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@hrtshpdbd

this isnt what i envisioned
overshadowed by my best intentions
the sun comes up i feel soo restless 
numb to the touch i dont feel real yet 
memories that i try, to forget
you were into me when we met n went away n left
dont u think about, what we couldve been
thought i could live without, you holdin my hand
but not now not then, it was all fake
dont know how i spend these lonely days
im missing you again

I didnt wanna be the one you hate
but its really not fun to behave
put a gun in my mouth have a taste
on the come down from the high im such a waste
fk i know im the one that you love to hate
bitch done with my love i wanna hit the grave
isolated for how many days?
got up and walked around felt my legs start to shake
thought i could take it but i cant
lose myself dont know who i am

fml [heartshpdbd]

song abt a rlly bad time in my life
prod @hrtshpdbd and @resolve1k
TYSM FOR LISTENING i spent a long time on this one
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lyrics:

i can feel, i can feel you falling into me
i see your eyes pierce straight through me
what do i do now?
i can feel this wound as we hit the ground
i dont want to lose you
its getting hard now
cant live this way
every day feels the same
we're running out of time
i dont think we can climb out of it, we cant

and i, i dont know
if we'll even make it out
i dont want to lose you in this doubt

i dont know
what to do with myself
feels like
we're tied in our health
when i fall apart i dont want to take you with me
crush my heart i dont want to make you hate me
tied by fate
i cant take this weight now
made you wait
should have known you wouldnt take that
you only saw it one way
you just wanted to throw me away

i can feel, i can feel you falling into me
i see your eyes pierce straight through me
what do i do now?
i can feel this wound as we hit the ground
i dont want to lose you
its getting hard now
cant live this way
every day feels the same
we're running out of time
i dont think we can climb out of it, we cant

i dont know whats going on anymore
we were doing okay when you closed the door
talk to me, just talk to me
when we're falling apart
i want you here with me

please stay with me
please just stay with me
i cant even breathe when you're not by my side
cant do this no matter how hard ive tried

stay

stay (heartshapedbed + inno)

something a little different
prod @hrtshpdbd and @liamtakeover

lyrics:

i cant let me heart bend
i cant let it feel again
i dont want to fall apart at the end
i just wanted someone to depend on

but theres no one I can trust
everything's just filled with lust
i feel like I cant adjust
nothing's ever seeming just

i just want to break the pattern
get treated like I matter
then get patched up just to shatter apart

can you take me
can you take me back to the start
ive been gone now way too far
can we find a way to restart

ive been sitting on the side watching now
i just want to stop sobbing now
i see them all mocking now
so i run nevermore

i can see my past catching up to me
ive been running too long when i couldnt see
im begging you im begging me
i just want to feel something

lately ive been hanging by a string
wonder if i got any more to bring
dont rely on me, dont rely on me
and now im running out of time

help me, help me
i cant see
can you, can you
just save me
will you, will you
set me free
please dont, dont
rely on me

dont rely on me (x3)

dont rely on me

dont rely on me (heartshapedbed + liamtakeover)

9/9 a lil late :p i am gonna try to have the rest of this lil ep thing done by bday we will see tho idk. also been saving this one for like the whole year so far.. its pretty. dedicated to michaela and my bf <3

wake me up (heartshapedbed)

vialit-
i know im not the one
u chose another thats alright
not a secnd spent with u i consider wasted time
how u feel abt me
u cn change ur mind
but i hope u know right now that i am dying
forgive me
right now im just trying to forget u
how cld i forget u
how cld i jus pretend like u dont exist when ur perfect for me?
if i ask u nicely wld u leae ur purpose for me
jus stay with me please stay is iit not worth it for me
is it not?
is it not worth it tell me pls is it not?
are u not certain i am and this is love?
r u god u may think u are but ur not
r u lost the way home u have not forgot

nosgov-
and now you're mad
that you can no longer wear me down
as i reroute
feel free to believe the words u said, outloud
im so over the past
how'd i think it would last
couldn't come to my sense

but i know
i'll be alright
like an arrow to my knee, i ripped it out
didn't know it could get any better, how suprising
to find out, it was all a lie & playing for time
i'm not blind
but i'm done
i walked out
never looking back

if i ask u nicely w/nosgov (heartshapedbed)

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@longdanhemp

傻子他喜欢被人当笑话
没人说他内心心里话
没人在意他的想法
没人会问他以后要干啥
可是傻人都有傻福
他埋藏在内心深处
他想赚钱 去拿命赌
他不说他 他很清楚
他肚子没墨水 他不服输
他想去打人没人去阻
可是他傻他没有办法
这是一个笑话上天给他
笑话他傻他没得文化
他说他不傻他心里有话
他说他也没办法 上天的礼物馈赠给他
人家看不起他 他也只能装作一副无所谓
只能自甘堕落 无法改变这一切
他也无法呼吸 人们恶意让他窒息
人们总把他推开 他望着高楼大厦
他说妈妈他终于站在大厦上
他遗忘了所有直到落下去

ethereal divinity x longdanhemp prod heartshapedbed

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