something for myself and my life, but enjoy :)

it's heavier than you thought it would be.
-

just focus now
you’re not gone
pull yourself out
no one will do it for you

oh it’s everything i want
oh it’s everything i want

there’s just something in me that’ll never change
i know what it takes to pull me out
there’s just something missing that i can’t explain
i know what it takes to find it now

living all your minutes in a hurry
wondering where all your days went
laughing with your thumbs on your phone
home alone sitting there in silence
i said what i need and i got it all
i got everything and it’s not enough
i feel like i’m being pulled at both ends
and i start to panic, to panic

let me catch my breath
coming up for air and i get the bends
so i go back in, sinking in the sand
until my heads pulled in, i don’t hear what you’re saying
i don’t want your hand just let me catch my breath
i’ll get what i get, only dead ends
this is pulling punches to be content
this is jumping off and seeing where i land

and it’s everything i want (there’s just something in me that’ll never change)
oh it’s everything i want 
oh it’s everything i want (there’s just something in me that’ll never change)
(i know what it takes to pull me out)
oh it’s everything i want (there’s just something in me that’ll never change)
(i know what it takes to pull me out)
oh it’s everything i want (there’s just something in me that’ll never change)
(i know what it takes to pull me out)

--

i walked to the river
put the sun in your hand
fake a smile and giggle

you said you would always bring me through the deep
you promise passage to me
you push me in as i leave
“settle down, sink in”

why am i so surprised?
i know who the fuck you are
fall for it every time

you said you would always bring me through the deep
you promise passage to me
you push me in as i breathe
“settle down, sink in”

pull out, sink in

and im too gone to know if im okay

so close my eyes and keep my mind opaque 
you like my smile, i love to look away
and some will come, all will go away
and the sun will come, i'll just go away

what i don't
is all i want

opaque

Change My Wayz

a song for a girl


my body shakes
my place, your place
it's your choice, your face
your skin, your hair
it's all over me
over me
and i finally found somewhere to be
and you act surprised when i said that thing

i guess you felt a little surrounded
i guess you felt a little surrounded
i guess you felt a little surrounded
i guess you felt a little surrounded

and the ocean talks, the waves you breathe
and the currents strong, swept away from me
and i finally found some land at sea
but i swam away to you in the deep
and i want your face, your skin, your hair all over me
over me
and i finally found you underneath
and you pull me in until i start to breathe

i guess i feel a little surrounded
finally feel a little surrounded
i guess i feel a little surrounded
finally feel a little surrounded

surrounded (2021)

i felt it all
nowhere to go now
i felt it all

new wrist on like that
new house bought like that
brand new whip like that
no brake bitch all gas
my girl need that bag
on my debit like that
on my credit like that
on my life like

i just need one more, yeah, that's just how it goes
i just need it all yeah, that's just how it goes
i just need one more, yeah, that's just how it goes
i just need one more, yeah, i just

so i
hold on until i get bored
i want you waiting up
i want you waiting for
so i
hold on until i get bored
i want you waiting for
i want you waiting for

push through the pain
peel through the past
cortisol pump
running through a pack
running through a check
running through a bag
i can feel the difference in you when you act
i can feel the distance when you're coming back
i can feel the tension picking up the slack
i wanna get high, i wanna get fucked
i wanted this but now i want that
i wanted you close and now i'm alone
pushing away the people who stayed
the people who cared, the people who made me
taking the difference and counting down lately
it's pretty easy when you've been sedated
it's pretty easy when you've been sedated

new wrist on like that
new house bought like that
brand new whip like that
no brake bitch all gas
my girl need that bag
on my debit like that
on my credit like that
on my life like

i just need one more, yeah, that's just how it goes
i just need it all yeah, that's just how it goes
i just need one more, yeah, that's just how it goes
i just need it all yeah, that's just how it goes

nowhere to go
nowhere to go

everything

I’ve made a severe and continuous lapse in my judgment, and I don’t expect to be forgiven. Recently on my new song “Bones” streaming on SoundCloud© I partnered with Blade: Shadow Legends© to include an advertisement in the middle of the song  for their new expansion “Kingdom of Oodath©”. I also included that if you used my code “ATP” you get a free epic champion© as part of the new player program©.

I now realize this was wrong of me to do.

While I still love Blade: Shadow Legends© and play it whenever I’m not making music, I know that I should have expressed that in a way that wasn’t intrusive to the listeners' experience. 

I have posted the song ad free as of right now. I hope you can forgive me, but I don’t expect to be forgiven, because of my severe and continuous lapse of judgment. I’m sorry.

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put that on my bones
put that on my life
put that on my bones
waist got that dual tone
get that shit to go
put that on my bones
get that shit to go
bend up with the wrist yeah i just whip my own
rolling like a stone
sippin styrofoam
jaw lock like i'm holmes
you know what the deal been
i gotta get it more
always get in more

kickin up with my bitch bad bitch you know she go
kickin up with my bitch bad bitch shes on the pole
throw a couple bills like that like that yeah
crush a couple pills like that like that yeah
going all the way down the four
jumpin up on my baby dont think just pour
i might just slide, i'mma just get you the bone
i might just ride, i'mma just get you the bone

put that on my bones
put that on my life
put that on my bones
waist got that dual tone
get that shit to go
put that on my bones
get that shit to go
bend up with the wrist yeah i just whip my own
rolling like a stone
sippin styrofoam
jaw lock like i'm holmes
you know what the deal been
i gotta get it more
always get in more

baby don't think just pour
baby don't think just pour

bones

if you wanna say what you want to
if you wanna say what you want to

they're gonna tell you what you need?
you gon' hold it up? you gon' keep it all inside? no
you can light it up, you can get it out tonight

don't
if you wanna say what you want to
don't you wanna say what you want to?
don't you wanna say what you want to?

you can live it up, you can get it out tonight
moving through the smoke and the ultraviolet lights
know that it's been tough, baby that's just life
you can say whatever i'm gon tell you that you're right

you can let it up
you don't gotta repeat nothing all night, you just gotta say it once
you don't gotta do nothing that you don't like, baby i can get it done
you won't do the window shopping shit no more, girl i can get you one
girl i can get you two

they're gonna tell you what you need?
you gon' hold it up? you gon' keep it all inside? no
you can light it up, you can get it out tonight

don't
if you wanna say what you want to
don't you wanna say what you want to?
don't you wanna say what you want to?

you can live it up, you can get it out tonight

ultraviolet

that shit was funny

tell me was it fun
watching me try anything just for you to hold on
got me caught up in your string, cut me loose when you're done
girl i said a thousand things go ahead and say one
that shit was funny
tell what the price been
all i had was time for you as currency you didn't like that
if you're gonna hold it out for me then guess what ill fucking bite then
you can go ahead and explain why hes saying what hes saying, go ahead
get the fuck up right now


get the fuck up right now
get the fuck up right now
get the fuck out my house
get the fuck up right now
no one really liked you anyway much
get the fuck up right now
get the fuck out my house
get the fuck up right now

i'mma say some shit just to make you hurt, i learned that from you
all those little insecurities that you got, all of them true
oh you think that they're you're friends? you should hear them talk about you
there ain't no fucking "depends" there ain't no fucking excuse
there ain't no fucking "my lens" there ain't no "walk in my shoes"
how can you say that he's lying when i been staring proof?
how the fuck can you be crying? thought i was nothing to lose?
how can you say that you're dying? you put yourself in the noose



looking back it was fun
watching me try anything just for you to hold on
had me caught up in your string, cut me loose and i'm gone
you could say a thousand things i'mma just say one
that shit was funny
i know what the price been
all you got is time for me as currency i don't like that
and i made like a lot of money off this shit yeah you know i like that
you can go ahead and explain what hes saying, stop, lemme write that
get the fuck up right now

get the fuck up right now
get the fuck up right now
get the fuck out my house
get the fuck up right now
no one really liked you anyway much
get the fuck up right now
get the fuck out my house
get the fuck up right now

STATUS

get up

all my time
all my time, you won't stay up?

one more time
sounded good on paper

i still want all of your faults
i'll give you all of my days
i still want all of your faults
you know it's on your face
you know i know by now

all your little

ig post

things

i love you prodhoodiee

@hlkrews
https://twitter.com/itsKrews
@hlkrews
https://twitter.com/itsKrews

Rose Gold [W/ KREW$] [prod by aftertheparty]

xxiii


Okay, okay 
Egg white lookin' cocaine yeah
Who's the next to blow, place your bets no bookie
Molly spin my roll, head so good it shook me up
When I do a show, cost a lot to book me up
And I know my role
Do this on my own
Need a lot of dough
I knead a lot of dough
And I think they know I'm ready
Come outside when you're ready.

I'm tryna spend your tuition on my wrist
I'm tryna make your tuition in a week
You want fantasy like Dawson's Creek
I want 10 M like I'm Van Der Beek
She like yoga I'mma be her chi
Rely on me like tamagotchi ain't that sweet
I just bought a four door I don't need a key
Might go down to Florida just to Daily Chief
Hyyer Education, I'm like higher, yeah
Fire yeah, lungs all filled with fire yeah
Stomach filled with oxy's and these fucking xans
Serotonin dopamine all in my hands
Take it day to day cause I don't have no plans
Movin on my own cause I got all these plans
And I think they know I'm ready
Come outside when you're

Come outside when you're ready
I'm outside when you're ready

Okay Okay, Im Outside When You're Ready (prod. by aftertheparty)

https://open.spotify.com/track/337H7R2AWIlI9s7M4ugelQ?si=Hw144VyOTiyi8xWOQvyjOQ

was very crazy when i made this

art by @rhodiumnights on twitter

IRIS

@whereisnomu very lovely song
kind of a cover of @limeboiler small version
prod @limeboiler
lol 
<3

nomu - dress (limeboiler)

don't own, all rights go to atp

https://soundcloud.com/afterthepartyatp

Aftertheparty - Ive Been Playing Clue With Your Girl And I Won (Throwaway)

i don't do this shit for the fun
acetaminophen not enough
taste of the drip on your tongue
bitter on your lips and your tongue
heart through your chest, not enough
heart on your sleeve, not enough
you can fuck with me if you want
come and fuck with me, know you wanna

money comin' in on the first
blow through it all on the first
baby i hope you doin' the worst
you know that it's something you deserve
fuck a high road, make it hurt
fuck a high road, make it hurt
i hope that you end up on the curb
ain't no fuckin' lesson you can learn

pretend all you want like this ain't war
pretend all you want like this ain't war

all those words are cheap motherfucker
if you look for me look the fuck up
bought a new whip and i'm bored with it
think i'll buy another motherfucker
baddie in the front give a hummer
all i'm tryna do is get my sum up
been a long time on the come up
assume that im on something when the sun up

i've been making more since i dropped out
thought that i'd be nothing how'd that work out
white that got me sweatin like a work out
i think your break over back to work now
i dont need a bridge that i burned down
think that i don't know, this shit i heard wow
like im on something when i burn out
like im on something lemme burn out

pretend all you want like this ain't war
pretend all you want like this ain't war

i've been hard on the memory 
and even if it wasn't your fault
it makes me feel much better anyway
it made me feel much better anyway

pretend

Dont let them get to your heart, keep staring at the light and keep reaching for it. You’ll get there <3

woods out


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