call me elliott smith
black skies ever since
a knife to my chest
what's she lying 'bout next?
feeling depressed
glad to meet you, angeles
you'll misunderstand
i'm gonna end up dead
there's hate in my head
going through this again
a brand new mess
another fucking regret
big ballad of nothing
she's out somewhere buzzing
sad music i'm bumping
got you feeling something
and i don't ever want to see your face again
a former shell of me will take my place instead
i keep hearing all this bullshit that's been said
deja entendu, bitch, you know i'm over it
cut my heart strings, sick of hanging by a thread
got a bad feeling like i'm horse head
signed in on the sheet, guess i'm up next
said "you're gonna blow up", i could care less
it ain't about that, it's just for the fans
just tryna give back, yeah...

black skies ever since (prod. ☆samsdead☆)

prod. 1080p dreams

lyrics:
you used to take me to the video rental store
ages ago, now it isn't there anymore
memories back from when I was about four
of being with you at the video rental store
looking at covers of movies that I was too young to see
something about the restriction piqued my curiosity 
from time to time these images still show up in my dreams
and to very this day I still don't know just what it means
it's hard to make sense of everything, life can be so confusing
when it's just a collection of nostalgia and a contrast of feelings
like shedding tears over a loved one when you find out they have passed
then spreading cheers while recollecting all the times they made you laugh
you used to take me to the video rental store
ages ago, now it isn't there anymore
memories back from when I was about four
of being with you at the video rental store
you used to take me to the video rental store
ages ago, now it isn't there anymore
just memories of the video rental store
and now it's gone and so are you
now it's gone and so are you
crying and laughing at the same time
I'm crying and laughing at the same time

video rental store

memories like falling leaves ... 

@smrtdeath

smrtdeath x hudson alexander - my heart is fucked

i've been up a long time thinking bout u ...

@smrtdeath

smrtdeath x hudson alexander - make believe

Fats'e - Rip Me Open (ft. Shinigami & 93feetofsmoke) [lyrics]

romance 2 w/ tommy ! (tommy ! + wavy gvbe)

Recorded in Holt Stairs Studio
Produced by Josh Cooper
Mixed and Mastered by @Holt-Stairs
Cover Art by Kill Xero

She's Nothing More Than a Witch I Swear to God (prod. Josh Cooper)

7xRICH - Everlong (Cover) - Foo Fighters

Onism (n). the frustration of being stuck in just one body, that inhabits only one place at a time […] (Source: The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows)

AJ SAGAR , WE DEPRESSED NIGGA!

Up But Down Low

spotify link: https://open.spotify.com/track/4fQXOqJ9mMVpYo9WtPkRWx?si=97554e54c58640c0

prod. by @user-597676997

just fuck me up

fuck me up (prod. by caps.ctrl)

why dont you cheer up
aint trynna hear it
when u gone get in the spirit
take a look in da mirror
when i wake up
yeah imma feel it 
the man in my dreams 
telling me i dont need to reel in
why are they so vivid
not a single fucking soul gone be 
telling me how the fuck im living
losing my mind
in the alleys right between these buildings
bussin in jersey 
no need to hurry 
just another fucking state 
for every girl to curve me 
debating on wether or not
to step outside 
come to the spot 
we can smoke here all night 
we’re five miles from the drop off
our homie coming thru just to haul us 
back to the crib so we can call up 
not a single fucking soul u can’t watch us
been going longer than usual 
with the daily use of a physical
crutch that keeps me so cynical

i take i break 
i don’t match what’s at stake 
i wade i fade 
to the background where i’m safe 
i fight 
with my 
urge to end it now 
at least i make my parents proud
to make up for the college i did not attend 
sitting in one room for hours on end 
hoping my body will at least comprehend 
i shouldn’t be doing this please take care of me friend
i call to be greeted by a voicemail
hang up before i embarrass myself
last time to see me before it all goes
can i please tell you something nobody fuckin knows 
i’ll let you in on it 
if you promise to keep your mouth closed
i could go bag me a couple hoes
yeah thats what you know
would you assume that i dont get none
not even fuckin one
i can barely leave my street
to get gas for the whip
the most ill ever seem to do 
is that 20 minute trip
to pick up the drugs i 
need to get by
oh baby dont you ever wonder why
i dont have to know what makes you cry
imma blow up one day
to pay the bills for my parents
no bitch i was not the type to inherit
money to fall back on
i fall back on my backbone
thats so broken in many places
i put on one of my many faces

Up But Down Low

AJ Sagar