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Raised by Wolves

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1 year since my first song on SoundCloud.

Dear [REDACTED],

You gave me nothing good I couldn’t find elsewhere. You taught me as a child that there was something inherently wrong with me. You gave me a messed up idea of what love is. Your line of reasoning for what you did was so flawed, I used it to justify whimsical superstitions. I’m free now, and I’m not going back. However, I still have hope for you. If only you would realize the harm you are doing...

Love,
Ben

Lyrics:
Well
We’ve had a good run
But the past few months
Have been a little bit tricky, haven’t they, darling?
Oh, you say it’s a must
I just need to trust

Where your superpowers at now?
They all seem to have faded away
And whenever I walk into the town
You drop down on your knees and pray
And every time I look in the mirror
I can’t believe I e’er saw you in my face
Don’t understand why you’re all lyin’ down
Givin’ the antagonist praise

So leave me
Leave me in the dust
Show me that you’re the one
Who’s gonna repair this world
And save us all from love
Oh you’ve had enough?
Well, that’s one more mark on the list
I give my spirit up

It’s a mark on the soul
Indelible and forever
So tell me why I been so cold
In the middle of summer weather
It can’t just be for control
Like how immodesty’s for flexers
So take good care of my soul
Or you’ll lose possession

So leave me
Leave me in the dust
Show me that you’re the one
Who’s gonna repair this world
And save us all from love
Oh you’ve had enough?
Well, that’s one more mark on the list
I give my spirit up
I am not filthy, I was made
As perfect as a human can be
I am not guilty, I won’t be saved
‘Cause I know that I can’t be
You tried to kill me with rounds of shame
But I’m already rebuilding
So celebrate yourselves for being forgiving
And act like you never met me

Father into your hands
Father into your hands
Father into your hands
Father into your, into your
Father into your hands
Father into your hands
Father into your hands
Wait

You’re not my dad

So leave me
Leave me in the dust
Show me that you’re the one
Who’s gonna repair this world
And save us all from love
Oh you’ve had enough?
Well, that’s one more mark on the list
I give my spirit up
I am not filthy, I was made
As perfect as a human can be (f*ck you)
I am not guilty, I won’t be saved
‘Cause I know that I can’t be (You’re not my dad)
You tried to kill me with rounds of shame
But I’m already rebuilding
So celebrate yourselves for being forgiving
And don’t you ever forget me

Last Supper - Single

Last Supper

These Colors Of Fuckery (flip)

re-mixed version
check out kianna:
https://soundcloud.com/kiianna
check out pinomin:
https://soundcloud.com/pinomin

Lyrics:
I still remember the things that you said
when you told me you love me I knew that you’re lying
wasting my life getting high all the time
don’t tell me you need me I know that you’re lying

baby don’t hold me I’m dying inside
I’m wasting away I will ruin your life
I’m desperate for change, I’m so tired of life
crying for help holding on to my knife

crying for help holding on to my knife
not a single tear shed if I’m taking my life

I still let the pain sink
I hold my breath
I throw it all away
I still cry for help
When you’re not around
And I’m falling down
when I’m falling down

the pain keeps coming back

I still remember the things that you said
when you told me you love me I knew that you’re lying
wasting my life getting high all the time
don’t tell me you need me I know that you’re lying

baby don’t hold me I’m dying inside
I’m wasting away I will ruin your life
I’m desperate for change, I’m so tired of life
crying for help holding on to my knife

I gave you my trust and you tore it to pieces
you left me alone when I was the weakest
too many times I’ve wanted to end it
the pain is intense and I know that it’s endless

crying for help holding on to my knife feat kianna prod. pinomin

Neon

Ephemeral v2

First song of my album(?) "Feel hugged"
Its my second track. I will post my First song ever maybe later.
Making music is kind of a coping mechanism to me.
It sounds bad, ik im still getting used to "soundtrap" (:
Sleepwalk well <3

Behind The Mirrors/Feel Hugged

I just wanna fucking scream
my head yeah it fucking steams
why are we always arguing
this is not how its meant to be--)
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why are we even a thing
my head yeah it fucking rings
my emotions fucking sing
my feet are tied on a string
drag me around don't you see
through shit and mud so carefree
your always fucking mad at me
for no  reason like what you mean
for no reason like what you mean

I just wanna fucking scream
my head yeah it fucking steams
why are we always arguing
this is not how its meant to be--)
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im always so sad
its making me mad
this is not a fad
I am really like that
its fucking my future
its making me lose her
why do I accuse her
its cause its the truth sir
why fuck am I still here
always letting you steer
control me out of fear yeah
control me out of fear yeah

maybe I love getting my heart broken
going collecting everyone's tokens
need the weed to forget that I'm toking
getting the kush forget im smoking

I just wanna fucking scream
my head yeah it fucking steams
why are we always arguing
this is not how its meant to be--)
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5/25/21 (PROD BY: ILLAK BEATS)

third track on here. yes, i made two today. im not feeling so well but idc.
i hope you like it^^
sleepwalk well <3

Astral Travel/Feel Hugged

4 
felt bored and made this <3

4 

4a
4a
4a
4a
4a
4a
4a
4a
4a
4a
4a

Bleak

Swivel

A song about Myspace and the follies of technology.
Nah...just me remembering myspace and wondering about Tom.
Turns out he's doing pretty well in Hawaii.

I Used To Have A Myspace Page

Experimental. 
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Lyrics:
I just make music for Myself now 
Only form of expression that i got left, how? 
Cause I hate giving people conversations 
They talk about you everyday its really hateful
They think about me almost daily and its shameful.
I just wish You the best and nigga take care, but get My name out your mouth because i don't care 
I really don't care.
(I just don't care)
I gave up on feelings, I can't go there, So now i look at the sky with a blank stare. And Im just wondering what you're doing up there. 
(Got no options)
But to keep pushing on and just function
they all wanna see me dead, I can't die yet 
But if i die - I'd still live in your head
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You are just like an iris.

"virgo killer"

solback

toyota

Steven is a musician and indie artist.
He produces, sings, and records at John Cash Studio in San Dimas, California.

You can contact him via the contact form at New Cool Now's website.  
http://www.newcoolnow.com

I am a self-taught producer, rapper, singer, and songwriter. My music tends to fall somewhere along the lines of alternative rock, electronic and hip-hop. Lyrically, it is mostly about anxiety and related emotions.

Disclaimer: Most of this content is primarily self-therapy.

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