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Xavi - Our Languish [acloudyskye remix]

a beautiful, hurtful life: chapter 2/30
read more about the song on my website: https://revenantmusic.net/#at-the-end-of-time

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art credits: me

In 2020, I lost a close family friend due to COVID-19. The last time I saw him was when he visited my family and me in late 2019. At the time I was studying for exams and didn't give him the time he needed and that was the last time I saw him.
In the past, I lost my grandparents in a similar manner.
'at the end of time' is an attempt to convey how I feel now. All the work did pay off, but at what cost? I could have everything I could ever want but would lose everyone in the process.
It taught me about how unfortunately anyone at any time could disappear, and that I should remember to put these people first and give them the love, time, and care they need.
Everything else in this world is temporary.

at the end of time
The family friend and my grandparents were some of the sweetest people that could ever have existed. They would always encourage me with everything I did, from music to my studies and would always make me feel like I was special.
My paternal grandmother was the last grandparent to live, and she passed away before I got a place at medical school, something that all of my grandparents dreamt of and encouraged me to pursue. At the time of writing this, I have finished my fifth year of medical school, done well in my exams, and won a scholarship, but they're not here to see it.
I wish you could see me now, I know I would've made you proud and I'm sorry I didn't give you more time. If you're out there, wherever you are, I hope you can see what I'm doing. This is all for you and I will be the best I can be for you.

lyrics:
[verse 1]
at what cost did i succeed?
by giving into my own greed

i didn't give the time you need 
and now you're no longer here

[bridge]
but now you are gone
and i keep thinking it's my fault 
i couldn't give you all my love
i don't know if i can keep going on

[chorus]
and i'll keep running away
so many things that i've wanted to say
i know that i'm to blame
i can't look back because i am ashamed

and at the end of time
i'll finally feel alive
nobody by my side
it's the end of a beautiful, hurtful life

[verse 2]
i want a way out
i hate how you're not around
i wish you could see me now
i know that i would've made you proud

[bridge]
but now you are gone
and i keep thinking it's my fault 
i couldn't give you all my love
i don't know if i can keep going on

[chorus]
and i'll keep running away
so many things that i've wanted to say
i know that i'm to blame
i can't look back because i am ashamed

and at the end of time
i'll finally feel alive
nobody by my side
it's the end of a beautiful, hurtful life

a beautiful, yet hurtful life

at the end of time

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What was it like?
Collapsing every-time
You had sublime and divine
In your own life

I know there's no price
They call it free will in this time
Roll my soul up in cloud nine
But make sure it doesn't get too bright

Sorry I don't know what you think
You see my face, but can you read me?
Oh, oh I don't know how to see
I can't stand on my feet
I just wanna be free
Oh, oh I don't know how to see

Nobody's alive
Nor they got motivational drive
Something we all need to revise
Don't rely on your device
You should have pride
Don't be so dry
People will come and see you shine
Trust yourself you'll be just fine

Sorry I don't know what you think
You see my face, but can you read me?
Oh, oh I don't know how to see
I can't stand on my feet
I just wanna be free
Oh, oh I don't know how to see

Oh this might take
Your lows away
The one thing you still have is your brain
Just believe me
The world is overthinking
Nothing has to feel like a dream
Just need a way that we can feel free

Sorry I don't know what you think
You see my face, but can you read me?
Oh, oh I don't know how to see
I can't stand on my feet
I just wanna be free
Oh, oh I don't know how to see

Oh, oh I don't know how to see
Oh, oh I don't know how to see
Oh, oh I don't know how to see
Oh, oh I don't know how to see

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How To Observe

Astrokid Mini Pack - Wild Horizons Adventure

Wild Horizons Adventure - Track 20

spotify link: https://open.spotify.com/album/2GmHaZ6VzgYwXnCNAn0Q2l?si=2Qaek9EHQ_il4pqnfCDlww

Heliov

The Bliss Has Faded Away

a song about little things that mean a lot to me

ephemera

How long has it been, since I could understand why it feels like you're crumbling
Into pieces paper thin, and I've been waiting for the deafening roar of everything
To come apart again, the sirens wail and you're diving in
Well It stops and then, you're drawing storms just to tie the ends

Downfall

I'm floating in an empty pond
I'll swim away until I'm gone
And tell me that it won't be long
Until you get everything you want
And are these noises coming from
Down below or up above
This world of yours will come undone
It's such a shame that you can't come

MUSIC VIDEO

At Rest

my anv6 submission~

had a fun time with vocals this time around :>

@artbyform

Tired Of Being Tired

can we try to forget again?

acloudyskye@gmail.com