i might throw up think i took too much 😩

been following you for so long, and time and time again I wish this album never ended

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And i still remember 
Your hands in my hair
And the fireplace in December
And time's forever changing
But i still feel the same for you
I just wish you felt the same way too

I don't wanna waste you time 
And i know you have a better life
But it's stuck inside my head 
And i don't wanna leave my bed

So just tell me you want me 
Tell me you need me
Tell me you'll come back
And you're never leaving

I was eighteen when you loved me
And now i know I'm twenty-something
But I'm still hoping that you'd come home
And tell me everywhere that you've gone

eighteen (prod. 93FEETOFSMOKE)

@teenpregnancy
@yung-jza-shawty

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butterfly kisses [w/ teenpregnancy + yungjzaisdead]

[Prod. Railrepeater]
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My links:
// Instagram: www.instagram.com/6obbyy
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Lyrics
Got All of this anxiety 

these people been stressing me 

Dope is what I’m Smokin, I be gone off the henneysee,

She just wanna fuck she on my snap and she sexting me

People say they care but I can see the disloyalty

I can tell they lying by the way that they treated me,

Shoutout to my brother rail he help me by blessing beats,

When I write this music hear the pain in my melodies, 

I ain’t got no friends because they all filled with jealousy

I just speak the truth and that’s why i got these enemies,

When I feel this pain I write  , this musics my rhemedy ,

I got this depression always thinking so heavily 

Get a ounce of og then I smoke on it heavily 

Jet black iPhone but I still wanna die,

Ain’t nobody can relate to me that’s why i get high ,

People always say they care but always telling me lies,

Ain’t nobody really fuckin with me say that shit twice, 

(Smokin dope , till I  choke

I be feeling so alone,

Ain’t nobody ever hit me up, 

Ima lost soul,

I can’t find out where to go,

I be working on my own,

Smoking all of this dope

But I cannot, seem to cope yeah, x2)
prod by, railrepeater

cope

video - https://youtu.be/9mTGTjh39Kc

mix/master - @youngburial

nowadays I wonder
if you cared at all
I'm anxious from the topic
and the adderall

if I tell you that I'm sorry
and its all my fault
will you fuck me when its over
and the pills wear off 

lately I don't want no new friends
really I jus wan blow my head
maybe it's drugs I'm missing
really I'm numb to all this

outside I look calm
but in my head I'm fucked
like why you think
I always keep that bottle tucked

they talk about my life
as if they're living it
like we didn't crawl thru mud
to get to past where we been

nowadays i just am not sure
still giving everything
still need more

nowadays i just am not sure
I'm not sure
I'm not sure

nowadays I wonder
if you cared at all
I'm anxious from the topic
and the adderall

if I tell you that im sorry
and its all my fault
will you Fuck me when its over
and the pills wear off

lately I don't want no new friends
really I jus wan blow my head
mostly it's just drugs I'm missing
really I'm just numb to all this

anxious from the topic & the adderall

[Prod. Kamikaze]
// Instagram: www.instagram.com/6obbyy
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Lyrics:
stuck with all these problems
they just clouding up my mind
i be smoking up a backwood
hoping one day i'll be fine
fuck the fakes and fuck the exes
they just wanna ruin my life
and most days i don't wanna live
i just wanna die
make me feel like a mistake
i just wanna go away
tell my friends how i feel
almost every single day
they don't even really care
fake the smile on my face
i be smoking all this dope
till i fucking fade away yeah
nowadays
there's a storm in my head
monsters under my bed
all my flowers dead
it's just all in my head
nowadays 
feels like time just goes slower
heads at war when im sober
these nights getting colder
we're just getting older
i just count my racks 
i cannot worry about no fake
i be rolling up a backwood
then i take it to the face
yeah they tried to hit my phone
but i cut off all the snakes
try to show me fake love
man i need my fucking space
always try to hit my phone
please just leave me the fuck alone
only worried bout my stacks
not a bitch who is broke
pull up in the rolls royce
i be smoking fat doinks
i be so faded and im chillin' with my sad boys
i be feeling sad see it in my face
try to tell my problems and communicate 
but i know that they don't care im not okay
i just hope one day that i can leave this place 
i be feeling sad see it in my face
try to tell my problems and communicate 
but i know that they don't care im not okay
i just hope one day that i can leave this place
nowadays 
theres a storm in my head
monsters under my bed 
all my flowers are dead
its just all in my head

nowadays

@prodreaper @93feetofsmoke

i can't trust anyone 
tell your friends pretty stories 
i just wanted a peace of mind 
and all the years wasted time 

every bridge is burned 
i don't wanna know 
stabbed me in the heart then you took my  soul 
never get it back i can't get it back 
no, no, no 

like be honest?  do you want it?
i know your eyes when you're lying 
and i'm trying, and i'm dying to hold it together in my hands 

no trust 

(93FEETOFSMOKE)
I dont understand
Where the Fuck I am 
Blood on my back
Blisters on my hands

Do you even know
Who the Fuck i am lately 
I can feel the stress
Gripping round my neck
Save me 

Do you understand 
Time is getting thin
Lately
Trailing a fine line 
Between fine and kill me 

6 speed
See me Earnhardt
Thru the nosebleeds

No trust I got no love
Left in me 

6 speed
See me Earnhardt
Thru the nosebleeds

No trust 
I got no love
Left in me 

I tried my best 
Is it working
My brain is 
Such a fucking a bully

Do you understand 
Time is getting thin
Lately
Trailing a fine line 
Between fine and kill me 

6 speed
See me Earnhardt
Thru the nosebleeds

No trust I got no love
Left in me

no trust w/93FEETOFSMOKE (prod. reaper)

no samples
prod/mix/master @93feetofsmoke

all of my nightmares are blessings
i'm manic as fuck, see u staring
this simulations overwhelming
plz take off ur shoes, LA's dirty

remember when i used to care so much?
and lately can't be bothered
does it hurt enough?
have u noticed that my head is fucked?
can't u tell i've just bout had enough?

all of my nightmares are blessings
i'm manic as fuck, see u staring
this simulations overwhelming
plz take off ur shoes, LA's dirty

6SPEED

all of my nightmares are blessings

no samples
coprod @kellbender

running round these dirty streets like imma labrat
still buy bottles everyday you'd think i'm past that
right back another void, how'd i forget that?
i'm mostly running from myself i know you hate that

there's a sadness in the sky i want to scream at
like get the fuck away and never come back
there's a voice inside my head 
that likes to laugh and tell me
"u aint fucking shit and yeah you'll never be"

running round these dirty streets like imma labrat
still buy bottles everyday you'd think i'm past that
right back another void, how'd i forget that?
i'm mostly running from myself i know you hate that

there's a sadness in the sky i want to scream at
like get the fuck away and never come back
there's a voice inside my head 
that likes to laugh and tell me
"u aint fucking shit and yeah you'll never be"

there's a sadness in the sky i want to scream at w/ kellbender

Prod. @anxietyattackss

This is do or die just like everything else ya
This an angel falling fast I might need help ya
"These are words you need to hear" I tell myself yeah
Pray that god strikes me down don't wanna live no more

I don’t have no time for closure
You did your rounds I fucked around and now it’s over
You know expecting things to last Is bad composure
I know I’m fucked up in the head thats why i lost her

Please forgive me for my sins, I ain’t mean to hurt my loved ones
and unfortunately I did, Imma regret my mistakes until the od or the lead
This is much past far removed you know I've been way off the edge

this is suicide just not sure where it ends
this is beautiful just let me play pretend
this is cynical i've been a piece of shit
this is factual I'm just relaying scripts

Imma own up own up
imma fuck up fuck up
are u sorry that u met me?
i still wonder, wonder
but you don't gotta wonder
x2

This is do or die just like everything else ya
This an angel falling fast I might need help ya
"These are words you need to hear" I tell myself yeah
Pray that god strikes me down don't wanna live no more

this is suicide just not sure where it ends
this is beautiful just let me play pretend
this is cynical i've been a piece of shit
this is factual I'm just relaying scripts

I'm so stuck in my head
life look like a dead end
broken heart i can't mend
out to break more again

Imma own up own up
imma fuck up fuck up
are u sorry that u met me?
i still wonder, wonder
but you don't gotta wonder

this is do or die just like everything else (prod. Anxiety Attacks x Bruce Leen)

prod. @WRCKTNGL

I don’t know what to do
I’ve learned that love isn’t true
Any day I might not wake up
I might throw up
Think I took too much

Any minute
U might slip up
Lie and say u didn’t
U might switch up
Yea I’m nervous cuz I’ve lived it

Any day I might not wake up
I might throw up
Think I took too much

Do these words hurt to hear
I selfishly keep u near
I drown my thoughts in a fifth
80mph off a bridge now
I spent two weeks sick owwww
Withdrawals break my head down
Fighting my own way out

I don’t know what to do
I’ve learned that love isn’t true
Any day I might not wake up
I might throw up
Think I took too much

Any minute
U might slip up
Lie and say u didn’t
U might switch up
Yea I’m nervous cuz I’ve lived it

Any day I might not wake up
I might throw up
Think I took too much

aye yeah think i took too much
aye yeah think i took too much
aye damn think i took too much
aye god damn think i took too much
x2

I don’t know what to do
I’ve learned that love isn’t true
Any day I might not wake up
I might throw up
Think I took too much

Any minute
U might slip up
Lie and say u didn’t
U might switch up
Yea I’m nervous cuz I’ve lived it

Any day I might not wake up
I might throw up
Think I took too much

aye god damn
i might throw up
think i took too much
aye god damn
i might throw up 
think i took too much

ANYDAY I MIGHT NOT WAKE UP (prod. WRCKTNGL)

My heads against the wall again
And I don’t bother
Checking on my phone at all
Don’t wanna try love again
Cuz the scars run too deep
And I can’t ever sleep as it is

You have your new friends
And I’m happy for that
Got ur whole life ahead
Hope it’s good, I’ll be glad
And lately I just stare
And reflect on my past
Wonder how my life
Got So far off the tracks

Blade against my wrist again
And it’s been harder
Trying to be sober at all
The future makes me scared as shit
Cuz the past fucked me up
And I think I’m just better alone

Isolate myself again
And I don’t bother
Trying to get better at all
It’s just a lie I tell my friends
So they don’t have to fret
Til I’m laid down to rest
At the end

head vs. wall

ft. @steadysuffer & @violeteyezmusic

prod. @mothfries

lyrics:

1080p dreams:

I still feel your blade from getting stabbed in the back
every day sets the stage for a panic attack
I wake up in the morning, don't know how to react
so my mind slowly builds to a panic attack
it just hit me one time
collapsing to the floor and it isn't even lunch time
I woke up this morning, didn't know how to react
my whole life's like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
no more serenity, I'll never end up getting it back

banging my head against the wall
I just don't wanna feel anything at all
I'm getting ready for the fall 
spiking my own drinks with the methyl alcohol
always burdened by my actions
can't stop dwelling on all my past awkward social interactions
convince myself they never happened
memories I try to just pretend that I imagined
this throbbing vein in my temple is making me tremble
it's painful and stressful
I'm up late trying to wrestle with voices
my shoulders have an angel and devil
he's so good at persuasion
but my angel's trying to save me from this hyperventilation 
she gave me a paper bag for respiration
he handed me a plastic one that I could suffocate in

steadysuffer:

ya you told me i was nothing like they said
you told me I was better off dead
now i gotta pull up to the function all red
pull the trigger now i'm dead
(ya ah)

she don't wanna talk no more
pedal to the metal & the suicide doors
got a coper on my ass so i kick it in sport
no breaks just gas cause life is short

i'm sippin lean all day
and my sprite bottle lookin like a goddamn grape
get the fuck up out my way 
don't tell me we're the same
i'm in another state with my shawty on facetime

ya I ain't been on a date in a long time
if I fuck up i'll accuse her
you must think i'm a loser 
if i can't keep a conversation 
i'm sorry

violeteyez:

Where are you? And I'm so sorry
I was too depressed to go to your grad party
And now I watch your new boyfriend 
pick you up on the back of his brand new Harley
Well, Barbie girl, do you miss me?
He's got a chopper and I got a 6 speed
So what is it this week? Who are you kissing?
Am I insane, or could this time be different?

And I know you'll cover it up like you do
You left your morals with your clothes: in my bedroom
And I promise that I didn't take all this-
lightly, though you tried to slip it by me
I just need some time, so sit tight, please
emotions give me anxiety

1080p dreams:

I still feel your blade from getting stabbed in the back
every day sets the stage for a panic attack
I wake up in the morning, don't know how to react
so my mind slowly builds to a panic attack
it just hit me two times
I'm in the ER and it's only half past noontime
I woke up this morning, didn't know how to react
my whole life's like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
no more serenity, I'll never end up getting it back

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panic attack ft. steadysuffer & violeteyez (prod. mothfries)

day 38 cant make it
counting scars like marks in the pavement
all the love in me turned to hatred
and beautiful things bring pain when
they're gone like we all will be
wish I could kill my fucking feelings
stuck in this hell scratched your name in the ceiling
starting to think that this is really how it ends
been 6 months since I've seen you
hope you're doing good yea me too
things have changed so much and I've seen a new life
it all fell into place without you by my side
then 10 years came and went so quick
your first love's gone and got 3 kids
it took so long but there's so much I've missed
I've learned life hurts but I love this

And all I ever really wanted was you in it
Maybe I'm meant to spend forever as a masochist

all I have left is in my head
a blank space with your name in it
wish you would have stayed but I understand
went too deep and drowned again
I think the pain made me love instead
pulled out the oages inside my head
felt what it means to see everything and
every being for what it is
I still miss you so much
but everythings hopeless and its not so bad
add another slash and run it back screaming

Day 38 cant make it
counting scars like marks in the pavement
all the love in me turned to hatred
and beautiful things bring pain when
they're gone like we all will be
wish I could kill my fucking feelings
stuck in this hell scratched your name in the ceiling
starting to think that this is really how it ends
been 6 months since I've seen you
hope you're doing good yea me too
things have changed so much and I've seen a new life
It all fell into place without you by my side
then 10 years came and went so quick
your first love's gone and got 3 kids
it took so long but there's so much I've missed
I've learned life hurts but I love this

ANYDAY I MIGHT NOT WAKE UP (prod. WRCKTNGL)

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