writing: soundcloud.com/9s0uls

lyrics:

escape this place 
such a mistake 
you've become someone else 
all of my time
was yours to take 
you left me in hell 
i'll claw my way out 
i'll find the higher ground 
you think you've figured me out 
you've gotten lost in the crowd
    
she's so upset 
it's messing with my head 
she's so obsessed 
that i can't catch my breath 
all eyes on me 
fake a smile so they don't see 
can't tell what's right for me 
i'm so obsessed

i'll fantasize
i'll find time

she's running back and forth
forgot to close her doors
they saw the parts of me
that she tried to ignore

i think i'm done letting my guard down
dont really care about where you are now
stuff me away until you've processed
i'll keep away until im honest

she's so upset 
it's messing with my head 
she's so obsessed 
that i can't catch my breath
all eyes on me 
fake a smile so they don't see 
can't tell what's right for me 
am i not meant to be?

she's so upset 
it's messing with my head 
she's so obsessed 
that i can't catch my breath
all eyes on me 
fake a smile so they don't see 
can't tell what's right for me 
i'm so obsessed

obsessed

[Lyrics]

Immortal temptation takes over my mind
Condemned
Falling weak on my knees, summon the strength
Of mayhem

I am the storm that is approaching
Provoking black clouds in isolation
I am reclaimer of my name
Born in flames, I have been blessed
My family crest is a demon of death!
Forsakened, I am awakened
A phoenix's ash in dark divine
Descending misery
Destiny chasing time

Inherit the nightmare, surrounded by fate
Can’t run away
Keep walking the line, between the light
Led astray

Through vacant halls I won’t surrender
The truth revealed in eyes of ember
We fight through fire and ice forever
Two souls once lost, and now they remember

I am the storm that is approaching
Provoking black clouds in isolation
I am reclaimer of my name
Born in flames, I have been blessed
My family crest is a demon of death!
Forsakened, I am awakened
A phoenix's ash in dark divine
Descending misery
Destiny chasing time
Disappear into the night
Lost shadows left behind
Obsession's pulling me
Fading, I've come to take what's mine!

Lurking in the shadows under veil of night
Constellations of blood pirouette
Dancing through the graves of those who stand at my feet
Dreams of the black throne I keep on repeat
A derelict of dark, summoned from the ashes
The puppet master congregates all the masses
Pulling strings, twisting minds as blades hit
You want this power? Then come try and take it
Beyond the tree
Fire burns
Secret love
Bloodline yearns
Dark minds embrace
Crimson joy
Does your dim heart
Heal or destroy?

Bury the light deep within!
Cast aside, there's no coming home!
We're burning chaos in the wind!
Drifting in the ocean all alone!

Bury the Light

performed & written by me @mental
produced by @lilac @winter

lyrics:

i keep on thinking im better off dead
wake up to sleep hanging on by a thread
i cant exist without you in my bed
said every word that i shouldnt have said
heartbreak and anger my only two friends
if i died, what would you do then?
i don't know how long i can pretend
it's not enough just to feel this regret

can't trust cause they lie every single time
fake love feels so cold like the wintertime
and i tried, it don't matter i can't get it right
heart in my hands offered to the sky

never been the best at letting go
tell me things i don't wanna know
take my heart made my heart froze
that's the way that my heart goes
you're the place that my heart needs
i'm just tryna say sorry
i'm just tryna say i want it
if you love me i got it

yeah i got it
hate myself being honest
if you love me then stop it
stop it
if you love me i'll make it right
i don't really wanna say goodbye
take my heart then i'll take my life
take my heart then i'll take my life

#Nightcore

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cant trust :( prod lilac & winter

a few -->ROUGH<-- scraps from 2022 and earlier this year, these were originally intended for an ep called "ghost" but i scrapped them all to write emergence

1.) january 2023
2.) february 2023
3.) december 2022
4.) february 2023
5.) december 2022
6.) recent (demo)

2022 / 2023 scraps

Maybe I should kill myself?

Tell me why should I fall in love?
Oh I'm trying but I keep fucking up
All these signs that say you're not the one
Every day's a toll on my body
Zero reasons why you can't call me
Looking up at the city as fluorescents fall
I'm so sorry that I'm the one you're waiting for

My life is coming down
Oh please don't say you love me now
It's not true
You're confused

Let me bleed
Let me bleed till I can't breathe
All I need is you and me
You're a dream that I can't reach
Everything is not what it seems

When you speak it cuts me deep
Feel you breathe all on me
Wish I could leave this fucking misery

Man what the fuck is wrong with me?

Are you tryna move on with your life?
I see pieces of you in their eyes
Tell me do I sometimes show up in your mind?

If I could choose between reality and in my dreams
Ide choose my dreams
I'm about to lose the rest of my sanity for you
For you

Let me bleed
Let me bleed till I can't breathe
All I need is you and me
You're a dream that I can't reach
Everything is not what it seems

When you speak it cuts me deep
Feel you breathe all on me
Wish I could leave this fucking misery

Man what the fuck is wrong with me?

Let Me Bleed

comp of beats iv made for fun from 2020-2023 4 fun most unreleased stuff i wantd 2 throwaway

mostly a dump of all my beats i  wil not make stuf like this anymor or at least share it anywhere online n i wna continue doin club music on main so i hope u enjoy  the last of these

all my beat stuff is ib lilac winter n maknae : )

ccc

2y