I called my honey and i thought that you loved me

You both are great singers and great rhymers 🥹

YES IVE BEEN WAITING FOR OVER A MONTH HELL YEA

coming back high, but no “hi” for me :(

Bro this is more than amazing 🔥🔥🔥should fs work some time

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*777* w/ broadus & giovanni (reprod. jj)

written by Lxst Boy, Cavasoul, and soku
produced by Riddiman and oldboyy
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy
cover art by futoh
out on all platforms

-lyrics-
(Hook: Lxst Boy)
finish up my homework then I write another song
why does everybody hate me I swear that I did nothing wrong
got like 20 messages everytime I check my phone
but i will never answer them, I hate this feeling its getting old

(Verse 1: Lxst Boy)
try to tell me that im not ok
but cant you see the smile thats plastered on my face
like come over sometime and find me dead at my place
im sipping on this coffee praying that this pain would go away
the solitude is nice but I'm sick of being alone
walked a million miles on a path they call the lonely road
pondering my consciences, the deepest part of my soul
but hey im just a kid so what do i really know

(Hook)

(Verse 2: Cavasoul)
i hate this feeling, feeling horrible
is getting old
im losing meaning, meaning everything is seeming horrible
I'm conceited, seated at a table undesirable
I know that she could ruin me because shes so adorable
I fall asleep and I see images of violence
I see a side of me incite a riot
swear my head is never quiet
I'm craving death, it tries to overtake my fear of dying
I'll just go to bed so hopefully I can stop fucking crying
i hate this feeling that I feel whenever I open up my eyes
and now my lungs have started hurting as result from getting high
it gets tiring when you always just feel like you could die
now I'm breaking down again, just for today is the third time

(Hook)

(Verse 3: soku)
it's getting old, I'm growing old and I don't know if i could stay
every time you look my way I just turn and look away
I don't know if I could stay in this place
with this feeling that I hate and it won't go away yeah
yeah my voice is sounding stupid and my grades are going down
everybody else around hating me I feel the frown
on my face yeah I'm a waste yeah
telling everyone I might just take a break yeah
I finish up my homework then I go and cry alone
everybody hating me  and so I walk the lonely road
got like 20 messages every time i check my phone 
but that's not quite reality I hate this feeling it's getting old

(Hook)

@cavasoul
@soku_music
@prodriddiman

S T R E A M

i hate this feeling w/ cavasoul & soku (riddiman x oldboyy)

half of my life been apologies
whether it’s earned or not
i know the people that stay in my life are the only ones that i want
man i’m so sick of apologies
the feeling of letting you down
the feeling that i’ll never rest even the day that i lay in the ground
i’m sorry
i’m sorry
i’m starting to lose composure
i’m trying to write
but the tears in my eyes
make it harder to see what i’m holding
i’m never sober
not that i wanna be
i never drink i just smoke marijuana tree
i just kill my emotion 

what am i hoping for
maybe an open door
a sign
an answer or something
i’m always fine and then i’m not
i never know when it’s coming
i’m out of touch with my senses
i got mistakes that replay in my mind
filled with anxiety built around time it don’t matter the tenses
it don’t matter the tenses
whether it’s past present or future i see it ending
i feel stupid
talk to my therapist you never cared n shit
i was the one that was there n shit
i never thought i could talk because pointing out flaws always felt like a heresy

half of my life been apologies
whether it’s earned or not
i know the people that stay in my life are the only ones that i want
man i’m so sick of apologies
the feeling of letting you down
the feeling that i’ll never rest even the day that i lay in the ground
i’m sorry
i’m sorry
i’m starting to lose composure
i’m trying to write
but the tears in my eyes
make it harder to see what i’m holding
i’m never sober
not that i wanna be
i never drink i just smoke marijuana tree
i just kill my emotion 

when i blow up
when this shit done
imma be myself
not for anyone
but that old me
that you knew way back
well he not the same
now he bout this cash
imma bring it back
only for my fam
if you used to know me
then you just a fan
i don’t give a fuck
this ain’t no luck
i put in the work to get out the mud
i don’t give a fuck what you think
i can’t put my mind to it if i ain’t making bands with it
not too long fore i look at my wrist and diamonds dance with it
i been way too modest now i’m just being honest
pay attention to the profit
and now my new girl a goddess

my new girl a goddess
i feel like i'm dying
i feel like i'm dying

half of my life been apologies
whether it’s earned or not
i know the people that stay in my life are the only ones that i want
man i’m so sick of apologies
the feeling of letting you down
the feeling that i’ll never rest even the day that i lay in the ground
i’m sorry
i’m sorry
i’m starting to lose composure
i’m trying to write
but the tears in my eyes
make it harder to see what i’m holding
i’m never sober
not that i wanna be
i never drink i just smoke marijuana tree
i just kill my emotion

apologies (prod. jabarionthebeat x shah x jelly x alek)

love u @seem_bng
Mixed, Mastered & Produced by: @areyoumatthias
Vocals Mixed by: @kayostarri

lyrics:

im starting to think im worthless
cause my lifes a fucking mess
im just going through these curses
please know im trying my best

you're saying its not as bad as it seems
but i know you'll learn to regret me
i wanna learn to love myself
but im just so fucking ugly, yeah

dropping out, disappointing everyone
try my best to make it up to my mom
do my best, that's what you use to always say
now im falling apart on the brightest day

now im bitchin' 'bout how life ain't fair
got me doubled-down, on my knees, tearing out my hair
got one big, happy family, but im never there
cause no one ever gave a shit, no one ever cared

x2

i want to love myself, but im sO F*CKING UGLY DUDE

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