takanaka

6 - 7 - 23

(i dont know what im trying to get at anymore)

would you visit my house on the harbor?

you are you are
my fading scar

would you visit a house on the harbor?

i want to believe
you would visit me

i want to believe
i want to believe
i want to believe
i-

a small house on the harbor

venturing - for miles cover

production, guitar and vocals by me

not now, not ever
not now, not ever
not now, not ever
not now, not ever

i got 10 dollars, ripped up in the sand, my sisters wedding gown, and that fake television band that's north of water town
buying those cigarettes you like when you're not around
and i smoke them all over my clothes

i'm pretending that you're still my friend
i didn't fuck it up but i'm sorry often
i'm the reason that you're not talking
i bite down, i bite hard but its not enough
no its too much

not now, not ever
not now, not ever
not now, not ever
not now, not ever

for miles...

loop forgotten

Optifein

@wir7oo
@all-the-sauce
@projared

I miss the days when I was let out of work early, when all of my work ran out
I miss the days when we could walk down the street without air raid sirens blaring down
I don't think I can remember
how I felt before that one november
on the fediverse talking to some people about things I didn't understand really
I didn't even watch anime at that point it was all a larp in hindsight it's really silly
and I was still on niu dot moe the next year even though I'm not french I'm from philly
it's all the people that you can't identify that made you the person you are now
well not really because I could still pick it out in a crowd
not that it tries to hide itself
maybe for now but it'll always come back
it'll pop up in a new city with a new attempt
I'll be vigilant this time cuz I really regret the time I lacked
while we're here I need to shoutout the fact that 5 people produced this track
while I'm here I'mma go so hard I can't go back

I miss the days when I was let out of work early, when all of my work ran out
I miss the days when we could walk down the street without air raid sirens blaring down
I miss the days where I could pretend we could make it work and one day we'd all be down
but I don't miss the days you would come to me pretending to look for help

Thanksgiving (prod with wir, qwerty, dj projared, ben)

forced myself to make a song every day of october. theres some real dog shit in here and i couldnt be more proud. 

tracklist:

1. checkpoint
2. object failure (abject terror)
3. elsewhere
4. LED cleanse (under the knife)
5. establishing shot
6. cat prompt
7. cardiac unrest
8. pathogen bloom (surrogate drag)
9. catastasis now
10. patient care plan (non-issue injection)
11. anthill
12. miracle deserters (lethal in all doses)
13. enter pest
14. victim of misfortune
15. he'll never fly again (015 plaza theme -- helena hospital original soundtrack)
16. the fiction (flexeril dreams for all fags)
17. on tape
18. immolation dream
19. coward tells all 
20. survivor's guilt 
21. husk (parenthetical for aesthetic balance)
22. crash diet dictation 
23. final cut
24. dizzy spelled
25. appreciate it, pimp
26. 😛
27. traits (elective surgery)
28. outlet ensemble
29. salesman
30. it feels legal to kill you
31. love, helena (patient discharged so not to pass under our care)

Helena Hospital

OWA Emotegi Show @ KW Studios (Original set)

Yes I Type Like This.. Deal With It, Yes Im 12

New Song Im Working On

a low poly npc "wind spirit" model from a nintendo ds video game that gained sentience through irresponsible use of an action replay

https://soundcloud.com/a-single-flower-floating/sets/screenshots-2020-2022/s-HfLpm7Bw1vq

loop forgotten

a single flower floating on a lake