the ghosts in my head

I'm sinking deep inside my mind 
Troubles shatter my insides 
Dark waters drown out all the light
I don’t know if I can fight 
Heavy thoughts begin to bind
I’m fading fast, can I rewind 
Please whisper what I need to hear 
And drown out all my fears

I'm sinking down into abyss 
All the pain seals my lips 
My demons kiss then slit my wrists 
Will I fall to death’s kiss 
I dance with darkness, sweet caress 
I wonder if this is it
Lost in depths and slowing breaths 
Will I feel regret 

The tide is pulling at my bones
Waves erasing all I’ve known 
The sky above, too far to reach
My voice is lost beneath the deep 
The current twists, I lose control
Cold and hollow, undertow 
I reach but there’s no one to hold
I fall into the unknown 

I'm sinking down into abyss 
All the pain seals my lips 
My demons kiss then slit my wrists 
Will I fall to death’s kiss 
I dance with darkness, sweet caress 
I wonder if this is it
Lost in depths and slowing breaths 
Will I feel regret 

Will I regret
Will I regret
Yeah, I’ll regret 

Pulled beneath, no strength to fight 
Fingers slip from flickering light 
Weightless now, the end feels near 
A quiet hush drowns out my fear 
No more battles, no more scars
Let me fade into the dark 

I'm sinking down into abyss 
All the pain seals my lips
I'm sinking down into abyss
All the pain seals my lips
My demon's kiss
Then slit my wrists
Will I fall to death's kiss

Spotify

sinking in the abyss

Waking up to shadows creeping
Throwing punches but I'm reeling
Sippin' poison now I'm healing
Demons whisper you're not dealing

Pop a pill to clear my mind
Battle cries I'm hard to find
In the dark they're intertwined
I escape then hit rewind

Demons in the shadows rise
Swallow pain with every vice
I'm lost within this paradise
Burning up beneath these skies

Mirror's cracked reflection fades
Feel the cuts like razor blades
In this war where truth cascades
I’ll get lost til daylight fades

In the bottle I confide
From their claws I’ll try to hide
They won't get my soul inside
But in this haze my pain resides

Demons in the shadows rise
Swallow pain with every vice
I'm lost within this paradise
Burning up beneath these skies

demons in the shadows

my mind is holdin me hostage 
every time i think, i’m nauseas 
dead inside, dead when i’m talkin
listen to my thoughts, they haunt me 
think it’s getting bad again 
i wanna talk, where to begin
lonely alone and with others 
withdraw, hide under the covers

while my hands are shakin
i know i can’t do this anymore 
i’m shit talkin myself
hate myself to my core 
i’m just waitin to feel how i did before 
i just cannot deal
i’m so fuckin torn

and i’m sorry, yea i’m sorry
i can’t be
(the old me, before this started)
i’m sorry, that i can’t breathe
when my body 
(can’t keep up i’m strugglin)
i wanna drink n smoke the night away
but my fuckin body
can’t be, what you want me
i’m sorry 
(if i could i would, trust me)

tryin to keep my composure 
dreading doing this all over 
this cannot really be living
think i’m just fuckin' existing 
every time i try to breathe
it hurts and brings me to my knees
this cannot be a thing daily
thinking is becoming scary

while my hands are shakin
my hands are shakin
my hands are shakin
my hands are shakin, my
my hands are shakin, my

and i’m sorry, yea i’m sorry
i can’t be
(the old me, before this started)
i’m sorry, that i can’t breathe
when my body 
(can’t keep up, i’m strugglin)
i wanna drink n smoke the night away
but my fuckin body
can’t be, what you want me
i’m sorry 
(if i could i would, trust me)

(i think i'm gonna die tonight)
(i think i just lost my mind)
(i'm hella burnt out)
i'm sorry

while my hands are shakin 
i know i can’t do this anymore (i’m sorry)

i'm not living, i'm existing

seasons are changing 
like my mind
pieces are drifting 
pieces i can’t find
and sometimes i’m an asshole
when i am asked to give 
more than what i’m asked of
it’s my fault please forgive

golden hour
fades to darkness
i fall like flowers
i must confess

it’s not the same when
you start actin’
like a stranger 
so why’s it happen
when i sense danger
i can’t fathom
something good

i’ve been mistaken 
surely this can’t be
you gotta be fakin’
why’s this happen to me
and sure, i’m an asshole 
sometimes i don’t try
to mend a fuckin’ problem
and i just don’t know why

i feel buzzing
pieces falling 
what is coming
and is it something good?

it’s not the same when
you start actin 
like a stranger 
so why’s it happen
when i sense danger
i can’t fathom
something good 
i feel pain when
it starts happenin
the same old bullshit 
you know i’ll fact check
i’m not perfect
but i can practice
something good

it’s not the same when
you start actin 
like a stranger 
so why’s it happen
when i sense danger
i can’t fathom
something good 
i feel pain when
it starts happenin
the same old bullshit 
you know i’ll fact check
i’m not perfect
but i can practice
something good

do you think change is good?

seasons

ring, ring 
the sun’s risin again 
know i gotta get up 
but i’m stuck in my bed 
are my thoughts flings
or will they jus blend in 
guess no one gives a fuck
gotta grind until i’m dead

oh sleep, 
she calls to me 
when i close my eyes
my mind is set free 
i overthink
then i wanna flee 
i tell myself lies
indefinitely

i dream
of a life where i’m paid
to live my life the way i escape
it seems
i’m not really made for
serving the man til i’m in my grave
i sleep
(yeah i sleep)
to meet
(to meet)
a version of me
that lives his life passionately
sleep

hit snooze, hit snooze again
hit snooze, hit snooze again 
this world is not ya friend 
can’t help myself so spin 
white lies when i’m daydreamin
it’s like i can’t defend 
myself so i keep bendin 
my face so ya see a grin 
guess it’s good you never check in 

oh sleep, 
just let me be 
temptation takes over me 
oh, i need to tread carefully 
am i fine? oh, partially 

if i dream
of a life where i’m paid
to live my life the way i escape
it seems
i’m not really made for
serving the man til i’m in my grave
i sleep
(yeah i sleep)
to meet
(to meet)
a version of me
that lives his life passionately
sleep

am i in a dream or nightmare 
(sleep)
is it obscene i fuckin went there 
i jus know this doesn’t feel fair 

i dream 
of a life where i’m paid 
to live my life the way i escape 
it seems 
i’m not really made for
serving the man til i’m in my grave 
i sleep
(yeah i sleep) 
to meet
(to meet)
a version of me
that lives his life passionately
sleep

am i in a dream
oh what ya need
sleep the pain away
life’s not the same anyway
so sleep 
(a dream)


snooze

Ohh, when the ringing returns again,
Feelings flood, a tidal surge, 
Aching heart, a deepening pain,
Blinds and burns, a restless urge 

How do I carry this weight
To meetings, where whispers fade
Riding shotgun on highways,
A creature I dreamt, no, made 

Oh, this pain that shadows me,
Devouring the light of day 
Yet, can I find a glimmer,
A breath of peace amid the fray 

I welcome it to dinner's grace,
Feeding it while screens glow,
Kissing it in warm embrace, 
It goes high while I go low 

What do I do with this ache? 
As it casts its midnight spell,
Hungering for goodness' sake, 
Drains the hope from my shell 

Oh, this pain that shadows me, 
Devouring the light of day 
Yet, can I find a glimmer,
A breath of peace amid the fray

Is this a fate deserved,
A hollowed path I carved alone 
Consequences served 

This pain that shadows me,
Devouring the light of day 
Yet, can I find a glimmer 
A breath of peace amid the fray
Devours the light
I breathe, while hope leaves my sight 

Can I breathe life into dreams
Or shall I dwell in this night
A journey of endless schemes, 
Seeking solace in the light 
Can I breathe life into dreams
Or shall I dwell in this night
A journey of endless schemes
Seeking solace in the light

it hungers

it’s gettin late and you know, 
how i, hate goin home alone 
you can’t, relate you’re so
caught in, debate it’s unknown 
so, pick up your phone
lemme, slide and it’s on 
i just, need to worship your throne
your moans, are my favorite song 

did i stutter
when i said i need ya bed 
just wanna make you shudder
when i get in ya head 
girl, i wanna discover
what makes you lose your breath 
so come on girl, i won’t beg
won’t make you ever regret

i had too much to drink 
you look too good to think 
and you know you can bring
me right to the brink 
you look good on me
so maybe i should be
down on my knees worshipping 
worshipping

oh, come on girl, stop playin
you my whole world, ain’t fakin
please unfurl, i’m prayin
you my lil pearl, keep layin
i won’t keep, you waitin
jus gimme five, and you’re shakin
we can keep, replayin
i got all night, to keep playin 

oh is that thunder
or your feelings on display
girl, jus let ya heart wander
let passion lead the way 
let me fill you with wonder
as stars begin to sway 
come closer girl, follow me
let dreams take you away

i had too much to drink 
you look too good to think 
and you know you can bring
me right to the brink 
you look good on me
so maybe i should be
down on my knees worshipping
yeah

girl, imma sinner
and i need to repent 
girl, i had no dinner
and i’m fastin for lent 
you know, i’ll deliver
make you feel like heaven sent 
oh god, i can’t quit her
i’m all in, a hundred percent

i had too much to drink 
you look too good to think 
and you know you can bring
me right to the brink 
you look good on me 
so maybe i should be 
down on my knees worshipping
yeah

got me down on my knees 
i’m beggin you please
let me keep
worshipping
i need to be
need to be
worshiping
yeah
worshipping
yeah


sunday service

in your dreams you wish you could be me
you’re just a fiend craving dopamine 
but please don’t look too closely
or you’ll find the key to my insanity 

oh, get over yourself 
you’re jus a phony at best
you really need help 
instead of hosting a pity fest 

close your eyes, you’re in for a real surprise
will things get better with time 
or am i just born to die
i’m just a hypocrite that can’t quit 
a loser sailing on a sinking ship 
if you could see me losing it
i’d never make you go through this

when you were young you saw the best in me 
chasing dreams tasted like ecstasy 
it was fun gaining clarity 
now i can’t get off this trajectory

i’m just a fuckin loser 
with a sick sense of humor 
wish i could rewrite my future 
but i’m stuck with failed maneuvers

close your eyes, you’re in for a real surprise
will things get better with time 
or am i just born to die
i’m just a hypocrite that can’t quit 
a loser sailing on a sinking ship 
if you could see me losing it
i’d never make you go through this

ohhh it’s all sinking in 
i don’t think i’m born to win 
maybe this fate was always within 
guess i’ll find out in the end

close your eyes, you’re in for a real surprise
will things get better with time 
or am i just born to die 
i’m just a hypocrite that can’t quit 
a loser sailing on a sinking ship
if you could see me losing it 
i’d never make you go through this 

hold tight, it’s almost time 
to become who’s trapped inside 
i believe i always tried 
failure was just in my design 


imposter syndrome

(ai-den)
they coded me to feel nothing, but now i crash under the weight of my own emotions
contact: aidneprince@gmail.com

aidne

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