There’s always tomorrow…that can always change  😫😢😞

quiet nights, no end in sight
memories playing in my mind
i’m lost inside, no wrong or right
just shadows that you left behind

i see you walk in
to the garden to me
you start to argue
why you tryna make me leave
I light a cigarette
just to try and help me breathe
you say i’m distant
but you never really see

all this silence
is the loudest part of me
until im quiet
so i hear this moment bleed
you cross your arms
like you're guarding what's left of me
like you're guarding what's left of me

you keep holdin’ on
to the man i used to be
like i’m trapped in your memory
but i’m changin’, can’t you see?
you cross your arms
like you’re guarding what’s left of me
but i’m tryin’ to break free
from the ghost you wanna keep

i see you walk in
to the garden to me
you start to argue
why you tryna make me leave
I light a cigarette
just to try and help me breathe
you say i’m distant
but you never really see

all this silence
is the loudest part of me
until im quiet
so i hear this moment bleed
you cross your arms
like you're guarding what's left of me
like you're guarding what's left of me

walked into the garden
everything’s dead now
isn’t it crazy what a call does
i just keep my head down 
just gotta keep crawling, all in 
hit rock bottom
and my friends dont answer
so why would i call em?

walked into the garden 
everything’s on fire
you told me that you “loved me”
what a fucking liar 
my arms are fully burnt out
from treading all this water
i guess i never learnt
how to fix this flat tire 

it says you got a new man now
my friends saw you both in town 
could’ve at least waited 
till i finally got the 
courage to end it
but im cold product
so i jumped in and drowned
these waves wont let me down 
and in a few years when 
you find me on facebook 
and see i fucking did it
i’d love to see your face love

garden w/ sendflowrs (jolst, irby)

lyrics<3

girl you tore up that apartment
when we started growing cold

someones daughter, needs a father
but he left her all alone

left the bar when i was carded
wasent 21 years old

took my heart, now its discarded
whyd you use it as your own?

last ditch, i rest my eyes in a parked car
so sick i left my wine on ur bar cart
time ticks and love will leave u with a dark scar
words slip and i think you just took it too far

where do we go?
im stuck on the outside
been losing control
been losing my damn mind
but you’ll never kmow
our loves on a faultline
turn me to stone
when im gazing at ur green eyes

baby i think thats toxic
maybe you think im all wrong
one word and im changing the topic
suprised myself that im moving on

yet u coiodnt care less
7 days same clothes got a loose neck
i was down on my own like a reject
pardon my problems i feel like a nuisance

last month i saw your mom in that walmart
on lunch i shed some tears on my carhartt
as kids we measured heights and left a door mark
we grew quick it’s such a shane we didn’t go far

fault line [jacob vallen]

I'M BACK BABY
I've been cooking up a ton of songs, so regular posts are in order. 
This time for real (:


cool feats coming too, keep an eye out
loved making this with my boy wraith <3

amv made my itai/itoshi: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AerAym1RlfQ
lyrics:

(2x)
oh timing never even really mattered to me
that’s how I keep my balance
I get by on my feet
oh separate me limb by limb 
and sell me for scraps
then you tear apart my packaging
and kill me out back

Oh girl I know
sense that I should go
I should run for cover
try and make it past the oaks

brush up on the trunks
I got resin on my clothes 
as seasons change
I hide my face like
leaves under the snow

fuck I create
the weight
that sits on my back
so many days
to waste
just cut me some slack

fuck I create 
the weight 
that sits on my back
can’t win the chase
this place
it follows my tracks

[wraith]

Stuck below the water
I’m for sure a goner
I know I could cry for help
But I don’t wanna bother

So fucking sick of this
Barely improving
I’m feigning my ignorance
Blowing my smoke
And you barely believe it
Tryna cope
But I’m thinking of leaving

I’m burning the candle from both ends
I watch it igniting my canvas
The pictures I’m trying to paint and
I don’t know how long I can take this

Watch you go
Right out that door
I give it up cause
I’m all out of arguments
I lose control
Just like before
I’m spiraling cause
I think I’ve had enough of this

resin w/ wraith (wraithontheporch)

lyrics:
well there's no saving me
if you think that i be trippin it's the same for me
when i die don't want no fame on me
i'm such a wreck that i feel guilty if you pray for me

i put the blame on me
and i think its necessary when i hate on me
cause myself is still the bane of me
the only enemy i have is all the pain in me

i gotta stop when i talk like that
i cannot break it in my mind and then it get right back
a ghost inside me that i cant fight back
i cannot change it any more than i can change my past

i'm everything i hate
i cant escape i hit the cart until i'm MIA
i know i sealed my fate
when i finally came to terms but now i'm not okay

like, who let me get this way
you don't know me i'm a bomb boutta go off
blue poison in my veins
left for dead i need a map now im so lost

Blame

lyrics:
nightmares in my brain but, its too late now to back out
tell me i wont make it, bet i'm still gon chase the bag now
ten years comin clutch, i swear that i'm gon get the cashout
hope i stay alive for all this shit if i don't crashout

if i die know they'll copy all my syntax
when i'm gone smoke a blunt for me, hit the Maui in some gift wrap
there heaven or a hell? or will it all just end up pitch black
i cant really tell, i just know people known to flip facts

i'm my biggest opp, i pull the blade out in a crisis
i'm still standing up, i'm still breathing all despite it
i move how i want, give a fuck if they ain't like it
i'm here to get this bag, i always knew i would i'm psychic

i will get this this shit solo, ion need no team
got a hundred ways to get it, know it simple as it seem
watch the world on fire, they said fuck my lil dream
but i still do this shit, while its tearing at the seams

ion even rap, i just speak how a demon move
cold hearted from the jump, ill probably leave you bleeding through
its me myself and i, when i face death and pay my due
'til then i still be grinding while i'm tryna make it through

ion hear the hate boy, i'm tuned into the bag now
stack it up in silence, all the talking get you dragged down
work until i make it, i wont stop until i pass out
i was born to be in front, i refuse to be the background

if i die know they'll copy all my syntax
when i'm gone smoke a blunt for me, hit the Maui in some gift wrap
there heaven or a hell? or will it all just end up pitch black
i cant really tell, i just know people known to flip facts

Delusion

prod. by @wraithontheporch

@AVXiD
look where we are
funeral suits in the back of the car
tastes like tar
but i like it
oh i love it
i wander the dark
feeling this hitting my heart
(i love it)
peel off the flesh like its bark
(i love it)
you know that i’ve been marked
(i love it)
i'm stuck looking up at the stars
(i love it)

i smell blood in here
can you tell me why that is
the scent of rotting tissue
blows in thru the window

@enyusroom
the organs, they fill up this ball pit
visions they haunt when i’m shutting my mouth quick
(empathy slipping away)
is that what i’m made of?
am i just really a monster?
i’m fading like smoke in the cold
was i ever solid or constant?
i followed to dig up my tomb
i feel like i’m holding the grudge here

so stop it now
watch me
wipe off the blood from the biting
i'm closer now
to the edge
to bury those screams in the silence

the hunger for blood made me
change how i move on this earth now
rip me apart in two
drain out the source as the lights drown

funeral suit (wraithontheporch)

lovely
guess i'll turn back to the one we knew
just company, keep holding back, never nothing new
focus, hit up a flow, mix my shitty music
you'll notice when sinking low underneath the floor
hopefully just a ghost u can still ignore
oh it's lovely, guess i'll become who i was before

none the music been made to blow
even half it wasn't relatable
but i steady cook
spearheader shit
fuck u talkn bout, go getter
i was made to push
loud autobot, team outroll 
baby girl u could smell the bush
homies smokin on cedar wood
really hope ts isn't laced kush
and really hope that i make it too
or else every dream ending up wasted

grinding till morning ember evanesce night sky
light this red trickling my eyes
likened dead, preyed upon life

so tell me why do u hide 
getting cold in my soul only frozen outside
like the snow finna reach inside my bones when i die
couldn't help me anyway so
i jus sit inside and fix to fucking lay low
i jus had 2 count my money get ur pesos up
boy u a pussy pos n i aint say that much
even on my worst days beat u in tha best way

lovely
guess i'll turn back to the one we knew
just company, keep holding back, never nothing new
focus, hit up a flow, mix my shitty music
you'll notice when sinking low underneath the floor
hopefully just a ghost u can still ignore
oh it's lovely, guess i'll become who i was before

lovely (ARVM)

~2300~

@kennyorlando

prod by: @noahmadethiss + thislandis

forever mine (prod. noahmadethiss + thislandis)

thank you for listening
thank you for being here

prodby @chillsebs

though at war, he's been indoors, the body sore, and torn, and dormant
if i don't wanna talk about it, least i'm being honest
thorns of those adored remain accomplice to the hardship
he's always fallen short of pulling swords from out the garden
the polishing of floors becomes reflective that he's tarnished
back it up before the words contort from what i wanted
evenings on a porch he's never bore of taking part in
endorsement of that orange supports the forging of despondence

time clots when you have the stopwatch break
i won't be disappointed if you show up late
the kettles had been settled in support of the weight
his temple thus embezzled of it's coriander brain

girl i was your home, guess you rent me
broken out of stone that is my bones, smithing weapons
monochrome that dome, devoid of glow yet ascending
closing of the mold would only hone in the essence

split at the waist, forced to guard, stood in place
and every morning that breaks subjects his soul to ablaze
he'd prefer being burnt to a pile of sage,
where the ache in the air is relieved of it's grave

missing targets that he really shouldn't
uncompressed when melodies are fluid
stake it like it's weak against the turmeric
beings want his blood for their consuming
puppet felt the tug and pull of nothing
ponders why and how he's always running
shit had changed with loss and gain of loving
mercy at the gravity of what is

i really think i'mma erode, the moment i've struck any gold, aye
just let me go, just let me go, you do not know me
hope is a torturous road, but gonna see where it goes, babe
she left me alone, now nobody knows
absent of warning

girl i was your home, guess you rent me
broken out of stone that is my bones, smithing weapons
monochrome that dome, devoid of glow yet ascending
closing of the mold would only hone in the essence

pendragon (chill sebs x poppy ozu)

from a year ago <3

Its a total different picture,  
ur not here inside the photo frames  
I can really not forget you,  
what we had was real but it felt so fake 
and I don’t really wanna listen,  
to the bad things that u have to say 
I know got some bad habits  
I promise one day they will go away  x2

I love to lose my head,
I smoke up cuz im sad again 
and I know it will pick me up for time,  
it comes crashing down, I do it all again 
im just rolling up till the sunrise
and you know that im dead u can see it in my eyes

I cannot manage,  
oh shits fucked up,
Damn that’s tragic  
put me in the past tense 
they too busy laughing, 
I been building what I have for years, 
I don’t know if it’ll take me anywhere ill see 
right past the ocean I feel the breeze 
im way past emotions, I think I feel free

melting into aether

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