prod @prodpishogue fucking goat 

what you doing baby
what you doing over here
you got some great lips
and i wanna keep ur hair
imma keep it in a bottle
baby don’t have to be scared 
yeah ur body imma swallow
and that face im gonna tear 
imma eat u up
just like a sweet pear 
and i know you think this creepy
 but i swear i don’t care 
 whenever im with you
i feel the love up in the air
yeah my favorite songs
i shared 
i got so much love to spare

anything but the will to talk to her

w/ @i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later
shoutout field medic

haven't seen you guys, or too many people
sorry i cant do what u want im still the same
i know you'll choose
i'll always lose
i hate to remember our last talk
you've been complicating things and it fools my heart
im so confused
what cant you do 
every time u call know i crawl right back
cuz darling u know i love your act
love so construed
you're all i knew

Whenever I make a mistake, I tell myself that I'll start over
But I do, do, do it again, and I cried whenever you left
My friends tell me I got terrible habits
Remember drinking, smoking, laughing
I fell in love again, and I don't want to pretend it didn't happen

all i knew

@youlooksodivinetonight
slow down
i dont wanna miss you at all
slow down
i dont wanna miss you at all
youre feeling tired i know

@2005memories
if the stars align im laying in my bed
then my dreams get deep she sin my head
i might cut a few times you watch me bled
death upon us no want her dead
always ina rush get i always feel stuck
if i gave u a gun u would make me duck
this will be the end
wanna live instead
but i feel
nothing but dread

@youlooksodivinetonight
but dread
youre feeling tired i know i know
but dread
youre feeling tired i know i know

untitled notepad w/ graves

AlwayzSad

you don't seem to care
about what i have done wrong
tell me, would you sing along if i made this shit?
i lost my damn spirit
don't think i can take this shit
you tell me where i belong
lalalala
how do you forgive
all that i did to you ?

you don't seem to care.

mac demarco sample

you would be better off 
safe in my car
you would be better off
if you lead everyone on
i let your skin touch mine
and let you touch my mind 
you said its not 
too late to go 
why didnt i 
just make her go home
you see my blood
its leaking all over
why didnt i 
just block her phone

ur a waste of heart

last song for a week or 2 i have strep throat

@stolemyfirstname
heyyy i just wanna fucking kill myself
i got 36 more days till i fucking break
crying in my room it’s a god damn loop 
you should know why i hate you
but i know you can’t get it through
and i really gotta stop cutting and my wrists are super bloody
i’m just a stupid useless bitch
and i know i gotta sit down

@zomiraa
already told you I’m a corpse, ima leave my blood on the bedroom floor. All the things she said including I’m a chore, why did she say that it hit to the core. Im a zombie what more do you want from me. I ain’t got a brain but I promise I can see. I can also hear and I know I can speak, cuz I sung this song and you know that it’s me.

im so stupid i wanna shoot myself w/ zomira

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lyrics:

stay close
with me
you know, I try but you still go
you know, it's not your fault
I still care
you know that you put you first

I need your love
stay close
with me
you know, I try but you still go
you know, it's not your fault
I still care
you know that you put you first

ways to listen

selfish (all plats now)

sick.

lyrics:
Do you know all the promises I made to you bae?
Do you know what I meant?
When I said"I'll be right here
And steer you clear if dangers near
From what you fear
I want to see you cheer"
But I can't be

I can't be what you need
I am stuck in my place
You want me out your face
I can't be what you need
I am stuck in my place
You want me out your face

Everyday I make promises that plaque her heart
Now go watch us fall apart

Do you know all the promises I made to you bae?
Do you know what I meant?
When I said"I'll be right here
And steer you clear if dangers near
From what you fear
I want to see you cheer"
But I can't be

I can't be what you need
I am stuck in my place
You want me out your face
I can't be what you need
I am stuck in my place
You want me out your face

(I can't be what you need)
(I can't be what you need)
(I can't be what you need)
Yet I still
(Just need you babe)

promises

march x april

your body parts
your parts 
yeah they make me drool 
i wanna use you 
and abuse you 
like a fucking tool
oh you know
i love 
when you fucking struggle 
i’m just not the one 
you should go and try to snuggle  
i know it’s subtle 
do you hear that chuckle 
when your walking down that tunnel  
and you hear it 
ur in trouble 
i can’t :/
keep my hands in place 
your waist 
is looking good babe 
 and if you don’t 
wanna give it up
i might just have to takeeee

i cant seem to control it
im such a evil rapist
i dont know what you want from me
you dont even say no 
you jus sit there and take it
i dont know what you want from me

did i traumatize you?
take this gun to my head and shoot
i dont what to do
now im running from the cops
theyll find me it wont be long
all because i didnt know what you want

atleast im self aware :/

prod me

you know
i want you its so certain
im hoping im no burden 
to you, to you 
my dear 
i think im dumb 
thats what i fear 
x2

to you, my dear

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