Name: \/!||@!N2.0 by ap
Duration: 3 min 17 s
Description: 1st instrumental EP from Adin Patterson, a.k.a. ap.

espionage

cyber-crunk

coredump

01/13/23

collaboration with @snowinfinity

Infintesimal and infinite
I'm somewhere in between, and sure am getting tired of it
Infintesimal and infinite
So much to wonder, why keep going when I could just quit

In a place beyond time
With no before or after
Where thoughts beyond mine
They no longer matter

Things I once cared about
Things that I thought made sense
I never stopped to think
If and what they really meant

At the peak, at the singularity
Event horizon brings a new disparity
Nothing remains but myself and I
We're meeting for the very first time

Every thought is a dialogue
But neither side is even real
I know that when I walk away
I just can't help but feel

Infintesimal and infinite
I'm somewhere in between, and sure am getting tired of it
Infintesimal and infinite
So much to wonder, why keep going when I could just quit

worm

Featuring @snowinfinity, my friend Brenden.

Lyrics:

Trying to find someone else
To replace you, to erase you
[2 times]

I'm doing just fine
I can't wait for the day
When it all comes crashing down
Burn it to the ground

To the ground the embers we set ablaze
Spell bound to remember your face,
Remember the times, remember the days
Back when I knew the meaning of always

Back then, it was a blinding light so white
I couldn't see with the sky so bright
But now it hurts to see and now it hurts to be
Separated and left with the worst of me

And I know the book has closed for us two
The pages torn, the words no longer new
And now it's wrong for me to long for you
I just wish that I only knew

Every night I can't sleep and can't lay still
This painful void, it can't be filled
There's an empty space you leave when you're gone
But it's me who can't move on

Alright
As you can see, I've cleaned out my closet
No more skeletons in there
I can promise

Alright
What is it you're looking for
Because you won't find it
I've gotten rid of everything that was there before

corpse-removal

collaboration with @snowinfinity

03/07/23

business-casual

05/15/23

Lyrics:
I can't tell what you want from me
I can't tell what you want from me
I can't tell
I can't tell
what you want from me

I've got nothing to offer
You are mistaken
No, I'm not taken,
but this is the end

Am I afraid
Am I afraid
to love you
Am I afraid
Am I afraid
to love you

I can't tell what you want from me
I can't tell what you want from me
I can't tell
I can't tell
what you want from me

I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid
to love you

I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid
to love you

afraid-to-love

06/22/23

Collab with @snowinfinity

Lyrics:
I've been searching for
A sign from the creator
Labyrinthian nodes embedded, discovered later
The Corinthian's codes speak to me in sounds I can't repeat
The tone was awf-ully similar to this rhythm I heard
The kick and the snare, displacing the air between my words
Creating the tear between the sky and the Earth, 
Like a schism of birds, the division of herds
Where some rise to the heavens, the others kicked to the curb

I climbed to the top of the top only to fall till I dropped below greatness
You can't take this from me
But clearly you can and you did cause I kick the can, and you dig my final grave and you closed the lid

There's a man in the sky, omnisciently shy
The supposed ruler of life when viewed through David's eyes
There's an affidavit signed, an affirmation of why
Showing us the grander purpose promised after we die
The signature at the bottom beyond withered with age
Binding declarations written on every page

Now I've fallen to the depths, decided by a final verdict of 
One judge, one touch of the skies before I plunged to demise

Them eyes decide the ultimate fate, all rise beside the ultimate gate, all rise
The final goodbye, a sweet kiss goodnight, tuck me in real tight before I'm sent to the light

ironic-ivory

06/26/23
Collaboration with @snowinfinity

Lyrics:
Funny that the ones close to you, who mean the most to you, went off and ghosted you
Oh wait, it's not that funny, memories fading, she called you honey-bee
even though its not that sweet, just like love it stings, eventually,
wounds heal, you'll feel again, before a new beginning must be an end

Emergency operation, Doc, this patient's patiently waiting
Suffocating under the weight of heart break, thinking of her makes his heart race

I don't need a transplant, my heart's fine- Sir, but you can't stand, lay down- Fine
But one condition, if you don't mind, can you wipe my memories of her and I

This is one of those things I still think about, drink about, get pink about
Sometimes I feel I'm on the brink without, and now I can't even blink without
Seeing her eyes when mine are closed, six years since my heart had froze.
I'd do anything to tell her but I'm positive she already knows.

A risky procedure to no longer need her
Completely undone, when I took my heart out the freezer

Are you sure you want to do this sir, your progress will be lost
I've been lost for far too long, I need it back at any cost
This progress you speak of has been halted by the cold 
Okay but the memories you seek will always haunt you till you're old

Wounds heal, but scars remain, reminders of resurfaced pain
To find her is a worthless game but a game I'm playing all the same

Fuck it, rip my heart out, get it over with, 
I'll be better without, I'm through with this, get a fresh start, it's my only wish
All pain I endured, memories I interred, I wish that we never were, the operation is worth it

Okay we're putting you under, just like a short slumber, Doc, it looks like he's asleep, what made him do this I wonder
Alright let's open him up, can you pass me the scalpel I need to make this cut

It's six years since, I dreamt, you pinched, and watched you tear apart our fantasy
Take my heart away from me

Doctor, doctor, there's been complications
Man your stations, no more conversations
Patience, patience, apply applications
Maneuver the blade without cuts or abrasions

What have you done to me
I can't feel anything at all

The deafening ringing inside of my being
The phantom heart singing the aching it's bringing

This echoing atrium empty at last
But the sound of the silence is growing so fast
Hollow shell of a chamber contains no remainder
And now I'm in danger of falling into feeling again

cardiac-maniac

1st instrumental EP from Adin Patterson, a.k.a. ap.

\/!||@!N2.0

10/16/20
in collab with SnowInfinity:
https://soundcloud.com/snowinfinity

\/!||@!N2.0

ap

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