song i had on repeat black truck by Mereba.
https://ffm.to/cosmosdemos

Black Truck Cover V4

one take
https://reisola.bandcamp.com/track/its-getting-warmer

it's getting warmer

To Have and To Hold is not a biography, a lecture, or a historical reconstruction. It is an imagined world — one you step into to feel your way around an idea rather than to learn it.

The album takes place loosely in early-20th-century Cambridge, at the moment when Western thought was beginning to strain under its own certainty. Science had proved astonishingly powerful at breaking reality into parts, explaining mechanisms, and producing results — yet at the same time it was encountering problems it could no longer fully contain. Probability was replacing certainty. Events mattered as much as objects. Meaning no longer sat still.

Out of this tension emerged process philosophy: the idea that reality is not made of finished things, but of ongoing happenings — that love, time, marriage, and even truth itself are not states you reach, but activities you keep participating in.

The album imagines this moment through a human lens. A mathematician trying to complete a system of logic. A thinker insisting that nothing important is ever truly finished. Proofs accumulating. Years passing. A marriage understood first as a statement, then slowly revealed as a practice. Love appearing not as romance in the foreground, but as something quietly unfolding elsewhere — happening whether it is attended to or not.

Rather than explaining these ideas directly, the songs allow you to inhabit them. You hear bells ring. You feel evenings close in. You sense the weight of unfinished work and the relief of letting something continue without control. The philosophy is not taught; it is lived.

This is a soft documentary in sound — an audio quantum leap into a world. Its purpose is not accuracy, quotation, or instruction, but immersion. By the time the album ends, you may not be able to define process philosophy in a sentence — but you may feel why it arose, what problem it was answering, and why it still matters.

To Have and To Hold is an exploration of commitment not as possession, but as attention.
Of marriage not as a conclusion, but as renewal.
Of understanding not as something you arrive at — but something that keeps happening.

If you listen closely, nothing here ever quite resolves.
But something continues.

Ten Years

Written/Produced/Mixed by Stevan 

https://open.spotify.com/track/2P400s59aJm0nKJHZ9lV4l?si=9ZRnjzNaSsylZYRUwjOFiw

not ment too but here u go some new music play it loud

Lyrix 

Pre: Chorus//

I’m feeling kinda pissed
she don’t find me pretty pretty pretty anymore
I’m feeling so distressed
that she don’t find me pretty pretty anymore

Verse//

I ain’t never looking like the rest
you used to say that I looked the best
now I’m always stuck up in this stress
I don’t know how to get out of this mess

you’re wrong- it’s just not fair
oh no
there’s something in the air
hold me show me some love
hold me show me some love

Pre: Chorus//

I’m feeling kinda pissed
she don’t find me pretty pretty pretty anymore
I’m feeling so distressed
that she don’t find me pretty pretty anymore

Chorus// 

ugly
I'm
ugly
I'm

baby i’m too gone
baby i’m too gone
baby i’m too gone
baby i’m too gone

Ugly

http://systemfive.tumblr.com/post/167190345092/22-times-round-the-sun-today

Circles

Fall Night 01

Cover by Atticus Torre, shot by Luke Diamond.

enjoy:)

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TO BE YOU

The original demo version of my half of the track I did with Billy Lemos and Nic Clay.

https://soundcloud.com/billylemos/talk2u-feat-kiddus-nic-clay-now-available-on-spotify-apple-music-etc

CAN I KICK IT (LOGIC RENDITION) // JUTO

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