EDIT: I will leave the original description below this edit, as a testament to turning my life over to others, to people who genuinely do care for me, actually for each other. Depression is only made worse by drug addiction and it's impossible to realise this properly, without actually making a concerted effort to walk away from it. I have found that community, medication, therapy and determination really help. If you are struggling with life and find yourself getting high every other day, you might be addicted. I urge you, from a place of love and compassion, you are okay, you will be fine, but you need to ask for help. It's the only way to snap out of what you're going through. Think about it, how many times have you tried to stop? How many times have you lost your job? How many friendships and relationships have ended or disappeared?
Are you sleeping properly, do you feel happy, truly happy, with yourself and others?
You are not alone. Seek help from loving people, there is so much kindness out there, you just need to find it. Please, please don't give up, life is spectacularly beautiful, it's tremendously amazing, you can see it if you only let go of whatever it is that causes you so much pain.
Feel free to message me if you need any support, or advice, or just need to talk.
I'm ALL ears and heart, overflowing with love to share.
Live long and do prosper, emotionally, spiritually and as you truly are. 
An actual living, breathing, walking and talking, marvel of nature, an actual miracle. If you don't believe that, consider this for a moment.
Your whole entire body, the thing that carries your soul and spirit around all day, yeah, well it's made outta organics, which they themselves are made from freaking atoms, dude! WOW :D <3
Anyway, peace and much, much love. 


(HTF have you been missing from life because you're to busy f**cking around with stupid substances that play no role in your life apart from that of destruction!!)
Please help me help myself, because evidently I am too f**king retarded to do so.

I am so sorry for cussing, for using the word retardation like this, i know it's not considerate and i mean no harm, i'm just tired of f**king failing to live free from my moronic stupidity. I want to live, i want to love, i want to laugh, i want to be free but my f**k am i tired of repeating the same stupid sh*t, again and gain * a f**king GAIN NOTHING FROM IT SO F**KING STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Matrix me the f**k outta my addiction please sweet baby hey Zeus!

I love music! All music! 
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  People are awesome!

Edit <3:
Thank you universe for bringing us together, thank you for your love, for the people who are in my life, I am and forever will be grateful, internally, externally, eternally.
Life is getting way easier to manage, learning to socialise again is fun, although quite difficult at times, my strengths and resiliencies are on the rise!
Thank you, thank you, thank you :D


Previously:
I desperately need help though. I'm battling to overcome an addiction, and manage my ADHD (recently diagnosed)
It's not so much the substances now, I'm clean! It's more the psychological issues that have compounded over the years of isolation and chemical dependency.

To anyone reading this, if you're actively using drugs, everyday, and feel like life is to difficult, you might have depression and a substance use disorder. Please seek help ASAP. You're not alone!

Life is delicate, it's fragile, it's incredibly beautiful. It's a gift. <3


With my all
Robski

Matrix me the f**k outta my addiction please sweet baby hey Zeus!

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