when i was young my dad was poppin pills and smoken crack cocaine inside a car while he was supposed to be watchen me
Fuck me ig and fuck my childhood memories
I’m so broken im so useless i can’t do nth right im so stupid 
I can’t even i love u to my family 
My lil sister said she loved me i js looked and stared

Suicide Party🎈🥳🎉

Im not un retired im just like posting on this account sometimes when im bored OK???? DONT GET IT TWISTED Shoutout harley poe this is basically a cover

u dont understand where my mental is
dug up all the dead to find where heaven is
girl you're way too shattered to be sensitive
its numbing me
its all a dream
its all a dream

oh look at you
sitting there all alone
no reason to exist
girl now ur bleeding on ur wrists  
oh look at you
sitting there all alone
no reason to exist
girl now ur bleeding on ur wrists

Um um um um No reason at all Really

argument on argument i dont wanna argue about it
you say that you need me but i told you that i fuckin doubt
its 2 much on my mind, its 2 much on the line
and mayb yea ur fine but i cant ever give it up
bleed for u but you would never ever ever bleed 4 me
mayb its my fault i feel in love treat u like deities 
me & u but me & me is different you cant see it tho
remember when i asked u out n you said awh hell na bro
now you tryna hit my phone i told u awh hell na hoe
i know how it goes i know how it moves
yah i made u froze when i said na dude.. was that rude?
well frankly i just couldn't give a single fuck
"everytime you talk to me i just love it" uhhhhh
i just wanna tell u that i hate you bruh
play with my feelings then you play with my mind
drugs that im feelin make me wanna defy
drugs get me healin or does that cross the line
layers been pealin every day that you lied
all those texts at night :/

2. @suban @zai sticked up prod. Imsg # finesse cult

4moh