i'm waitin for a bullet to get stuck in my brain too

still giving everything still need more </3

Hey just checking in. Hope you’re okay. You are loved!!

Killing myself tn, ty for providing me with at lesst some beauty in this miserable life

🤷🏽‍♂️

limited edition hoodies - bit.ly/2CIKS2v

keep fckn fienin mane
say y u leanin mne
i gotta bag of crshd dreams lyk wht u need mane

i js hope my last breath will b a sigh of relief
i kno im comin rite back
im js a drop in the sea
n either way i manifest
i know ill feel u w me
cuz we've always had this same distance between us
so hazy out here lately
i feel lost w my lady
locked indoors allday
js bc it is raining
grindin teeth like prince zi goddamit im facin
hella blunts js thinkin 
y my soul so vacant

im back grippin on2 my ego mane
js tryina b normal eatin w ur family

i got a bag of crushed dreams like wht u needin mane

Free Download

rip your underwear (prod. tothegood)

no samples

[lyrics]
is it I think too much
or are we chasing after
a ghost of what once was

I can't tell the difference

is it you care too much
or am I holding our past
like a knife against my tongue

I can't tell the difference

would it be enough
if we were loaded and fucked up
house out in the hills

I wouldn't bet on it

we could be more lost
car roofs, wet shoes
cashed out in an friend's garage

but one time's enough

Will it ever be enough
I hate fucking being numb
sorry that I love these drugs
do you think my head is fucked

Will it ever be enough
I hate fucking being numb
sorry that I love these drugs
do you think my head is fucked

i hate fucking being numb

no samples / with love, @4evrgone + 93 <3

I went dry
Fucking giving chances
Lord knows
Bloods old
On my fucking mattress
Hands cold
No hope in us ever lasting
Old souls
Still prone to infatuation

You'll hit me up
say what's up
Hope you're ok,
Ok
Gotta go about my damn day
Yeah Shits changed

Try to sleep
Really late at night
Guess it's morning
Toss & turning
Guess u hurt me

I guess you hurt me x3

hmu say wsup hope ur ok, ok w/ 4evr

w/ @ihateshinigami <3

an echo in the void, my world has been destroyed
dissipate, disintegrate, annihilation
chew me up and spit me out without a doubt
you're the last thing on my mind
i hope that the sky is forgiving when i cut the cord
everyone is itching to get something from me
but i just wanna get away
i wanna get away

i wanna get away

i don't care what you think of this 
the thought of you just makes me sick
like why did I always forgive, 
surfaced love made me forget
you bet I've learned a lot from our 
cashing out now all these scars
can live on, reminds me of my bad decisions
i don't care what you take from this 
still wish you luck despite that shit
cause I know I'll be fine, 
you bet I'll make damn sure of it
i'll make sure of it..

i just wanna get away w/ Shinigami

prod @4evrgone i jus added sum bass <3

found myself so thin
downing bottles again
I don't care what you did
just wanna distance myself

from the old bleeding well
from those posts seeking help
know I can't accept shit 
so just go on without me

just get on without me 
know it won't be harming 
know you won't be hurting 
from much that's been haunting me

and that's fine

leave it up to me 
let me fucking bleed 
let me stay 
x3 

it never really mattered anyway

it never really mattered anyway prod. 4evr

no samples

@carsonconner

I know I got problems taking pills now 
I know I got problems with my head now
I know you don't love me cut that shit out
No trust cuz girls jus fuck for clout now

I been staring at the sky till morning 
Connecting stars like dots to see your face 
really I'm just sinking in a sailors grave 
They acting like they know me so I hide away

Like where the fuck were you when I was down and out
Fucked up every day blacking myself out  
If you really loved me you would cut me down
Help me count the rings and then kick me out

I know I got problems taking pills now 
I know I got problems with my head now
I know you don't love me cut that shit out
No trust cuz girls jus fuck for clout now
x2

problems w/ carsonconner

video - https://youtu.be/9mTGTjh39Kc

mix/master - @youngburial

nowadays I wonder
if you cared at all
I'm anxious from the topic
and the adderall

if I tell you that I'm sorry
and its all my fault
will you fuck me when its over
and the pills wear off 

lately I don't want no new friends
really I jus wan blow my head
maybe it's drugs I'm missing
really I'm numb to all this

outside I look calm
but in my head I'm fucked
like why you think
I always keep that bottle tucked

they talk about my life
as if they're living it
like we didn't crawl thru mud
to get to past where we been

nowadays i just am not sure
still giving everything
still need more

nowadays i just am not sure
I'm not sure
I'm not sure

nowadays I wonder
if you cared at all
I'm anxious from the topic
and the adderall

if I tell you that im sorry
and its all my fault
will you Fuck me when its over
and the pills wear off

lately I don't want no new friends
really I jus wan blow my head
mostly it's just drugs I'm missing
really I'm just numb to all this

anxious from the topic & the adderall

I cant feel my face
I just snort it away, I snort it away
And I dont hate this place
I just hate myself

And I dont hate you
I just hate myself
Am I another dusty memory on your shelf?
Will youre still brand new to me,
so tell me how it's suppose to fucking be.

So lonely,
now I see,
the colors,
so clearly,
and I wonder,
does she miss me?
Do you miss me?

I could never be picture perfect.
I could never be fucking worth it.

I know youre better off, without me...

Spotify

fucking worthless. [prod RODGER ★☆]

miss u haven't met u tho

no samples
prod/mix/master @93feetofsmoke

Video - https://youtu.be/UzKzr_uSyWY

cuts on ur thigh
where my eyes been lately
i've been feeling down
but i shouldn't be
i've been working hard
hope ur proud of me
lately,
i just wanna distance
whats been killing me

lately,
i've been drinking too much
if my dad saw 
he'd be mad at me
if my mom called 
she would cry to me
like "when u coming home" ?
"have u forgot about me" ?

substance on substance
till i'm dead asleep
please silence the demon
that's inside of me

using book cover's as a headpiece
i miss being young having dirty feet
years go slow repeating history
lies grow mold and drift in the breeze

so lately
i've been careful when i need to breathe

and lately
i'm just not sure about anything

lately,
i've been drinking too much
if my dad saw 
he'd be mad at me
if my mom called 
she would cry to me
like "when u coming home" ?
"have u forgot about me" ?

(lately i've been drinking too much x4)

6SPEED

if my dad saw he'd be mad at me..

prod. @4evrgone

I don't know who i am
i don't trust who you are
lately all i can do is pray to the stars
that this bleak observation of everything i see
might one day turnaround 
i need to get some fucking help

im fucking sick of myself 
fucking sick of how my brain has a mind for itself
consider this an open letter you wont read for yourself
yeah of course im talking bout whos typing these words all down

looking more and more like deadman in this wonderland town
looking more and more like deadman in this wonderland town

leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing
leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing
im fucking sick of myself 

im fucking sick of myself
fucking sick of how my brain has a mind for itself
consider this an open letter you wont read for yourself
yeah of course im talking bout whos typing these words all down

leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing
leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing

sick of myself (prod. 4evr)

rip me open w/ shinigami & 93FEETOFSMOKE

Official Video: https://youtu.be/n8XmlBr60Fc

round the valleys we roll
TV blasting out the static 
making peace with my soul
calabash was way too far
so i skate smoking a bone
the hazy sun blessed me with wind
and now the ocean's my home
lately all i do is drift
collect the bag and phone home
hit my pops up, know he's sad
cuz life always takes its toll
but I'm certain all the pieces 
that i need will still fall
from the sky and i smile
been a while since we talked

flushed my xannies down the sink
about like four months ago
im so grateful waking up
times ticking over my dome
never know where I'll end up
keep my pockets lined with gold
no one's ever told me wrong
i blame myself for the most
got a shot up on my ass
cuz she stayed sleeping around
now my wallet doesn't fold
shoes dirty working till close

flushed my xannies down the sink 
about like four months ago
im so grateful waking up
times ticking over my dome

guitars/prod/mix/master by @93feetofsmoke

this song is the antithesis of "if my dad saw he'd me mad at me" which explored the consequences of poor decision making and the overall negativity that used to completely encapsulate my life. Hope it means something to you. Take care <3 love ya pops

if my dad saw he'd be proud of me (video in desc)

prod. @ghostrage
mix/master @93feetofsmoke

oh hey, miss ur face
life been throwing fades
shadows on the lake 
oh hey, i'm not okay
sup like hows your day?
yeah i'm doin great
x2

In the back of your thoughts
like the ghost in your hall
I’m the first one to leave
You’re the first one to call 
Hope that table is gone
The initials moved on
you keep friends for a week
Guess a month was too long 

I bite down on my tongue 
u always temperamental 
Scratchin thru my schedule 
room never presidential 
Tell myself to move on 
Stop being sentimental 
back to dabs and liquor 
whipping tracks and rentals 

say its kool 
But its not 
Not the type
to stir the pot
Leave the past 
Dead to rot 
You’ve proven that it’s not worth it 

Ok kool 
Oh wait nah 
fisticuffs 
On the block
Quick to aim
Quick to jump 
Still the same 
you’re still not

oh hey, miss ur face
life been throwing fades
shadows on the lake 
oh hey, i'm not okay
sup like hows your day?
yeah i'm doin great
x2

I bite down on my tongue 
ur always temperamental 
Scratchin thru my. schedule 
room never presidential 
Tell myself to move on 
Stop being sentimental 
back to dabs and liquor 
back to whipping tracks and rentals 
 
say its kool 
But its not 
Not the type
to stir the pot
Leave the past 
Dead to rot 
You’ve proven that it’s not worth it 

ok kool 
Oh wait nah 
fisticuffs 
On the block
Quick to aim
Quick to jump 
Still the same 
you’re still not

anxious from the topic & the adderall

93FEETOFSMOKE

Recent comments

Soulti3d

spaceout

Kidsketchyy

Cameron Say

Related tracks