The sound design in this one feels like a dream <3

Such an actor
Always act to people’s expectations
Seeking for attention
Until you run insane
Stressed out
Feel like dying
Desperation

Being someone else you don’t even want to be at the first place
But you force it
As if this thing doesn’t matter
Being pressured by yourself
Please fix this
I just can’t understand why

Such an actor
Seeking for attention

My head is overfilled with all the shitty drama
You’re so stupid
Can’t you just be assertive?
You are still worth it
Can you just be not cynical
I know it isn’t special
But it is certainly helpful
Maybe it can make you feel more special

Such an actor
Always act to people’s expectations
Seeking for attention
Until you run insane
Stressed out
Feel like dying
Desperation

#rock #shoegaze #noisepop #bitpop #postrock #alternativerock #altpop #altrock #pop #dubstep #edm #electronic #original #abiraka #actor #songwriting

actor

vox + additional prod by @swotll

lyrics:

i gave you my heart
will you make it up to me?
is this real
you're making it hard
makes me wonder why you're here

please dont talk behind my back
why u talking at that smack
ur like a burden in my back
and im with you and i cant stand it

you're like a plane and i cant land it
im just tryna fix my damage

damage (ft. swotl)

hearts (ft. gens)

-26/02/24

under the moon, i confessed my feelings to you
i long for your comfort, your warmth. your hands, your hug, your smile, your eyes, your hold.
when will i be by your company?
when? 😖😓😭😭
...
hopefully time will tell
sooner or later
when we're not together
or when we're gone
or when we're still closer than ever
whatever it is i just hope the best.
i hope we will last.
..

until we meet.. i'll always love you.
may distance not make us distant.

⭑.~ৎtearsજ⭒๋࣭ ⭑

produced, mixed, and mastered by November Day
additional synths by hvrtstation
guitars and bass by patrick oneill

lyrics:
You tie my stomach in knots, now I can't feel a thing 
Baking intricate plots to see you before spirng
I’m attracted to tell you the things that I'd feel
But I'm afraid of the backlash, I'm afraid it's not real 
I'm afraid of escaping. I'm afraid of the cage
I'm afraid if you know that I'm afraid then you'll change
I'm afraid that you'll see me and run just the same
And I don't really want you to go, I'm not ready for that yet
I haven't even learned every little aspect of your soul
And you don't know me, and the way that I could hold you too so please just don't leave
Cause I'm not quite ready to move on again
And I've been through so many, the time that I've spent
I can't even count it, I can't even mend the things that have happened
But I think you could fix it, and I think you could change it
And think that I that I need you, and I can't rearrange the things that I've been feeling in my head because it's too much to think about

its getting hard to breathe
(im never gonna find out, never worth the patience)
why am i even here
(stab you in the back now youre hanging from a clothespin)
every time i close my eyes
(i love you i just dont wanna see this go to waste)
(i like it but its not getting anywhere this way)

I’m avoiding the 8 Ball 
No appointment to see you 
I can’t find an escape rope 
Or no way to defeat you 
I’ve been caught in a web 
I keep clutching a lie 
Im stuck

ill stay here
i dont like it
i told you that
i needed this

8 Ball (feat. Quedronol)

@gskyo
@riensu

thank you so much for working with mee you guys did a WONDERFUL job <33

beauty (ft. gens + riensu)

@thesuo
inspired by : @novelchapters

twilight in autumn, our eyes glimmer. under the star i knew, i wasn't the only one. 
i love you my angel. haunt me for the rest.

lingering memores +suo

as the wind whispers_chapter358

verlet

lyrics (mostly) written by @jacobtravels
put to song by me

i die, at night, in the dark
surrounded by my own self pity
i’ve died, a few times, before this
surrounded by the shields i’ve built

alone

comfort is commodity
i miss when you would lie to me
i’m not as hopeful as i ought to be
i know

collapsing as a sign
it’s a circle one of mine
i was built to spread some message
not one that I could live to

myself

all i want is something to give to you
all i want is something to give to you

jacob song

this is my submission for the @contestcf competition.

huge thanks @0xnpctim for the vocals.

mv: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hFVJYGQrJV0

4me (ft. npc tim)

15, producer & songwriter ⋆⁺₊⋆
indonesian

actor

abiraka

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