It's been awhile since I recorded a song entirely by myself. I hope you like it.

Phantoms

[LYRICS]

surprise!
i'm still alive?
and designated: 
"a problem."
[ IF YOU DON'T REPLY- I'M JUMPING. TONIGHT. ]
i guess-
the time i've spent?
all seven years were just rotten...
[ LEAVE ME ON READ TO FIND ME DEAD. ]

i seek sleep...
[ I DON'T HAVE FRIENDS. I DON'T MAKE PLANS. ]
to numb my pain
[ AND HONESTLY? ANY DAY COULD BE MY LAST. ]
when i don't eat...
 
i just bleed...
[ SMOKING TOO MUCH. NICOTINE AGAIN FOR LUNCH. ]
and still-
[ WHY CAN'T LOVE TASTE LIKE A LUCKY STRIKE? ]
i scream in every dream...

tonight-
these words hit just right...
like every lyric was:
"locked-in."
[ I SAID I WAS FINE-BUT, MAYBE... I LIED? ]
duress-
can't bless this mess...
my talent's being forgotten.
[ HEY,  DO YOU WANNA HEAR MY THOUGHTS ON SUICIDE? ]

no one has ever seen an authentic version of me
truth is:
i'm disconnected...
your world is just some hell i've slept in for years...



i hate it here...



WE ARE THE VISIONS OF YOUR LUCID DREAMS 
FRAYED DISTORTED EDGES 
DEATH 
REBARBATIVE THINGS
[ so long... ]
ANOTHER YEAR
[ darling... ]
PLEASE-
LET THE END BE NEAR

WE ARE THE FOOTNOTES ON YOUR SUICIDE NOTE 
SCRATCHED IN DESPERATE AFTERTHOUGHT 
SUCCINCT AND REMOTE
[ melancholy... ]
I ONLY HOPE
I ONLY COPE

what am i still doing here?

[ I LIKE THE TASTE OF MY NOSE BLEED 
IT'S SANGUINE IRONY ]

why do i still linger here?

[ HERE'S DEMO II
ALL I'LL LEAVE FOR YOU-
OF MY SUICIDE DIARY ]

the light inside is broken
but i still work...

Tree of Woe

Acid Mammoth

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