understand the depression and why you feel it, but don't give in, give yourself a goal and a timeline, I'm giving myself two years, if my life isn't slightly better in two years then I can let myself go

@user-67263126  are you really self promoting on THIS song, fr stfu

Бля качает хоть и тихий 

THIS SONG☢️😖❄️🌬😓😓😓

man I use to drink and cut myself to this, now it's been years since I cut and I'm two years sober, we're all going to make it, don't give up

Wonder how my life got so far off the tracks

Miles Away (prod. reeves) DEMO

I cant feel my face
I just snort it away, I snort it away
And I dont hate this place
I just hate myself

And I dont hate you
I just hate myself
Am I another dusty memory on your shelf?
Will youre still brand new to me,
so tell me how it's suppose to fucking be.

So lonely,
now I see,
the colors,
so clearly,
and I wonder,
does she miss me?
Do you miss me?

I could never be picture perfect.
I could never be fucking worth it.

I know youre better off, without me...

Spotify

fucking worthless. [prod RODGER ★☆]

no samples
prod @marten4str

my heart says just fuck it all
my mind says just wait up
words are useless
honestly it's fruitless
imma nuisance
might as well be toothless

matter fact what the fuck
plz speak up
white noise all i hear
when ur lips part
clean slate no hate in my heart
u should bet issa lie
fuck all yall

u should bet ur in debt to the stars
APR to the sky life taxed yall
MIA at best imma lost cause
ETA 6 feet not too long

i miss ignorance too
miss my living room
before i knew u

i miss ignorance too 
miss my living room
when i was with u

wait
huh..
aint that somethin for nothin again
just curbing the urges so that my ashes are purer
been a ways since stealing lunch from the store on the corner
been a ways since selling bags in a house never warmer

back then i used hand signals to motion you over
to keep you safe from the sharks
on the streets pushing rovers
but now my hands have grown idle
since ur body grew colder
when they called me up 
to say the cancer kept growing further

"and honestly you've done the most"
"never's a good time for it to be over"
x3

6SPEED

"never's a good time for it to be over" (prod. martensite)

no samples
prod/mix/master @93feetofsmoke

Video - https://youtu.be/UzKzr_uSyWY

cuts on ur thigh
where my eyes been lately
i've been feeling down
but i shouldn't be
i've been working hard
hope ur proud of me
lately,
i just wanna distance
whats been killing me

lately,
i've been drinking too much
if my dad saw 
he'd be mad at me
if my mom called 
she would cry to me
like "when u coming home" ?
"have u forgot about me" ?

substance on substance
till i'm dead asleep
please silence the demon
that's inside of me

using book cover's as a headpiece
i miss being young having dirty feet
years go slow repeating history
lies grow mold and drift in the breeze

so lately
i've been careful when i need to breathe

and lately
i'm just not sure about anything

lately,
i've been drinking too much
if my dad saw 
he'd be mad at me
if my mom called 
she would cry to me
like "when u coming home" ?
"have u forgot about me" ?

(lately i've been drinking too much x4)

if my dad saw he'd be mad at me..

Prod. @anxietyattackss

This is do or die just like everything else ya
This an angel falling fast I might need help ya
"These are words you need to hear" I tell myself yeah
Pray that god strikes me down don't wanna live no more

I don’t have no time for closure
You did your rounds I fucked around and now it’s over
You know expecting things to last Is bad composure
I know I’m fucked up in the head thats why i lost her

Please forgive me for my sins, I ain’t mean to hurt my loved ones
and unfortunately I did, Imma regret my mistakes until the od or the lead
This is much past far removed you know I've been way off the edge

this is suicide just not sure where it ends
this is beautiful just let me play pretend
this is cynical i've been a piece of shit
this is factual I'm just relaying scripts

Imma own up own up
imma fuck up fuck up
are u sorry that u met me?
i still wonder, wonder
but you don't gotta wonder
x2

This is do or die just like everything else ya
This an angel falling fast I might need help ya
"These are words you need to hear" I tell myself yeah
Pray that god strikes me down don't wanna live no more

this is suicide just not sure where it ends
this is beautiful just let me play pretend
this is cynical i've been a piece of shit
this is factual I'm just relaying scripts

I'm so stuck in my head
life look like a dead end
broken heart i can't mend
out to break more again

Imma own up own up
imma fuck up fuck up
are u sorry that u met me?
i still wonder, wonder
but you don't gotta wonder

this is do or die just like everything else (prod. Anxiety Attacks x Bruce Leen)

prod. @WRCKTNGL

I don’t know what to do
I’ve learned that love isn’t true
Any day I might not wake up
I might throw up
Think I took too much

Any minute
U might slip up
Lie and say u didn’t
U might switch up
Yea I’m nervous cuz I’ve lived it

Any day I might not wake up
I might throw up
Think I took too much

Do these words hurt to hear
I selfishly keep u near
I drown my thoughts in a fifth
80mph off a bridge now
I spent two weeks sick owwww
Withdrawals break my head down
Fighting my own way out

I don’t know what to do
I’ve learned that love isn’t true
Any day I might not wake up
I might throw up
Think I took too much

Any minute
U might slip up
Lie and say u didn’t
U might switch up
Yea I’m nervous cuz I’ve lived it

Any day I might not wake up
I might throw up
Think I took too much

aye yeah think i took too much
aye yeah think i took too much
aye damn think i took too much
aye god damn think i took too much
x2

I don’t know what to do
I’ve learned that love isn’t true
Any day I might not wake up
I might throw up
Think I took too much

Any minute
U might slip up
Lie and say u didn’t
U might switch up
Yea I’m nervous cuz I’ve lived it

Any day I might not wake up
I might throw up
Think I took too much

aye god damn
i might throw up
think i took too much
aye god damn
i might throw up 
think i took too much

ANYDAY I MIGHT NOT WAKE UP (prod. WRCKTNGL)

prod. @4evrgone

I don't know who i am
i don't trust who you are
lately all i can do is pray to the stars
that this bleak observation of everything i see
might one day turnaround 
i need to get some fucking help

im fucking sick of myself 
fucking sick of how my brain has a mind for itself
consider this an open letter you wont read for yourself
yeah of course im talking bout whos typing these words all down

looking more and more like deadman in this wonderland town
looking more and more like deadman in this wonderland town

leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing
leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing
im fucking sick of myself 

im fucking sick of myself
fucking sick of how my brain has a mind for itself
consider this an open letter you wont read for yourself
yeah of course im talking bout whos typing these words all down

leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing
leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing

sick of myself (prod. 4evr)

i want drugs i need sleep ya
i want drinks i need weed ya
imma fiend find me beans ya
why she acting sweet to me now?

whats been lying thru ur teeth now?
its alright
if you think im talking bout you
maybe guess why
racks and carbon paper in the magazine
ship it back land more packs
tax it to the scene

i wont let you in im cold and empty
dont take it personal its burdened on me
she keeps sending me pics calling me daddy
but i dont fuck with damn near anybody

you aint slick 
im too clean
why she act sweet
2mg in the limegreen
sleep on window seats
tryina see all this green grass
but its gray to me
life just ends it seems
everytime i breathe

you aint slick 
im too clean
why she act sweet
2mg in the limegreen
sleep on window seats
tryina see all this green grass
but its gray to me
life just ends it seems
everytime i breathe

i wont let you in im cold and empty
dont take it personal its burdened on me
she keeps sending me pics calling me daddy
but i dont fuck with damn near anybody

2mg in the limegreen

My heads against the wall again
And I don’t bother
Checking on my phone at all
Don’t wanna try love again
Cuz the scars run too deep
And I can’t ever sleep as it is

You have your new friends
And I’m happy for that
Got ur whole life ahead
Hope it’s good, I’ll be glad
And lately I just stare
And reflect on my past
Wonder how my life
Got So far off the tracks

Blade against my wrist again
And it’s been harder
Trying to be sober at all
The future makes me scared as shit
Cuz the past fucked me up
And I think I’m just better alone

Isolate myself again
And I don’t bother
Trying to get better at all
It’s just a lie I tell my friends
So they don’t have to fret
Til I’m laid down to rest
At the end

head vs. wall

ft. @steadysuffer & @violeteyezmusic

prod. @mothfries

lyrics:

1080p dreams:

I still feel your blade from getting stabbed in the back
every day sets the stage for a panic attack
I wake up in the morning, don't know how to react
so my mind slowly builds to a panic attack
it just hit me one time
collapsing to the floor and it isn't even lunch time
I woke up this morning, didn't know how to react
my whole life's like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
no more serenity, I'll never end up getting it back

banging my head against the wall
I just don't wanna feel anything at all
I'm getting ready for the fall 
spiking my own drinks with the methyl alcohol
always burdened by my actions
can't stop dwelling on all my past awkward social interactions
convince myself they never happened
memories I try to just pretend that I imagined
this throbbing vein in my temple is making me tremble
it's painful and stressful
I'm up late trying to wrestle with voices
my shoulders have an angel and devil
he's so good at persuasion
but my angel's trying to save me from this hyperventilation 
she gave me a paper bag for respiration
he handed me a plastic one that I could suffocate in

steadysuffer:

ya you told me i was nothing like they said
you told me I was better off dead
now i gotta pull up to the function all red
pull the trigger now i'm dead
(ya ah)

she don't wanna talk no more
pedal to the metal & the suicide doors
got a coper on my ass so i kick it in sport
no breaks just gas cause life is short

i'm sippin lean all day
and my sprite bottle lookin like a goddamn grape
get the fuck up out my way 
don't tell me we're the same
i'm in another state with my shawty on facetime

ya I ain't been on a date in a long time
if I fuck up i'll accuse her
you must think i'm a loser 
if i can't keep a conversation 
i'm sorry

violeteyez:

Where are you? And I'm so sorry
I was too depressed to go to your grad party
And now I watch your new boyfriend 
pick you up on the back of his brand new Harley
Well, Barbie girl, do you miss me?
He's got a chopper and I got a 6 speed
So what is it this week? Who are you kissing?
Am I insane, or could this time be different?

And I know you'll cover it up like you do
You left your morals with your clothes: in my bedroom
And I promise that I didn't take all this-
lightly, though you tried to slip it by me
I just need some time, so sit tight, please
emotions give me anxiety

1080p dreams:

I still feel your blade from getting stabbed in the back
every day sets the stage for a panic attack
I wake up in the morning, don't know how to react
so my mind slowly builds to a panic attack
it just hit me two times
I'm in the ER and it's only half past noontime
I woke up this morning, didn't know how to react
my whole life's like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
no more serenity, I'll never end up getting it back

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panic attack ft. steadysuffer & violeteyez (prod. mothfries)

IMA HIT THE E WOOD TIL I PASS OUT! #FUCKGOOFIES

head vs. wall

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