what i wanted

Acoustic Cover Song
Long Snake Moan By PJ Harvey

Long Snake Moan (PJ Harvey)

IF EVER I LOVE AGAIN
Words & Music by Rhob Elliott
©2017, 2025 Awful Racket Music (ASCAP)
All Rights Reserved

[Verse 1]
I used to fall like rain in the summer
Fast and wild, no fear of the thunder
Gave too much without thinkin’ twice
Thought love was just paying the price

Now I count red flags like stars at night
Check every word for what don’t feel right
You say “hi,” I smile back slow
But my heart don’t jump like it used to though

[Pre-Chorus]
I’m not cold, I’m just careful now
Learned the hard way what love allows
It gives, it takes, it sometimes breaks
But I still ache for something real

[Chorus]
IF EVER I LOVE AGAIN
It won’t be rushed, it won’t pretend
I’ll need more truth and less disguise
No hidden past behind your eyes
IF EVER I LOVE AGAIN
It’ll start with friends, not perfect plans
No fairy tale, just honest ground
If you stay when I break down
Yeah…
IF EVER I LOVE AGAIN

[Verse 2]
Don’t ask me to trust with nothin’ to show
Words are cheap and hearts move slow
I’ve been kissed with lips full of lies
Held close while someone else was on their mind

But I still believe in late-night talks
In slow walks, in pillow talks
Just don’t try to save or fix me
Just see me—then maybe you’ll get me

[Pre-Chorus]
It’s not fear, it’s just my pace
I’ve learned to guard my space
But somewhere deep I still believe
Love could feel like peace, not grief

[Chorus]
IF EVER I LOVE AGAIN
It’ll be deep, it won’t just bend
I’ll want the silence to feel safe
I’ll want the fire without the flames
IF EVER I LOVE AGAIN
It won’t be games, it won’t be “when”
It’ll be steady, soft and true
And I’ll be all in, if you are too

[Bridge]
I know what I don’t want now
And maybe that’s a start
I don’t need perfection
Just a genuine heart
So if you come close, come slow
Come real
I’m not a maybe—
I'm a “know it when I feel”

[Rap]
Yeah, I’ve been ghosted, gaslit, torn in two
Loved the wrong ones thinkin’ they were true
Left on read when I needed a call
Fell too quick, now I’m scared to fall
But I’m not jaded—I’m refined
I want that soul-to-soul, no mask, no line
If you step, then step with grace
No rush, just vibe—let’s set the pace
Love ain't dead, it's just rare
So if you're real—come prepared

[Final Chorus]
IF EVER I LOVE AGAIN
It’ll be calm, not sink or swim
Not perfect days, but present ones
Not chasing highs, but building trust
IF EVER I LOVE AGAIN
It won’t erase where I have been
But it’ll make the pain make sense
If love can learn to be a friend

[Outro]
If ever… I love again
I won’t lose myself to win
I'll give slow, but I’ll give true
And maybe… just maybe
It’ll be you

IF EVER I LOVE AGAIN

This song is about the fragile dance of love and vulnerability in a toxic relationship. It's a reflection on the pain and heartache that can come from being with someone who tears you down, rather than lifting you up. The lyrics explore the theme of being worn down, like paper skin, and the struggle to find strength in the face of emotional abuse. It's a raw and honest portrayal of the complexities of love, pain, and resilience.


LYRICS: 

Verse 1
I held your love like a glass of wine
Too tight, now the red’s on my hands
You kissed me like I was your lifeline
But you let go just when I began 

Pre-Chorus
You said I was too much, too loud, too wild
But I was just a mirror for your broken child 

Chorus
Now I’m folding in like paper skin
Every word you said still cuts me thin
Tried to be strong, but I caved again
You built me up just to watch me bend
Yeah, I laughed through the pain — that’s my sin
But I’m bleeding out through paper skin 

Verse 2
You’d come home smelling like somewhere else
Smile like you didn’t taste goodbye
And I’d pretend I was someone else
Just to keep you from asking why 

Pre-Chorus
Told me I was crazy, yeah, maybe so
But only fire loves as deep as cold 

Chorus
Now I’m folding in like paper skin
Every word you said still cuts me thin
Tried to be strong, but I caved again
You built me up just to watch me bend
Yeah, I laughed through the pain — that’s my sin
But I’m bleeding out through paper skin 

Bridge
I burned the letters you never wrote
Screamed your name ‘til it turned to smoke
You took the girl, left the ghost
Now I haunt myself the most 

Final Chorus
Still folding in like paper skin
No armor left to hold me in
You tore me down from deep within
And left a whisper where I had been
I still laugh through the pain — can't win
'Cause I'm bleeding out through paper skin 

Outro
Just a mess you walked away from
Just a song you never sang
Just paper skin in a hurricane

Paper Skin

What Is your Destiny

Verse Chorus Bridge

Written and Produced by Chris Teeter, conversation main character: Austin Gamble

For Your Sake - demo

Added guitar by Natan at the end :)
Hej Polacy!!

Falling (with guitar)

Gaia Forest

daily thunderstorms in fort myers, i kinda like it. relaxing. cozy

naturescape - calm thunder

Music, lyrics, mixing, production: Andrej Kralj aka A Day in Venice
Vocals performed by Froop (Peggy-Sue Mackey) 

I have nothing to lose
I have nothing here
I have nothing to see
I have seen everything

I have nothing to gain
I have nothing to sell
I have no more wants
I have nothing

you're in the now, now
you're in the now
you're in the now, now, now, now, now
you're in the now, now
you're in the now
you're in the now, now, now, now, now

I have nothing to gain
I have nothing to sell
I have no more wants
I've seen everything

you're in the now, now
you're in the now
you're in the now, now, now, now, now
you're in the now, now
you're in the now

A Day in Venice - In the now

I write, perform, and record everything, with occasional guest vocalists.

The project started in metal. It evolved. Now it’s just my sound.

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A Day in Venice - In the now

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