Dino MC 47 - Время

A question of why, a meaning of lots, yet a defiant of confusion




I'm faded as if I was a substance of life
One that does not matter to the universe i am in
The version of myself is hollow
As to the guilt that overflows my emotions
And i see it as a bug sees the world
It's complicated, my fears all turn to my wonders

How do I fix it?
Do I let it run like the tears that drop upon my sorrowful guilt?
Do I stand by watching as I do nothing about it?
Or do I simply not care of my actions and roam as if nothing bothers my self being?

So many questions do I have unanswered.. 
So many thoughts I have about one thing that it blocks out others…
I do not know what to do…
For I am full of uncertainty 
I feel life has left me behind in a circle of pain..

Whether it is physical or mental
I feel the pain caused towards myself
I feel the rift and ripple of pain streaked from my thoughts to my heart
I was asked if I believed in god and if I prayed..
To which I say I do not pray for what is to come..
I wait and see what is set upon my eyes and how to deal with it I must learn
I do not pray for I do not believe
I do not believe from I do not know what to believe

My life is not a mystery
It is predictable
What is a mystery is my actions and their content
Their motives as to what I do
Pain is all I receive

So I give a hope for my life
Only to watch it crumble like my heart as it is broken
I achieve what I must to get by in life
I see little of what is to come but I face myself as the largest challenge I am to overcome

My emotions are of despairing
And yet I still move on as if it does not affect me
I do not know why I am how I am
That is my life goal, to find the answer

The answer of why…

Ghost Gamer_589..

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Dino MC 47 - Время

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