Melancholic 🥀

this is a song about butter and dairy products in general


i don't butter up
i don't lie
i just tell it like it is all the time
i don't butter up
i don't lie
i've never told a lie in my life

fuck your friends
they don't want to hear what i'm 'bout to say to you
come here ill give a clue
they'll be laughing up
they'll say get a room so we'll go and get a room
already it planned it
and i'm off a pill
when you whisper in my ear it's like asm
are you with it too?
you say that you are
well baby that's pretty fucking good for me
and that's great for you

i don't butter up
i don't lie
i'm the most fucking perfect guy
i don't butter up
i don't lie
i've never told a lie in my life
i don't butter up
i don't lie
i just tell it like it is all the time
i don't butter up
i don't lie
know you wanna catch me out, you can try

you can try
you can try

butter

you'll never get in.
-

i bet it looks good from the outside, yeah?
i just make it look like you want it to
now shut the fuck up, be a good boy, yeah?
and break all my bones to the shape of you

am i even living out my own life?
am i even doing what i want to do?
am i just walking inside the lines?
the same ones as you?
i see someone i want to be
all of those smiles look good on you
is anyone really that happy?
i’m not really asking, let me through

they make it look good from the outside, yeah
i’m begging you please just let me in
i’ll do anything, be a good boy, yeah
i’ll do anything to make me you

good boy

do you mean it?
-

yeah i guess i’ll see you
later
i already told you that i’d wait up
you can skip the hair and the makeup
you know my location it’s the same that it’s been
so i guess i’ll see you
later
yeah i know it’s late but you want to
yeah i know i’m slurring and i’m on one
you can come through when the sun’s gone yeah i guess i’ll see you
later

girl i put in mileage my whip paid up
dropped out of college, you’ll be my major
and my whole grade participation
guess i need to see you
later
whole lotta nights we need to make up
phone camera on with your waist up
i want the whole thing, do you get the picture?

omega on the wrist like i’m double o
i like my cup shaken with a double pour
she ask “what it cost” she don’t gotta know
if she ask again then it cost 10 now you know
really it was 5 but it appreciated though
work you like a 9-5 and i’m giving raises 
put you on a 401 if that’s okay with you
you can clock in clock out severance package you can pack it up

see you
later
i already told you that i’d wait up
you can skip the hair and the makeup 
you know my location it’s the same that it’s been
so i guess i’ll see you
later
yeah i know it’s late but you want to
yeah i know i’m slurring and i’m on one
you can come through when the sun’s gone yeah i guess i’ll see you
later

laid up with the pay yeah
don’t like what i say, yeah?
take back what i say yeah
yeah i got to see you
later
been a while, but i’ll wait up
been a while, but i’ll stay up
now you like what i’m saying

i’m like lewis hamilton with the pole
but you can come in first when we go
i don’t do the champagne subbin' in the dope
i won’t do a damn thing you can do it all
you want something fancy, you want something gold
tossing off the platinum go and run it up
you say “let's get real” you want something more
that’s a little more than i want to afford

so i guess i’ll see you
later
i know that i told you that i’d wait up
you can skip the hair and the makeup 
you know my location is different than what it was
so i guess i’ll see you
later
yeah i know it’s late and you want to
yeah i know i’m slurring and i’m on one
you can come through in a couple months
yeah i guess i’ll see you


leds on your skin
and the rooms burning up
this is why i wanted you
this is why i wanted you
this is why i wanted you
this is why i wanted you

later

it's heavier than you thought it would be.
-

just focus now
you’re not gone
pull yourself out
no one will do it for you

oh it’s everything i want
oh it’s everything i want

there’s just something in me that’ll never change
i know what it takes to pull me out
there’s just something missing that i can’t explain
i know what it takes to find it now

living all your minutes in a hurry
wondering where all your days went
laughing with your thumbs on your phone
home alone sitting there in silence
i said what i need and i got it all
i got everything and it’s not enough
i feel like i’m being pulled at both ends
and i start to panic, to panic

let me catch my breath
coming up for air and i get the bends
so i go back in, sinking in the sand
until my heads pulled in, i don’t hear what you’re saying
i don’t want your hand just let me catch my breath
i’ll get what i get, only dead ends
this is pulling punches to be content
this is jumping off and seeing where i land

and it’s everything i want (there’s just something in me that’ll never change)
oh it’s everything i want 
oh it’s everything i want (there’s just something in me that’ll never change)
(i know what it takes to pull me out)
oh it’s everything i want (there’s just something in me that’ll never change)
(i know what it takes to pull me out)
oh it’s everything i want (there’s just something in me that’ll never change)
(i know what it takes to pull me out)

--

i walked to the river
put the sun in your hand
fake a smile and giggle

you said you would always bring me through the deep
you promise passage to me
you push me in as i leave
“settle down, sink in”

why am i so surprised?
i know who the fuck you are
fall for it every time

you said you would always bring me through the deep
you promise passage to me
you push me in as i breathe
“settle down, sink in”

pull out, sink in

me my

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beloved

beloved (prod. manget$u)

it comes from your head
same time, same place, you know
rewrite and start again
if i want to you'll know, you'll know

this won't fall off the page love
it's been written and played up
but i felt all that you say
i felt all that you say
it all comes to the surface
i swim under for safety
i choked on fire when i came up
i choked on fire when i came up

it's nice to pretend
jump right off your mind
all this foe or friend
tell me one more time
what's there left to hide

this won't fall off the page love
it's been written and played up
but i felt all that you say
i felt all that you say
it all comes to the surface
i swim under for safety
i choked on fire when i came up
i choked on fire when i came up

storytelling

The Sun

xxiii


Okay, okay 
Egg white lookin' cocaine yeah
Who's the next to blow, place your bets no bookie
Molly spin my roll, head so good it shook me up
When I do a show, cost a lot to book me up
And I know my role
Do this on my own
Need a lot of dough
I knead a lot of dough
And I think they know I'm ready
Come outside when you're ready.

I'm tryna spend your tuition on my wrist
I'm tryna make your tuition in a week
You want fantasy like Dawson's Creek
I want 10 M like I'm Van Der Beek
She like yoga I'mma be her chi
Rely on me like tamagotchi ain't that sweet
I just bought a four door I don't need a key
Might go down to Florida just to Daily Chief
Hyyer Education, I'm like higher, yeah
Fire yeah, lungs all filled with fire yeah
Stomach filled with oxy's and these fucking xans
Serotonin dopamine all in my hands
Take it day to day cause I don't have no plans
Movin on my own cause I got all these plans
And I think they know I'm ready
Come outside when you're

Come outside when you're ready
I'm outside when you're ready

Okay Okay, Im Outside When You're Ready (prod. by aftertheparty)

Stab back
(I know you got revenge on your mind)
(I know I deserve it)
Just look me in the eyes and tell me I deserve it
(I know that you got blood in your eyes)
(I know I deserve it)
It shouldn't be that hard for you
But it is
I guess your knife got duller
I guess you're all bark with no bite
I guess I pulled down your cover

Wanna switch lanes in a coupe like oh
Say "it's enough" but there's always more
But you wanna switch lanes in a coupe oh

I need something
Do you got what I want
I need something
Now I know what I lost
I need something
I don't have an excuse
I need more than
I lost from you
From you

Stab back
(I know you got revenge on your mind)
(I know I deserve it)
Just look me in the eyes and tell me I deserve it
(I know that you got blood in your eyes)
(I know I deserve it)
It shouldn't be that hard for you
But it is
I guess your knife got duller
I guess you're all bark with no bite


I get by
I've been fine
I get high
I've been
[x4]

Hold on, wait, smooth like margarine
I'm on one, please don't talk to me
Not on fire, but I'm bout to be
I'm like throw it, then come back to me
Back seat, I'm like fuck the sheets
I'm ridin' with 8, I'm like fuck police
I'm saying bye, I'm sayin fuck the lease
Too much control, alt, hit delete


I get by
I've been fine
I get high
I've been
[x4]

Apple

Revenge

Heart Full of Rage

Ain't What It Seems

Troglodyte (prod. discent)

www.instagram.com/suissidee
(prod. @grave5y0)

rip peep <3

might die (prod. grave5)

i don't do this shit for the fun
acetaminophen not enough
taste of the drip on your tongue
bitter on your lips and your tongue
heart through your chest, not enough
heart on your sleeve, not enough
you can fuck with me if you want
come and fuck with me, know you wanna

money comin' in on the first
blow through it all on the first
baby i hope you doin' the worst
you know that it's something you deserve
fuck a high road, make it hurt
fuck a high road, make it hurt
i hope that you end up on the curb
ain't no fuckin' lesson you can learn

pretend all you want like this ain't war
pretend all you want like this ain't war

all those words are cheap motherfucker
if you look for me look the fuck up
bought a new whip and i'm bored with it
think i'll buy another motherfucker
baddie in the front give a hummer
all i'm tryna do is get my sum up
been a long time on the come up
assume that im on something when the sun up

i've been making more since i dropped out
thought that i'd be nothing how'd that work out
white that got me sweatin like a work out
i think your break over back to work now
i dont need a bridge that i burned down
think that i don't know, this shit i heard wow
like im on something when i burn out
like im on something lemme burn out

pretend all you want like this ain't war
pretend all you want like this ain't war

i've been hard on the memory 
and even if it wasn't your fault
it makes me feel much better anyway
it made me feel much better anyway

pretend

https://open.spotify.com/track/2i9bDrY9IhCbvcDgyb8neq

produced by @splashgvng
featuring @datastarr

lyrics:

[@lottaheart]
i got issues
don't want to admit that i miss you
every time you leave it's like a pistol's,
pressed against my head until i'm with you

you got issues
i know that you're broken, i can fix you
you don't think it's true, try to convince you
every time you cry be there to kiss you
i'll be your tissue

[@datastarr]
i don't care
i was hurting, i was burning
you were there
light a match
watch me bleed out
fill your head with empty threats
and words that never left my mouth
know i never ask for help
but that's why i might break
fuck sake
see it clear, carrot cake
one shot, one take
bet it all at high stakes
chasing dollars, chasing thrills
why smoke? know it kills
wanna castle on a hill

[@lottaheart]
i got issues
don't want to admit that i miss you
every time you leave it's like a pistol's,
pressed against my head until i'm with you

you got issues
i know that you're broken, i can fix you
you don't think it's true, try to convince you
every time you cry be there to kiss you
i'll be your tissue

me.my

woods out


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