everything aaron

wishing i realized my place in this mess sooner

prod me
https://aaronkusnier.art/until

red stains on my tee
and don't tell no one they were free
can't get past this debris
they're hoping i won't make it out
and that's very lovely
your words were so ugly
such bad taste in meaning
(what's the meaning?)
what's the point in anything you say if all you do is lie
i gave you my trust, you bled it out until it dried
still can't come to terms with anything inside my life
so guessing that's part of the game

and i'm so sick of fighting with the devil
who convinced me that i got no potential
and the cards that played were successful, truly
couldn't put up a fight but that was all before
it's been breaking me down to my core
yet still don't know what i'm fighting for

and i won't ever understand the shit that you said
refuse to let that get to me
wont settle in defeat
nah!!!
talk your fucking shit >:)
'cause you got nothing on me
ima end this softly and
wasted so much time to find an answer
time no one can ever get back
my silver lining is painted in blood, so much anger
now everything is such a drag

outta pocket
they make me wanna tear my eyes out of my sockets
but i won't let them see a day, it's what they started
i know i'll find a way, i'm like a heartless
hoping this is what they wanted

don't know what to seek
feel like i can't be me
still not past the debris
but hoping things will end fine
i've lost all my focus
most days, so hopeless
this world's got sour taste
(tastes like shit)
what's the point in anything at all if everything gets worse
it feels like 18 years i've been stuck inside a curse :/
but i will keep pushing 'cause there's gotta be a worth
until it's all over

and i hope for a day that i can come back
(to) a world of my own, no one can trespass
under the sun laying on the grass
'cause it's all that i have ):

streaming

until it's over

trust in yourself

(re-mastered as of dec '23)

prod, written, & engineered by me
https://aaronkusnier.art/falling

feel so paranoid with everything
they told me pain is necessary to live
'cause if you don't know how to grow, what's the point of a heart?

only to break in several pieces?
i don't get what i'm feeling
i'm tired of all this healing, constantly
when everyone's leaving
stay inside for the season

i'll find a way, make it through, you'll see
can't find my place down on this old street
been searching for peace, tranquility
trust in yourself, fall forward, believe
when the sun sets, trust you'll remember me
screaming at our demons on this old street
took a while but we got through the debris
trust in yourself, fall forward, you'll see

you'll see, you'll see
fall forward, believe, believe

uncertain how to feel alright
re-learning how to sit down and cry
'cause one day you'll look back
thinking this leads one way when it does
but you don't know that right now
clueless to the facts all around
"how could you run away?"
they told me, "come and stay for a little bit longer"

i can't stay even if i wanted
i painted a target to the past
can't live in it anymore
closed a couple of doors
in hopes to grow and carry on
fall forward, believe

believe, believe
falling forward, falling forward
believe, believe
falling forward, fall forward

i'll find a way, make it through, you'll see
can't find my place down on this old street
been searching for peace, tranquility
trust in yourself, fall forward, believe
when the sun sets, trust you'll remember me
screaming at our demons on this old street
took a while but we got through the debris
trust in yourself, fall forward, you'll see

stream

Falling forward

made in 24 hours as part of FORM's "All Nighter 9" event!

@aaronkusnier

@adamdaylight

@echoriftmusic
https://open.spotify.com/artist/149ZQHCdlozrsXWNZ7uc6O?si=fDWIDGzBSSGl0M7qGKhNYA

@felimos
https://twitter.com/felimosmusic
https://instagram.com/felimosmusic

idol envy!
https://twitter.com/idol_envy

@snow_chant
https://twitter.com/snowchant
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There's a fellow in the rearview
Causing traffic on the paper road
All the origami birds were flying
And I don't think I'll start the motors just yet

I know, I know
I know, I know

Reflections in the rearview
I fell out with all the blue
I still don't quite understand
Keeping focus (I still don't quite understand)
I can't help but reminisce

What more can I prove?

I know, I know
I know, I know

aararo, adam daylight, Echorift, Felimos, idol envy!, Snow Chant - Ongoing Traffic (AN9)

re-mastered as of october '21

made this in a day with a long time friend of mine, hope you guys enjoy <3

eve.:
https://soundcloud.com/toothgap

falling in love (w/ eve.)

you’re just such a wonder, you don’t even think so
light inside the thunder, you’re my guiding hero
standing in the darkness, shining while my heart rests
showing off your sharpness, regardless if it’s starless
you’re just such a wonder, softer than the white snow
i cant even go back, to the place i call home
making my heart better, this is my night letter
to the one i wonder, who’s making me feel better

it hurts when you just say that “i can’t think of you”
i spent a hundred thousand heartbreaks just to get to you
and you just said that we were done, you had to go so soon
i smashed my phone on the school concrete when you said we’re through

i don’t care when you call me just “another dude”
it breaks me slowly but just surely i’ll get past it soon
it felt like stepping on some legos, that stuff hurts me too
but i will try my best to get back up and push it through

i won’t die in your arms tonight, because you’re not mine and i’m not fine

wonder

ive been flying through the super solar skullspace
i feel pretty stupid fine when i see your face
in my bed at night, just drifting at my own pace
falling into your interchanging cyberspace

ive been soaring through the complex powered cyberspace
ive felt super dooper shit when i see my face
erase everything of me, forget about the trace
drifting into the the never ending solar space

all the thoughts inside my mind, all just lack the sense behind
making everyday seem blind, walking every step inside
making every choice within, everything I must keep in
thinking bout relationships, overcoming everything

all the thoughts inside our minds, all just lack the sense behind
ive been making my days count, i know it gets bad throughout
we can make it through bad times, reading in between the lines
making everything seem right, only happens sometimes

i know we make mistakes but, we make it right
see everything around you, it all shines bright
i know we make mistakes but, we make it right
see everything around you, it all shines bright

ive been flying through the super solar skullspace
i feel pretty stupid fine when i see your face
in my bed at night, just drifting at my own pace
falling into your interchanging cyberspace

ive been soaring through the complex powered cyberspace
ive felt super dooper shit when i see my face
erase everything of me, forget about the trace
drifting into the the never ending solar space

all the thoughts inside my mind, all just lack the sense behind
making everyday seem blind, walking every step inside
making every choice within, everything I must keep in
thinking bout relationships, overcoming everything

i know we make mistakes but, we make it right
see everything around you, it all shines bright
i know we aren’t done but, we reached the light
thank everyone around you, we made it right

skullspace

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/1ExLfGth7c54zgdWJNuM1C?si=0e580h6FQ72-eJ9WHQey-w
track 2 of 6

this project is very dear to me. i hope some parts of it can resonate with you in some way.

'innerdirective' was created, mixed and mastered by me with some help from
@aaronkusnier and @hellojuko !!!

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twitter.com/iamsloy
www.instagram.com/iamsloy/
www.youtube.com/channel/UCIweg9XvDGYW6gJJSzHxcBg
@iamsloy

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@aaronkusnier
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lyrics:
can’t see through the light
getting too trapped inside 
reflecting on us
what if it all was a lie

and I can’t think
no I can’t sleep
when my world spins around your beat

but it’s so sweet
so bittersweet
but why can’t I let go

but know, I can’t hate you
no matter how much hurt you give to try
cuz I still feel you
no matter how much I say that I’m fine 

I’d take it all to get back 
I’ll be here, packing my bags
we will get out of here, let wings take place

say goodbye to your past
may your spirit be here at last 
insomnia, I beat you today

but know, I’d take it all to get there 
things you say, why should I care
we will get out of here, let wings take place

get out of your way
you still have time 
to make it your own

but I still wonder why
I feel alone

but I’ll get back up
and end this mess
cuz that’s what we do

let out all of your fears
let them go
let them go
let them go

free spirited (w/ aaron kusnier)

prod me!

rlly wanted to cover this song since it came out
original by https://soundcloud.com/1glaive

astrid (cover)

prod me!!
hope y'all like this, worked v hard with naku on this one <3

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/0G2KMKkfn1L2YzZHcevmS7?si=ijxod-gYQbOWvOjqon-PNg

naku: https://soundcloud.com/squiblers
https://twitter.com/miskeeping

lyrics:
flying so high in the clouds
i'm never comin back now
is it too much to ask from u
when u say u got my back, but ur covered in blue

in the end you'll stab me in the back, i know it
my contemplating thoughts are in the back, but i'll just bring it to the table
no more tales and fables
i ain't signing labels
i'm on my new shit now!

i'm only 17 and i live inside my dreams
i cannot go back now, i ain't steppin down
to who i thought i was supposed to be
i realize everything in the end didn't matter to me

i cannot think of u now, i can't afford to be down
when u got everyone around u with their head in the ground
and u be talkin smack, but i be gaining racks from all ur silly sounds
i can't afford to be down, becuz ur dead to me now

i said it, i can't bring it back, i ain't fuck with that
and honestly i fuckin hate ur guts and that's a fact
it feels like i'm never enough! but i don't care no more
i'm lookin for somebody else, well not really no more

i'm inside the clouds
and i won't function anymore
in the end, i wont fuck with u anymore

there u go, u stabbed me in the back, i knew it!
and part of me just wants this to be over now
but i'm thru it, and i'm fluent
in the shit u say to ur friends abt me

but i won't stop it now, cuz i'm up now
and i don't care what u say abt me
all my thoughts are caving in, i cant see past the dark sea
i won't give up now
cuz i'll keep moving forward in the end

they all want me dead and i'll never see why
so i'm hiding in the attic like i'll never survive
and they're sayin that i'm dumb because i never reply
i know that you're just mad because i didn't say bye

yeah, go and talk your shit
go and talk your shit
i don't really give a fuck
because i know that you're toxic

i know you're mad at me
i know you're mad at me
but i don't apologize
and i hope you aren't sorry

i know you aren't feeling well
i know you hate me i can tell
but i hope you get better soon
even if this is our doom

spotify

ite (w/ naku)

https://soundcloud.com/k9id3n

u were a friend of me
n now u locked me up n i'm all alone :(
maybe it was meant to be
u didn't take the time to look past my soul
but i been on my own
yet never felt so alone
maybe it's time to go
i will always be unknown, for now

been walking inside these shoes for 17 years
rly wish i could be someone else n disappear 
i don't rly think like that anymore
gonna sleep n drown inside the floor

it's all a lie, just accept it
everything u said, it made me sick
now i don't know where to go
rly want it like before :/

don't know where the fuck to go anymore
when my body's on the shore, there's some shit u can't afford
that's a saturn lyric :^)
ima think abt it bro
ima let it fall n let the rain pour

a friend of me that died inside the heartless, now ur gone
maybe it was meant to be
that everything u said was not for long
n now u broke me down
so much for scars, wow
n i can't hear a sound
so much is gone now

friendofme (p. kaiden)

made in 24 hours for all nighter vol. 5 @artbyform <3

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/3XK81cUfhX2p1VDRSOz1H8?si=6q_MFjJER2WOeBBt3mgkHA

https://soundcloud.com/squiblers

should of come around to u, i got eyes
disregarding every step like all the time
and u talkin like
why u got stuck when u put me in the middle?
ima spread my wings, im not small like stuart little

fucked up a lot, i think im in hell
maybe im alright but i can't tell
sippin on some water, i need to feel something
im getting really worried because i feel nothing

maybe it's a dream
but even if it was, what does it mean?
everything is dark now, it's fading to black
i don't think i'll ever make it back

shut the fuck up, shut the fuck up
i don't know if i'll ever wake back up
but i need to keep trying because i wanna get out of this
im really fucking scared but if i have to i'll kill a bitch

and i don't know what to see anymore
cuz ur stuck inside the floor
and i don't know what to think anymore
for what's right or what's wrong
i don't care, lets being cuz

u suck and i hate ur guts!
and i'll close all the doors and i'll keep it shut
and i think it's so funny how u talk all this stuff
cuz at the end of the day, u'll never matter to me anymore
(2x)

u'll never matter to me ever again
i never wanna think of u anymore

this doesn't feel real but i'll still try my best
people want me dead, i'll make a deal with them and digress
i'll mention that i'm out of luck
and that killing me will be stuck up

and then maybe they'll want to move on
and then maybe i'll just move along
i'll go back home and i'll shut my door
and then act like i never seen them before

u suck and i hate ur guts!
and i'll close all the doors and i'll keep it shut
and i think it's so funny how u talk all this stuff
cuz at the end of the day, u'll never matter to me anymore
(2x)

closed doors (w/ naku)

made in 24 hours
@hellojuko
@iamsloy
@therobyguy
@elidrinksgrapemilk
@aaronkusnier
love u guys :)

~lyrics~
I had fun with my Burger King whopper
Hitting Cheetos on this fucking helicopter
I had fun with my Burger King whopper
Hitting Cheetos on this fucking helicopter

I had fun with my Burger King whopper
Hitting Cheetos on this fucking helicopter
I had fun with my Burger King whopper
Hitting Cheetos on this fucking helicopter
I had fun with my Burger King whopper
Hitting Cheetos on this fucking helicopter
I had fun with my Burger King whopper
Hitting Cheetos on this fucking helicopter

might fuck around and trash the toaster
i'm so sad i'm getting older
and i've been feelin tired on my iphone
been feelin like it's never over
and i will never get full closure
cuz i will get up now, in the end!

falling out from friendships
really gotta take a shit
i been feeling so down, but i been feelin so up
and i don't fucking get it
i really wanna get out and dip
and i'm a chicken cuz i'll never make the first move again
and maybe ur right, it was a loss from the first sight
i'll never see u again

I had fun with my Burger King whopper
Hitting Cheetos on this fucking helicopter
I had fun with my Burger King whopper
Hitting Cheetos on this fucking helicopter
I had fun with my Burger King whopper
Hitting Cheetos on this fucking helicopter
I had fun with my Burger King whopper
Hitting Cheetos on this fucking helicopter

I just wanted you to call me
And tell me I'll be alright
You left me out for murder
Now I just want a burger, a burger
I just wanted you to call me
And tell me I'll be alright
You left me out for murder
Now I just want a burger, a burger

I had fun with my Burger King whopper
Hitting Cheetos on this fucking helicopter
I had fun with my Burger King whopper
Hitting Cheetos on this fucking helicopter
I had fun with my Burger King whopper
Hitting Cheetos on this fucking helicopter
I had fun with my Burger King whopper
YO ADAM BROTHER, DROP IT HARD!
OKAY!!!!!!!!!!

(i think i'm tired of whoppers now)

I had fun with my Burger King whopper
Hitting Cheetos on this fucking helicopter
I had fun with my Burger King whopper
Hitting Cheetos on this fucking helicopter
I had fun with my Burger King whopper
Hitting Cheetos on this fucking helicopter
I had fun with my Burger King whopper
Hitting Cheetos on this fucking helicopter

bh, JUKO, SLOY, ROBY, grape milk, aaron kusnier - BOBBA

re-mastered as of december '21

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/43EPyULcR4bJnfpEf5woR2?si=okbaZs1QRpi5KbgBgRgOtw

prod aaron & savepoint !! :)
https://soundcloud.com/s4vepoint

cover art by: https://twitter.com/hoshymosh

time stuck, i don't mind it
i'll get by
it's hard to be myself
so i'll get high
not on my own no more
but feel so lonely, so
got friends that i can call
but they don't know
they don't know

ur stuck up >:(
everything u say is so dumb
i'm blacked out, feeling every muscle going numb
i won't go back to u
i will build up the truth
that everything wasn't fine
n i got diamonds on my wrist cuz i b glistening
n everybody in this town will all b listening
i'll be right here to improve!
i think it's time to move

i slept in way too long
now i'm dying in ur arms
i'm so fucked up to the core
now i'm falling in this hole

went with u n i got so fuckin car sick
fell apart, cuz i think we went way too quick
gotta bounce cuz i think ur full of shit
n everything we did together was jus like a romance flick

but i'm gone but u should be too
now my hearts broken but i glued it in two
fuck u!!
n i promise i will get out of here
n i'm fucked up but it won't b for long :)

fucked up
been in my head too long
lucked up
getting my bread on large
enough talk
pussy you are not in charge
tucked up
come for neck your head get popped
i been on my fucking bullshit
hold this L, talkin tall u on the shortlist
baby i'm important
stackin up my fortune 
finally getting dubs
come to think it's finally worth it

stuckup (w/ savepoint)

dig u into my coffin, happy halloween 😈

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/1vl7srauABe66h1YPhg1Ua?si=m1UNV1V0RWaI5A_DeuHllg

cover art by: https://twitter.com/hoshymosh

And I'll dig you up with everything in my pocket
'Cause you stabbed in the back
And I'll be back in your closet
I swear I'm nice and I don't wanna fight with you

Dig you into my coffin
I don't wanna begin
With you dying wanting more
The darkness to your core
Swimming to the shore
You won't be the same no more
I refuse to function
Cannot hold discussions
With you waiting at the door
Arms are getting sore
Want it like before
You have changed right down to the core

What's it like to be apart of the game
I can't imagine how you're feeling man
What a shame
Will your mind be caught up by the money and fame
Well I'm the villain won't you call my name
You can not talk to us
Stuck in your ways you have lost my trust
Leave me out in the dust
Thinking right back that was all a plus
Cannot turn it back when I put you in my coffin
But I'll be in the bag before all of this is fallen

Dig you into my coffin
I don't wanna begin
With you dying wanting more
The darkness to your core
Swimming to the shore
You won't be the same no more
I refuse to function
Cannot hold discussions
With you waiting at the door
Arms are getting sore
Want it like before
You have changed right down to the core

You won't survive
When I dig your corpse into a coffin
Like the one you left at home
When you hung up the phone
I can't imagine what it's like to not be on your own
So I'll hold my ground
Until I hear the sound
Of everyone who mistreated me to finally drown
And I'll finally turn my frown upside down

And I'll be waiting
Inside of your coffin
When the rain is still falling
And your skin is dissolving
I'll get my revenge

Dig you into my coffin
I don't wanna begin
With you dying wanting more
The darkness to your core
Swimming to the shore
You won't be the same no more
I refuse to function
Cannot hold discussions
With you waiting at the door
Arms are getting sore
Want it like before
You have changed right down to the core

coffin

ft. @aaronkusnier & @fuckjamesy
prod. Malu, mixed by @nbmusic098

[chorus]
i don't have emotions to the shit that make me bleed
i don't have emotions to the shit you did to me
i don't have emotions can you please just leave me be
fucking all around, you were just too  blind to see 

[verse: wolficide]  
cut you off so much that it feels like a process
life stays in a cycle 360 hundred bitch
i don't trust the titles and the idols, not a little bit
roses in the ground it feels like magneto tricks
i don't give a shit, family stay on my backside
he don't love our circle since the day like when mac died
that's why, i don't even try to act shy 
hearts go up in circles and my brother got his brain fried

[chorus]
i don't have emotions to the shit that make me bleed
i don't have emotions to the shit you did to me
i don't have emotions can you please just leave me be
fucking all around, you were just too  blind to see

[verse: jamesy!]
Lost a lot of people, and I don't know what is real
Shit, I'm always talking bout it cuz I don't know how to feel
I don't know, what to do, I might pop another seal
Been a year, since I quit, I made it harder on the real
No cap, Honestly miss popping me a few 
When I did it, I was straight, Stress knocking me askew
Fuck being sad, nigga, I just want the good news
My niggas always worried bout me, Gotta make up an excuse 
I just want Marley back 
I'm only doing this for her, gotta make these racks
I really don't know what's real, praying to the ceiling
I just wanna pop another till there's no feeling
I gotta do it for my mama, gotta make this bread
How the fuck I'm sposed to smile when Marley's dead

[chorus]
i don't have emotions to the shit that make me bleed
i don't have emotions to the shit you did to me
i don't have emotions can you please just leave me be
fucking all around, you were just too  blind to see

[verse: aaron kusnier]
throw me out in the river
you told me to, u wanted proof
and i knew it so long
pay the price of a choosing
did u think it through?
it's all overdue
and i can't take it for long
i sit back and watch it fall
until i vanish like the fall
and all my leaves are crumbling
just like my sanity to heart
u cut me up and gave me scars
yet i can only see so far
ur time is up u cannot run
from everything u took apart

Heart After Dark

no emotion (feat. aaron kusnier)

lando!, aaron kusnier, kmoe - if U need

Aether Tides, SLOY & Bendel - After All (feat. Aaron Kusnier)

@wishlane / @aaronkusnier

On February 6th, 2021, over 800 unique artists came together to create a single charity compilation in 24 hours. Taking advantage of the fact that this would be the only FORM All Nighter event of the year, each participant went all-out. 45 of the most stellar tracks were hand-picked to create an album that’s phenomenal front-to-back— from math rock, to gritty electronic, to chiptune.

All Nighter Vol. 6 is a reflection of creativity, teamwork, and the sleepless delusion that comes with staying up all night— but most of all, it’s a reflection of our community. We couldn't ask for a better one.

All profits from All Nighter Vol. 6 will be donated to Prevent Child Abuse America.