generic chill house lounge ambient relaxation chill lounge club track for being chill and lounging with ur girlboss girl's girl girlies so you can get to girlbossing &getting eversoslightly turnt with your girlfriends while you girlboss&chill in ur girllboss lounge in ur mindscape in ur dreams @ ur house in the club being chill with your girlboss attitude persona

adjacent reality

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iOS 14.4.1 (V.2)

in the midst of death i sought clarity. simplification. peace.
i found old letters i stashed away in which i spoke of what was to come, and i was right. i wondered if breathing life into the narratives that i did was the straw that broke the camel's back. a stroke of genius, the stroke of midnight. i wonder if i just had a hunch. loss fucked me up. was i just picking up on patterns? did my rumination contribute to the manifestation of the agony that consumed me whole and left not a crumb? the world may never know. in any case, i'm here now ---- healing. acting at the exact right pace. it's pouring and i have to urinate. 
the minute i stand up i'd like to close this for the day though. there are other things i ought to do as well. i will do them and things will be fine. perhaps you can tell that my patience is wearing thin due to the fact that i must urinate (and badly). "i must badly"? who gives a fuck.
i get into arguments in my head with people that i know on matters that may or may not actually exist. i am not always convinced that i am alive. on : repression. i need to be naked more i think. 020624.

(alternate ending)

streamofconsciousness journaliiiiiiiing adaptedCBT time isn't moving any slowersoi'll just get on with it nofrills can't be fucked to lose a cool three333hours of my day filling up the page with revelationsmaybe tomorrow codependenceattachment sol'n's "you're saying what you mean and i'm trusting that" timeblindness anticipating myownneeds and"thinking about the thing before it happens" healingcode russianscientistmathematixgeniusvibe fuckacomma unlessur fuckingupsomecommas                    giving up --> receiving down
is it nonsense? ,,,,,,,,,,,hey weaddedsomecommas ,,,,,we're preparing for the time blindness by way of timers and alarms and reminders everytime you doanewthing you setanewtime bbbbbbbut hey man.. . ~  ~ 3  v 3r yt h 1 n g   sh1 f +  s  ~ a nd      travelingindependent fuckit iam 2takenote ofthe patternsensue on upnext note nextsteps  iftimepermits dusttidy foldsituation walk4 2 get thingsatstores takeafuckingshower itshellashitonthatlistthough maybe both now gettinggoodpictures      andideas   but fuckingplanner useit youfucknut aprilmay junejuly hoe what are we planning for to ontomakefor thatshittohappen bitchhhhhhh 041124

ADHD

getting in contact with ur inner child aligning with ur core values accessing ur highest timeline and things that spark joy ⋆｡°✩

standard kawaii videoedit break track

waiting in line on the phone, on hold with your medical insurer on hold with your local pharmacy -- putting your life on hold to wait in line. waiting in line for your medication at aforementioned local pharmacy so you can be more normal to make more calls to your medical insurer about how your medical insurance has been terminated. you take your medication that-yes, you are no longer readily prescribed-now for the sake of finally getting your act together just enough to find yourself a new medical insurer, just to get scammed by said (new) medical insurer  ---- all in the name of taking more drugs for conditions you were misdiagnosed with by incompetent doctors who accept your scam insurance -- incompetent doctors who could lose their license over their incompetence -- but to sue you'd require more normalizing drugs to be more normal so you can sit down at your normal desk in your normal home on your normal phone with a normal lawyer to have a normal discussion about how you aren't as normal as they think you are so you take drugs to be more normal but your doctor didn't know you weren't the type of normal they thought you weren't so they prescribed you normalizing drugs that just in fact made you even less normal than you already were.

claims department office cubiclecore wait jam

the title of this song did not originate from me but from the instagram handle of a kid i met through this one girl i know. she's really more of a family friend than a "this one girl i know", but the fact remains that it continued to be his instagram handle for approximately 7 or so years after i met him. that being said, the username is now available for use (assuming his account wasn't brutally terminated in a manner that would prohibit the usage of the username for anyone else)... which means i won't be able to formally dedicate this track to him by way of tagging him at the time i wish to promote this song on MY instagram :( bummer! 
but you and i know this one's for him. 

i also just feel the need to say this even though it's probably already abundantly clear, i own the rights to like one sound utilized in this track. 

besitos.

(alternate ending)

adularescence

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