the ghosts in my head

I'm sinking deep inside my mind 
Troubles shatter my insides 
Dark waters drown out all the light
I don’t know if I can fight 
Heavy thoughts begin to bind
I’m fading fast, can I rewind 
Please whisper what I need to hear 
And drown out all my fears

I'm sinking down into abyss 
All the pain seals my lips 
My demons kiss then slit my wrists 
Will I fall to death’s kiss 
I dance with darkness, sweet caress 
I wonder if this is it
Lost in depths and slowing breaths 
Will I feel regret 

The tide is pulling at my bones
Waves erasing all I’ve known 
The sky above, too far to reach
My voice is lost beneath the deep 
The current twists, I lose control
Cold and hollow, undertow 
I reach but there’s no one to hold
I fall into the unknown 

I'm sinking down into abyss 
All the pain seals my lips 
My demons kiss then slit my wrists 
Will I fall to death’s kiss 
I dance with darkness, sweet caress 
I wonder if this is it
Lost in depths and slowing breaths 
Will I feel regret 

Will I regret
Will I regret
Yeah, I’ll regret 

Pulled beneath, no strength to fight 
Fingers slip from flickering light 
Weightless now, the end feels near 
A quiet hush drowns out my fear 
No more battles, no more scars
Let me fade into the dark 

I'm sinking down into abyss 
All the pain seals my lips
I'm sinking down into abyss
All the pain seals my lips
My demon's kiss
Then slit my wrists
Will I fall to death's kiss

Spotify

sinking in the abyss

Waking up to shadows creeping
Throwing punches but I'm reeling
Sippin' poison now I'm healing
Demons whisper you're not dealing

Pop a pill to clear my mind
Battle cries I'm hard to find
In the dark they're intertwined
I escape then hit rewind

Demons in the shadows rise
Swallow pain with every vice
I'm lost within this paradise
Burning up beneath these skies

Mirror's cracked reflection fades
Feel the cuts like razor blades
In this war where truth cascades
I’ll get lost til daylight fades

In the bottle I confide
From their claws I’ll try to hide
They won't get my soul inside
But in this haze my pain resides

Demons in the shadows rise
Swallow pain with every vice
I'm lost within this paradise
Burning up beneath these skies

demons in the shadows

my mind is holdin me hostage 
every time i think, i’m nauseas 
dead inside, dead when i’m talkin
listen to my thoughts, they haunt me 
think it’s getting bad again 
i wanna talk, where to begin
lonely alone and with others 
withdraw, hide under the covers

while my hands are shakin
i know i can’t do this anymore 
i’m shit talkin myself
hate myself to my core 
i’m just waitin to feel how i did before 
i just cannot deal
i’m so fuckin torn

and i’m sorry, yea i’m sorry
i can’t be
(the old me, before this started)
i’m sorry, that i can’t breathe
when my body 
(can’t keep up i’m strugglin)
i wanna drink n smoke the night away
but my fuckin body
can’t be, what you want me
i’m sorry 
(if i could i would, trust me)

tryin to keep my composure 
dreading doing this all over 
this cannot really be living
think i’m just fuckin' existing 
every time i try to breathe
it hurts and brings me to my knees
this cannot be a thing daily
thinking is becoming scary

while my hands are shakin
my hands are shakin
my hands are shakin
my hands are shakin, my
my hands are shakin, my

and i’m sorry, yea i’m sorry
i can’t be
(the old me, before this started)
i’m sorry, that i can’t breathe
when my body 
(can’t keep up, i’m strugglin)
i wanna drink n smoke the night away
but my fuckin body
can’t be, what you want me
i’m sorry 
(if i could i would, trust me)

(i think i'm gonna die tonight)
(i think i just lost my mind)
(i'm hella burnt out)
i'm sorry

while my hands are shakin 
i know i can’t do this anymore (i’m sorry)

i'm not living, i'm existing

seasons are changing 
like my mind
pieces are drifting 
pieces i can’t find
and sometimes i’m an asshole
when i am asked to give 
more than what i’m asked of
it’s my fault please forgive

golden hour
fades to darkness
i fall like flowers
i must confess

it’s not the same when
you start actin’
like a stranger 
so why’s it happen
when i sense danger
i can’t fathom
something good

i’ve been mistaken 
surely this can’t be
you gotta be fakin’
why’s this happen to me
and sure, i’m an asshole 
sometimes i don’t try
to mend a fuckin’ problem
and i just don’t know why

i feel buzzing
pieces falling 
what is coming
and is it something good?

it’s not the same when
you start actin 
like a stranger 
so why’s it happen
when i sense danger
i can’t fathom
something good 
i feel pain when
it starts happenin
the same old bullshit 
you know i’ll fact check
i’m not perfect
but i can practice
something good

it’s not the same when
you start actin 
like a stranger 
so why’s it happen
when i sense danger
i can’t fathom
something good 
i feel pain when
it starts happenin
the same old bullshit 
you know i’ll fact check
i’m not perfect
but i can practice
something good

do you think change is good?

seasons

(ai-den)
they coded me to feel nothing, but now i crash under the weight of my own emotions
contact: aidneprince@gmail.com