[Intro]
Yeah…
All my life I tried to run someone else’s system…
But I was built different.

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[Chorus]
I’ve been running on my own line,
Speaking in a language no one knows.
All this time I thought I was broken,
Turns out I was just learning my code.
I’ve been hiding in the quiet,
Trying to make it on my own.
All this time I thought I was broken,
Turns out I was just learning my code.

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[Verse 1]
Lights buzzing in my head, I was just a little kid,
Memorized the patterns, trying to learn how to live
Said the wrong things, got the wrong label fast,
“Little professor,” “weird kid,” the judgments that last.
Teachers said “potential,” handwriting failed,
Group work felt like warfare, logic derailed.
Watched the world play, tried to copy the moves,
Masking my edges, learning to prove.
Parents called me shy, thought I’d grow out the storm,
But I was booting a system that didn’t conform.
Every blink, every step, every breath I controlled,
Learning the language of others while my own froze cold.

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[Chorus]
I’ve been running on my own line,
Speaking in a language no one knows.
All this time I thought I was broken,
Turns out I was just learning my code.
I’ve been hiding in the quiet,
Trying to make it on my own.
All this time I thought I was broken,
Turns out I was just learning my code.

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[Verse 2]
Hallways louder, rules moving too fast,
Literal in a world of jokes that wouldn’t last.
Friendships rare, moments intense,
Humor became armor, pain made sense.
Grades split, brilliance tangled with burnouts,
Masking daily, hiding all doubts.
I wanted to belong, code wouldn’t align,
Stayed in corners, learning my design.
Dark humor sharpened, deflecting the pain,
Solace online, a place to remain.
Dates rehearsed like scripts, emotions over-read,
Few could keep up, most left instead.
Two lives in one body, each playing its part,
Trying to act normal while guarding my heart.

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[Chorus]
I’ve been running on my own line,
Speaking in a language no one knows.
All this time I thought I was broken,
Turns out I was just learning my code.
I’ve been hiding in the quiet,
Trying to make it on my own.
All this time I thought I was broken,
Turns out I was just learning my code.

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[Verse 3]
Jobs, scripts rehearsed, people skills I lacked,
Burnouts, migraines, weekends off track.
Partners tired, kids loved but chaotic,
Masking fatigue, feelings sporadic.
At work I looked confident, maybe cold,
Inside impostor syndrome had a hold.
Yet in focus, the code finally aligned,
Quiet rhythm, my own design.
Everything once chaotic, now structured and clear,
Moving without fear, built to steer.

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[Bridge]
Then came the trigger, a moment, a thread,
Reading words online that mirrored my head.
Relief hit, grief hit, tide in my chest,
“I’m not broken,” I whispered, “I was running my best.”
Cried for the boy I never knew, misunderstood,
The system was different, but it worked — I’m good.

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[Chorus — Final]
I’ve been running on my own line,
Speaking in a language no one knows.
All this time I thought I was broken,
Turns out I was just learning my code.
I’ve been hiding in the quiet,
Trying to make it on my own.
All this time I thought I was broken,
Turns out I was just learning my code.

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[Outro]
Decades thinking I was flawed…
Turns out I was fully functional all along.
Once you know the OS you’re built on…
Everything finally makes sense.

Learning My Code

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