came for a fb, stayed for THIS FUCKING BANGER GOD DAMN

prod me x brayam

LYRICS
now im goin insane
now im goin insane feel like im losin my brain
now im goin insane 
now im goin insane feel like im losin my brain

feel like i burn through competition 
cant deal with none of your bullshit i need a minute
i feel like im bleeding out someone call the medic
i found an easy out tryna get invested
and now im goin insane feel like im losin my brain
stuck in the dark too long i cant find my way
struggle with this shit everyday thats why i have migraines
you told me the thought counts
but all its doing is giving me headaches

oooouu its givin me migraines
ooouuu think i need a advil
ooouuu i can never act chill
better watch what you say about me

bury my thoughts away 
anything except for thinkin bout yesterday
you dont wanna feel my pain 
and i can barely feel my face
right now its all too real
why'd you have to teach me a lesson that i never wanted to learn
it gets worse
headaches everyday i cant tell you how bad it hurts
thought i was lost before now there is no tellin
if ill ever be the same
i just wanna see the breath come out your face
people told me to forgive you sooner
now im sittin here lookin like a loser 
im sorry if i end up seeing you sooner on the other side

Spotify

headaches*

@janeremover
@chiefjuno

fight back ur tears when ur crying :')

wide eyes (feat. Jane Remover & juno)

i keep making the same damn song
ride around drunk till my wheels fall off again
i see you
i wanted to be you
but u couldnt care less

see its one of the pros of the sidelines
its always wrong place at the wrong time
eyesight gone by midnight
but im bleeding out quick till sun rise

i wouldnt change its perfect
i always crack but not on the surface
watch me break

its one damn thing to say that i miss it, real shit
i could never stand to visit
cause i always got drunk
never check my phone cause im too fucked up

i said baby do u trust me
and she said i would rather kill myself
am i disgusting?
or is it hard to fucking heal myself

i wouldnt change its perfect
i always crack but not on the surface
watch me break

watch me break

SPOTIFY

watch me break (yungspoiler)

it's my birthday so here's a song featuring @yonklolz !  enjoy :)
prod. me
all live instruments were recorded by me as per usual

available on all platforms!

lyrics:

@chriad
every single moment's pass
you can find another different reason to hate me
i feel like i'm made of glass
i know you try to look right through me lately
if there was a single thing left for me in this place
maybe then i would've had a reason to stay
maybe i wouldn't have left without a trace
throw away any pieces that i left behind
and i'm sorry that i cannot leave your mind
i'm sorry i can't leave your mind

i don't expect you to understand
but leaving here was my decision
somethings just cannot go as planned
but leaving here was my decision

@yonklolz
misuse my fragments as reflections
i don't know why you want me that way
you told me everything would pass
somedays i fall but somedays i last
now you don't see me
treat me like a broken piece of glass

@chriad
one fucked up night that just ruined all the rest
i don't wanna care about you but i'm wishing you the best
and you don't wanna listen so i'mma just say less
but i know that one day what i did will make sense
one fucked up night that just ruined all the rest
i don't wanna care about you but i'm wishing you the best
and you don't wanna listen so i'mma just say less
but i know that one day what i did will make sense
to you

one fucked up night that just ruined all the rest
i don't wanna care about you but i'm wishing you the best
and you don't wanna listen so i'mma just say less
but i know that one day what i did will make sense
to you

orangecore

made of glass

made of glass (ft. yonklolz)

survivorsguilt

https://open.spotify.com/album/2GyV2OBCCdIOR2bjv8RXwY?si=rRQJRtJ_Rgqx-FHTLeLEog
https://open.spotify.com/album/2GyV2OBCCdIOR2bjv8RXwY?si=rRQJRtJ_Rgqx-FHTLeLEog
https://open.spotify.com/album/2GyV2OBCCdIOR2bjv8RXwY?si=rRQJRtJ_Rgqx-FHTLeLEog
inhale your toxins i don't want to
(want to go)
why can't i make what i want to
(want to know!)
i think i found the answer i needed
(what i needed!)
all i need to do is say how i'm feeling
and i sayyy
like what the fuck is going onnn
(going on!)
why is everything going wrong
i don't know why i feel this way
i cant live like this for another dayy
like what the fuck is going onnn
why is everything going wrong
i don't know why i feel this way
i cant live like this for another dayy

for another dayy

covering my ears like la la la
i don't want to hear you talk if its bad news
you should talk to me cause i'm just like you
i don't even know how i keep going on
cause it keeps piling up
keeps piling up
doing nothing as i fall asleep
i don't wanna go back
(i don't wanna go back)
cause it's honestly just too much for me
inhale your toxins i don't, want to
(want to go!)
why can't i make what i want to
(want to know!!)
i think i found the answer i needed
(what i needed!)
all i need to do is say how i'm feeling
and and i sayy
like what the fuck is going onnn
(going on!)
why is everything going wrong
i don't know why i feel this way
i cant live like this for another dayy
like what the fuck is going onn
why is everything going wrong
i don't know why i feel this way
i cant live like this for another dayy

stream

what i needed

@whyapril

Episode 4

mastered by @assperrr

https://open.spotify.com/track/1yRWWWpbUvSIAWresrf7Am?si=6yWWNuiNQ5SImvAIh2CANQ

https://youtu.be/1V0S_gNNHMo

falldown, falldown & falldown
idc bout old shit n old sounds
church walls will crumble n knock down
but that's ok cuz i jus need u now
cuz i jus need u, n the comments r true
i needa get better, keep thinking of you
an angel has lost its wings to my expense n i wonder what i did

flowers will turn to dust, lovers to ash..
tsukii learned at a very young age that angels will deceive you;
this angered tsukii.
"come back my child", called satan.
tsukii isnt just any other fallen angel,
not even the spawn of satan himself.
tsukii is a second, far more powerful ruler of hell,
and has been deceiving you all this whole time.

i might get her back, might just stab her in the backseat
why tf u wan me u dnt even want attachment
whys it so hard 2 grasp it?
broken mirrors show reflection under my casket
h8 me, mutilate me
ik the devil will save me
all of the angels betrayed me
n now the bugs all decay me

falldown, falldown & falldown
idc bout old shit n old sounds
church walls will crumble n knock down
but that's ok cuz i jus need u now (x2)

8falldownn (whyapril, owleeng & ako)

everything by me

ima come back better than before
i try my best to restore
you wanted less but i wanted more
i sided with the bitch who hurt my core
fuck it i don't want her anymore
got me feeling things i cant describe 
in my head; i keep inside
now i just want you to die
got me feeling like im insane
plant evil thoughts inside my brain
you dragged me through the rain
i'll put the pain inside your head
i don't want your love anymore
throw out my heart onto the floor
dagger blade cutting out my sores
i don't love you anymore

i bleed blue but my blood red i'll stay that way 
faith fades along with the passing days
they try to stop me they always hate
i walk the path inside a broken brain

far from home (i cannot feel anymore)
i would know
far from home (i cannot feel anymore)
i would know
far from home (i cannot feel anymore)
i would know
far from home (i cannot feel anymore)
i would know
i need your trust
i need your trust
i need your trust
i need your trust

restore

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/2iXQ7m7yjsWVU2lEMA5dy1?si=1df4c608d1034aed


Hello,
I've waited here for you
Everlong
Tonight,
I'll throw myself into
And out of the red,
Out of her head, she sang

Breathe out,
So I can breathe you in
Hold you in
And now,
I know you've always been
Out of your head,
Out of my head, I sang

Everlong

this took a while
huge shoutout to dirkle aka @deadman

prod. me
live instruments recorded by me also

available on all platforms!

lyrics:

(chriad)
you know your words cut deep
everything you said to me
you make it hard just to come back home
you know i'm struggling
'cause i'm never sure what you mean
when you change your mind and i never know

but i know the
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
got me fucked up for no reason
i don't understand your feelings
and you never step out to calm down a bit
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
got me fucked up for no reason [for the rest of my life]
put all the blame onto me
you give me no choice but to leave

(deadman)
i‘ll take the blame for it all
despite the fact i tried
you just put up a wall
and filled my head with lies
and i know you won't change, love
you fucked up the way i think, love
and i don't know what i'm doing here
with someone who'd take my life
(deadman + chriad)
if they could now

(chriad)
if they could now
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
truth hurts you don't want to hear it

truth hurts you don't want to hear it
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
got me fucked up for no reason
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]
truth hurts you don't want to hear it truth hurts you don't want to hear it
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
got me fucked up for no reason got me fucked up for no reason
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]

[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]

truth hurts (ft. deadman 死人)

i miss u
spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/7KZm0nQJ0zlNnutRrh10du?si=61aZH4OLS_mrmPIrY87wmw&utm_source=copy-link

lyrics:

and just this summer
i realized
whats the point of crying
when u never want
to come back

these photos, these words, these messages i read
the bracelet i got, and the money i spent
is something ill never forget

oh u never realized the things that i did
neither tried to make me feel okay when i did
everything
you asked me for

i cant go outside or think about something else
when ur on my mind
girl u took away my heart
crushed it with ur hands
and made things worse

the time i consumed into writing these texts,
the things that i did,
even planned all those things,
for u
just to always say no
or planned on leaving after
i expressed my feelings

(its okay i still think that u are the best
ill never get over this
never forget
how i felt
when u were there
my love for u girl its crazy how its there)

i tried i tried
im sitting in my room once again
and i cry
u made me who i am but i hate all of it,
all these songs that i wrote for u theyre still there
and im weak
and i hate
but i love the way u act
even if u dont care
im scared of the future cus u are not here
the love of my life disappeared like u were
never there

the past 8 months i tried
to make u realize
i never tried to hurt u

i know u werent happy
but its okay my dear
ur better now
and aslong as ur here
im fine with that
cus my life is nothing without u

and just this summer
i realized
this was the best time of my
life with u being mine
the love that i sent
and the one u gave back
is something ill
never try to hide again
cus why should i leave it all behind
i never got to hold onto ur hands
or get a taste of ur lips once again
before u left
what happened to the part where u said
we'd both grow old together
and get a bunch of cats
live a happy life

8falldownn (whyapril, owleeng & ako)

8tsukii

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