Saaaaaaaaad (IATIDBO x Im sad mash up)

Tracklist

Scarlett johansson- moon song
Drip-133- shedding pastel
eden steet- pain of creation
earl sweatshirt - grief 
the bear romantic- desantes
delusional thomas - bill
melanie martinez- dead to me 


Play melancholy mix

i always do this when i'm bored on virtual dj so don't get on my head i know it's trash babygirl/babyboy/babythem

IDK mix

@velvetqueen @teenpregnancy

sample: head in the ceiling by Title Fight 

lyrics: 

(scum)
I feel like i'm sinking deeper into the sea
you stare from afar so tell me what you see
when you're looking at me 
i'm only special in your eyes
thank you a lot but you don't see the other side
you don't know the real me
the real me 

(velvetears)
Believe me
When you're sleeping
I see you dreaming
While I'm in my head fuckin screaming
And I want you to know me
I wanna show you things 
That no ones ever known bout me
There's a lot I'm hiding 
But you're the one that I wanna confide in


in your eyes w/ VELVETEARS (prod. T e e n p r e g n a n c y .)

prod @notmorgn

lyrics: 
hate runs through my veins 
you are a plane 
i am the ground you soar above and laugh
and i, i'm getting old
i grow like mold in all the places you don't wanna see
you, you are the light 
i am the dark
i tried to find you but i got lost 
and i, i'm fucking up
just let me go
cause i've been falling and it's all i know
and i, i'll let you down, i'll make you cry
you don't love me and i'm the reason why
lie, lie to my face
tell me you care
tell me you wanna know who i am
so find, find me cause i am lost and i'm scared of what's to come (x2)

and i am scared of what i'll be
and i am scared of what i'll see

you are everything i'm not (prod. notmorgn)

lyrics:

(scum)
can you tell me where the time went
cause i feel like it wasn't well spent at all
i've been staring at the clock 
screaming why don't you stop
you're moving way too fast now 
and i don't think i could ever catch you
cause you move way too fast and i know i won't last
you move way too fast and i know i won't last 

can you please slow down?
can you please slow down?

(93FEETOFSMOKE)
i'm not sure what to believe 
sometimes i'm not sure you even know me 
i won't pretend to know how you feel
just try to say exactly what you mean

i'm not sure where i've been
you're permanently on my skin
i'm not perfect, never been
least i'm trying to do this
least i'm trying to do this 

cause you move way too fast 
i just wish this could last 
cause you move way too fast 
i just wish this could last

too fast w/ 93FEETOFSMOKE (prod. fats'e)

produced @prodreaper 

lyrics:
(scum)
mistakes that we made 
can never be erased 
but we can try and try again 
cause i, i'm falling deeper than i did before 
i kiss the ground
i'm falling down 
i kiss the ground 
i'm falling now
i'm lost, i'm lost
i'm still lost 
find me, find me, find me, find me 

(VELVETEARS)
im lost
and i don’t think that I’m worth finding
i stay inside 
cuz the truth in the sun is too blinding
ya i wanna die
tell me something that i aint heard a million times
I’m not a pretty image u can paint in the sky
i hate to say hello because i hate to say goodbye
i swear ill cut a throat if i hear another lie
i swear ill cut my throat if i waste anymore time
i hate to say goodbye

hate to say goodbye w/ VELVETEARS (prod. reaper)

@prodreaper

lyrics:
i've been scared all my life
i've been scared all my life 

i've been scared all my life
tell me that i won't die 
tell me that i'm okay 
i've been wasting my time 
wandering in my mind 
i'm not who i was 
all out of my luck
god damn it i'm stuck 
i don't where i should go from here
i've been scared all my life 
i've been hiding inside 
i don't show you my face
this is my safe place
inside, inside

and i know i can't hideaway forever
i know that, so don't look at me that way 
i know that i'm hurting me 
but i'm scared to see the world 
i am scared to live my life
i am scared of everything that's not here 
i am scared

scared for my life (prod. reaper)

prod. @trbldboy

lyrics:
falling deeper
everyone, everyone that i love
they're in pain 
we all laugh, we all cry , we all smile as we lie
we don't talk 
you just watch and that is why we're all fucked up 
oh, don't tell me that you care

don't tell me that you care (prod. trbld boy)

i see the same things over and over 
deja vu, it's like a pattern 
it's like a pattern, over and over again 

i wanna change, i wanna change
burn off the chapter, let me begin 
burn off my demons, lay them to rest 
i just want you to see me at my best 
so let me begin
again..

i see the same things over and over 
deja vu, over and over 
over and over

deja vu (prod. martensite)

prod @prodreaper

lyrics:

and i don't really want no new friends
all of you are fake and pretend
selling off the fake sadness 
while you're smiling, counting money from the reposts
but that's fine, that's fine

but you're not really sad at night 
you're just laying in your bedroom
while i'm staring at the ceiling, crying 
i'm always crying 
cause i'm just scared of everything that's coming

and i don't really want no new friends
all of you fake and pretend 
selling off the fake sadness
while you're smiling 
counting money from the reposts 
but that's fine, that's fine

heartless, pretend 
no heart, disguised in your lies 
you don't really care 
you don't really care

no heart (prod. reaper)

lyrics:

i wish i had some control
but we all know how that goes
i lost my mind for the 100th time
yeah i'm alright 
no i'm-
fuck this shit
i wanna quit this shit 
i  wanna fuck my head until i'm pale and dead 
and lie
but no one really cares about you till you die 
no one really cares

no one really cares they're just really unaware
they don't really wanna know how you feel 

all my life i have felt so alone 
even when i'm with my friends
it's not that i don't love you it's just that i feel like you don't feel the same way
and i don't really know what to say
i guess it's all just in my head

no one really cares (prod.4evr)

lyrics:
sometimes i just don't wanna wake up
other days i just wanna get my bread up
sometimes i just wanna make music 
other days i just wanna drink and lose it
i don't know, i don't know, i don't know man
i've been wasting time feeling like an old man
and i don't really wanna fucking go do shit
and i don't really care about what's popping
rather stay inside my head always throbbing 
rather stay inside and pet on my dog man
it's the only thing i ever fucking trusted
everything else always let me down 
but that's okay cause i let me down too
but that's okay cause i let me down too 

i'll let you down
i'll let you down 
i'll let you down
i'll let you down

sometimes i just wanna wake up 
look up in the mirror and not feel hated
not the best but i feel underrated
i've been down but i know imma flex up
me and gang some angels, yeah we next up
feeling cursed like damn baby i'm hexed up

sometimes i just don't wanna wake up
other days i just wanna get my bread up
sometimes i just wanna make music 
other days i just wanna drink and lose it
i don't know, i don't know, i don't know man
i've been wasting time feeling like an old man

sometimes (prod. flwrs)

@youngburial

lyrics:

i'm about to crash now
driving down a one way 
wylin with my hands up
asking can you see me or do you not care?
do you just not care?

and i swear i'm lying when i say i wanna be alone
if you could be there
i'd feel at home 

(fats'e)
if you were here i would feel at home 
i have no hope watch me crash and burn 
i lost my way and i’m better off 
i’ll just sit here never say a word 
if you were here 
i would feel alone yeah i don’t know it doesn’t go away
i lost my way and i’m sleeping way too much 
yeah i can barely get through the  day

(scumby)
i swear i'm lying when i say i wanna be alone 

i'm about to crash now
driving down a one way 
wylin with my hands up
asking can you see me or do you not care?
do you just not care?

crash w/ fats'e (prod. crashing boi)

prod. @luiscansino 

lyrics: 

love sucks i know
scares me the most
hiding inside
don't tell me your lies 
i know you care 
but it's hard to believe

(93feetofsmoke)

go erase me from your life 
yeah it's fine 
say you don't believe in love 
but i gave mine
go delete all of yours pic 
on timeline 
on IG 
in your mind 

ignore me like that it's alright
guess i just miss your smile 
love sucks i know 
but i'm really scared to die alone 

(scumby outro)
love sucks i know
scares me the most

love sucks w/ 93feetofsmoke (prod. cansino)

@prodreaper

lyrics:
i hope it hurts
i hope you learn
gazing at bridges that you burned
i wish i knew the first time 
i wish i knew the first time 
you were my mentor
you were my friend
now when i see you it burns 
now when i see you it burns inside

my head is fucked i've had enough
because of you now i can't trust
i am scared to show my love

i hope it hurts
i hope you learn
gazing at bridges that you burned
i wish i knew the first time 
i wish i knew the first time

you were my mentor
you were my friend
now when i see you it burns 
now when i see you it burns inside

and hate is all i give to you
holding secrets i never knew 
do what you gotta do 
but i can't show my love to you

i hope it hurts (prod. reaper)

lyrics:
fell hard but flexed up i knew could 
won't stop till me and my brothers good 
i love the way that you're doubting me
shape shift like i'm doing alchemy 
fall back y'all dropping some mid wow 
fucked past I'm living for right now
find me with all the lights down 
i'll see you around 
yeah i'll see you around 

time passed, can't get that shit back 
picked up myself now to get racks 
don't care about what you're saying 
can't stop until we make it 

same kid, stuck with the same dreams 
one day you'll see me shining 
right now, we go hard we grinding 
imma star, it's just the timing 
fell off, but now i am climbing 
like a diamond imma gleam with the bros 
looking stupid imma leave you looking froze 
i don't think i wanna die anymore 
i just wanna feel alive in the morn 
couldn't grow until i was torn 
think i died but now i'm reborn

no trust w/93FEETOFSMOKE (prod. reaper)

prod. @infamousgertrude

lyrics:

see you when the lights are down 
cold winds, take me there before i drown 
your eyes are so there 
oh i want you before i go insane 
tell me I'm not dumb and that you're feeling the same way 

call me on a dark night 
the way that you talk to me makes me feel like I'm not dying alone here
woah, woah i wasted my time on the wrong girl 
woah, woah you can break my heart just don't take my world 

I'm not perfect you're not either 
we are both lost, what are we seeking?
i want you to hurt me 
baby choke me so tightly 
my neck, your hands 
i want it, the romance
tell me you want it
baby I'm on it 

tell me that you want it right now 
i’ll be there in the morning 
maybe baby, maybe baby 
tell me if you want it right now 
tell me and i’ll be there in the morning 
maybe baby, maybe baby

tell me you want it(prod. gertrude)

@prodreaper @youngburial

i’m a little fucked up 
just a loser baby 
you could never love me 
leave before you hate me 
thoughts in my head i wish i could erase them 
but it’s not that easy

so stay away i really need my space 
so stay away i really need my space 

(fats’e)
if it was 2008
would u hit me up on MySpace 
We’d go to a show on a date 
but its not like that I’m not a kid anymore 

now I’ve got a lot on my plate 
And I’m getting older I hate it
and my past I want to erase 
so just stay away  I’m a burden and a bore

if it was 2008
will I live another decade tho
I really just need a little space
cuz it’s not like that I’m not a kid anymore

stay away w/fats'e (prod. reaper)

it’s all i got 
it’s all i need 
the music stops all the screams
it’s all i got 
it’s all i need  

i got cuts all in my brain
i got hate all in my veins 
i try to fucking change
but it all just stays the same 
i’ve been dying every day 
can’t you tell by face 
i’m a giant fuck up 
i just wanna leave this place 
i just wanna be alone 
i just hide on the inside
would you really care if i died?
 
nauseous, cautious 
running out of options

cautious (prod. nciku)

iris (goo goo dolls cover)

prod. @jakkyboi

lyrics:

(scum)
so run far, you’ll never be exactly where you wanna be
it’s alright, it’s okay, the nightmares will all  fade 
i just gotta get it going 
time feels so frozen 
when i’m alone i feel so broken 
like what’s the point of hoping 

the trees and leaves they all start to change 
stuck in my head i still feel the same 
stuck in the ways of the past

(fantasy camp)
I don’t want this moment to ever end
Cuz I’ve been here waiting forever
And I know you won’t be here in the morning
But I still hang on to that feeling
When I’m alone I think back to the time
Where we talked on the phone till we slept every night
And I know that I’m broken
I know that I’m holding on to nothing but hope
And sometimes I feel hopeless 
But I guess that’s just life
We fuck up sometimes
I could never blame you for walking away from it

nightmares w/ fantasy camp (prod. jakkyboi)

sorry i haven't really been active i'm just going through it 

love yall :( <3

nineteen

coffin w/ lil lotus (prod. graves)

yeah i roam in night 
glow in the night like casper 
dark when you’re gone 
could you move a little faster 
i hate my head 
so i fucked around and bashed it 
you’re killing the vibe 
so you fucked around and crashed it 
woah 
don’t go 

i wish you knew 
my words are true 
took me right out 
and showed me how 
i want to know who you are 
i want to be where you are 

yeah i roam in night 
glow in the night like casper 
dark when you’re gone 
could you move a little faster 
i hate my head 
so i fucked around and bashed it 
you’re killing the vibe 
so you fucked around and crashed it 
woah 
don’t go

spotify

casper (prod. reaper)

this song is dedicated to my girlfriend she's helped me a lot recently and is a big reason i'm even dropping music, love you goofball <3

lyrics:

i've been all alone
don't care now
call me on the phone
don't know how
all i want is you 
i've been black and blue
i swear my love is true 

and nothing in this world could bring me at peace
like you do when you're there right next to me 
oh you got it like that i'll call you right back
you keep me on track yeah 

i've been all alone
don't care now
call me on the phone
don't know how
all i want is you 
i've been black and blue
i swear my love is true 

the look in your eye is there 
promise that i care
i'm not unaware
tell me that you're there
hold you by the hand
wanna be your man 
started as friend
now we're here 
that's where i wanna be 

i've been all alone
don't care now
call me on the phone
don't know how
all i want is you 
i've been black and blue
i swear my love is true

all i want is you (prod. xxajii)

@prodreaper thank you for always bringing the best music out of me 

lyrics:
why'd you make me cry?
all my friends died
not really though they're just never by my side
i've been on my own, you already know 
burning in the summer but the heart is still on froze 

(heart on froze, i can't trust a soul so i'm always on my toes
i don't wanna talk just leave me alone)

you don't know me all these fuckers phoney 
isolate myself now i'm feeling really lonely
i can't trust soul thats just what mama told me
i've been drinking more and i've been feeling like the old me
oh no, i go, too far, move slow, hold me so close 
i can't let go 

why'd you make me cry?
all my friends died
not really though they're just never by my side
i've been on my own, you already know 
burning in the summer but the heart is still on froze 

it's over and over again
i just needed a friend 
i did all i could do 
i'm gray while you're blue
and no one ever checks when you're feeling down
but if you got a bag then they come around
it's so fucked up how this shit work
i'm not worth a dime bitch i've been dirt 

why'd you make me cry?
all my friends died
not really though they're just never by my side
i've been on my own, you already know 
burning in the summer but the heart is still on froze

spotify!

heart on froze (prod. reaper)

this song is really special to me i wrote it for my gf and her cat casper who is now in cat heaven. rip you lil angel! the acoustic feels more heartfelt and special so yeah i hope you enjoy

lyrics: 

yeah i roam in night
glow in the night like casper
dark when you’re gone
could you move a little faster
i hate my head
so i fucked around and bashed it
you’re killing the vibe
so you fucked around and crashed it
woah
don’t go

i wish you knew
my words are true
took me right out
and showed me how
i want to know who you are
i want to be where you are

yeah i roam in night
glow in the night like casper
dark when you’re gone
could you move a little faster
i hate my head
so i fucked around and bashed it
you’re killing the vibe
so you fucked around and crashed it
woah
don’t go

casper (acoustic version)

lyrics:

tell me what you need and i could be that
me and you together, yeah i see that
girl you really got me feeling crazy 
yeah you know i'm still your lil baby 
and i'm just tryna get a bag
are you good with that?
shawty looking real bad and she make me laugh
baby tell me where to go, i just wanna know 
me and you forever girl, yeah we finna glo

yeah we finna glo 

yeah i could be that
i could really see that
windows tinted all black
getting bread, green racks
why they all on my back?
i got shit that they lack
why i do it like that?
cause i'm me and that's that 
cause i'm me and that's that yeah
nah it's never been act yeah, nooo

tell me what you need and i could be that
me and you together, yeah i see that
girl you really got me feeling crazy 
yeah you know i'm still your lil baby 
and i'm just tryna get a bag
are you good with that?
shawty looking real bad and she make me laugh
baby tell me where to go, i just wanna know 
me and you forever girl, yeah we finna glo

i'm gon bring that pressure
girl you made me better
perfect fit but i ain't talking bout no cinderella 
i just wanna see you
show you that i need you
drunk orders in the night 
i can treat you right

tell me what you need and i could be that
me and you together, yeah i see that
girl you really got me feeling crazy 
yeah you know i'm still your lil baby 
and i'm just tryna get a bag
are you good with that?
shawty looking real bad and she make me laugh
baby tell me where to go, i just wanna know 
me and you forever girl, yeah we finna glo

see that (prod. taylor morgan)

lyrics:

and i remember last year
that was such a sad year 
feeling like a burden
my soul steady hurting 
tell me what you want now
cause it's getting hard to go on 

and i can't get these thoughts out my head (aye, aye)
and i can't even leave my own bed (aye, aye)
like whatchu even want me to say?
i've been feeling dead for too long
someone get the sand man
i just wanna sleep sound 
i don't wanna be round no more, no more

i'm so sick of it
lately i'm not into it
tryna be more intimate
i don't wanna talk if you're not gonna listen yet

and i remember last year
that was such a sad year 
feeling like a burden
my soul steady hurting 
tell me what you want now
cause it's getting hard to go on 

and i can never tell what you want
baby you can cry in my arms
i swear imma do you no harm
cause you're everything i want 

and i remember last year
that was such a sad year 
feeling like a burden
my soul steady hurting 
tell me what you want now
cause it's getting hard to go on

sad year (prod. taylor morgan & scotty splash)

lyrics:

and they wonder where you go
it's no wonder you're alone
i don't wanna talk at all 
sometimes i just don't wanna wake up
other days i just wanna get my bread up 

yeah, they thinkin i'm crazy
it's fuck em all lately 
someone please save me
we not relating 
so don't try to act like you do when i know that you won't
you standing around, i'm doing the most
and i'm so sick of this shit
i'm gon build me a bridge cause i'm so done sinking in ships
and i've been floating around can someone toss me a bit? please?

nothing ever changed i still i feel the same
still stuck inside of my stupid brain 

and they wonder where you go
it's no wonder you're alone
i don't wanna talk at all 
sometimes i just don't wanna wake up
other days i just wanna get my bread up 

nothing ever changes now i know that
i don't wanna be all alone when the world's black
i just wanna know that you're right there
lately i've been feeling like you're dead and so unaware

sometimes pt 2 (prod. flwrs)

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