i know i always seem to
make you mad
but u never
showed up
to that party

i know it’s my fault partly
but i invited u
u said that u would show up
i knew that u wouldn’t show up

u said that i have to grow up
and that i always act so childish

it’s all 
it’s all up to u
and u choose everything that i do
it’s everything that u like
nothing that i do
nothing that i do
seems to impress u

u act like everything’s perfect
and don’t mention how i tried
to end it
i just wanna fucking die
slit my throat 
and let me cry

u never mention the slits
on my wrists
i asked u for help
and u laughed in my face
like it’s not so serious
yea it’s not so serious 

now that ur blood is on my hands
i loved to see u suffer
wish i could’ve killed u with my own hands

u act like everything’s perfect
and don’t mention how i tried
to end it
i just wanna fucking die
slit my throat 
and let me cry

im a redpilled loser

i thought you didnt know him
cant think my face is frozen
i loved you without knowing
im the bad guy now cuz u chose him
now his brains are rottin on the floor
he coulda survived if you werent a whore
did all i could n u still want more
i have nothing left, loving you is a chore

ooooooooo
x4

i thought we would last so long
but ur still gone
i knew u were never strong
now ur gone
i wna slit ur throat
im poppin pills until i choke
im wired off this adderall
i wna see ur body float

(hook again)

prod deadyami

living another life

shitposting to get her off my mind

produced by me

im running out of time
girl please will u b mine
stuck in my head all the time
infatuated w ur eyes
x2

obsessed w the way u look at me
im not the bad guy cant u see
im not the villain (pls hurt me)
im still just healin (what u did to me)

im running out of time
girl please will u b mine
stuck in my head all the time
infatuated w ur eyes
x2

girl

prod me + wujek

u said that everything would work out
u said we would be here for a while
x4

u said that youll be here until it all fades away
they dont understand that ill be with you until the grave
they were never nice to you
you know i can fix that
light a cig and smoke it up
i might miss what we still had
lookin out the window
guess its coming to an end
if we dont surrender we will die
but otherwise i wont see u again
i see ur smile
lets wait here for a while
if its time then im goin out of here in style

u said that everything would work out
u said we would be here for a while
x4

looks like thats it

xix - bites (sped up)

theres a pain inside my chest
only a bullet can fix
theres some thoughts inside my brain
i need some help i need one wish

i wanna see u sad
i wanna see u cry
i can tell u are a lying whore
i see it in ur eyes
why r you looking at me like ur so fucking terrified
i dont wanna hear those words no more
ill tell you all goodnight
i cant look past the words u said
yeah theyre all trapped up in my head
i cannot trust u anymore
ur sucha stupid fucking whore

(hook)

and just like that i ruined everything

7.17.23 the person i wrote this song about left last night

waking up here again
above all you said we'd be here together
but nothing lasts forever
yeah nothing lasts forever
stuck inside this game of yours
constantly worried that ur bored
bored of me my texts are green
i texted u so patiently
please tell me is it worth it
take oxy my stomachs hurting
throw up outside the curtains
wish i still knew for certain
sweet release
you got me down on my knees
ill do whatever you need

hook

Forever

went to ur house last week
u were in ur dress girl how sweet
didnt seem mad at me 
so whyd u make me gooo

rosy cheeks and brown hair 
nobody prettier out there 
i know ur unhappy 
with how i am but thats me 

i know that i 
call at bad times 
but i cannot 
get over u

cannot get over u

prod me

its all ur fault
ill cut my wrists and go to sleep
will you call me
ur everything im on my knees
satisfied i look up in ur eyes
terrified
y r u so terrified

bloodstained sundress
u ruined everything
cuts all on ur neck
i hate this feeling
x2

nothing matters at all when ur not around
ill paint my clothes in blood
i guess it was never enough
i cared i always cared i hope u see right thru my bluff

(hook)

valentine

guitar by me

I wish you wouldn't ignore me, I texted you last morning
You said you’d call me early, you said you’d call me early
I thought you didn't like parties, apparently, now you’re changing
I hope you don't exchange me, I hope you don't exchange me
You're so cute, maybe we could still start dating
You said you'd think about it, I doubt you think about it
I don't wanna die alone, can you just pick up the phone?
I'm so in love with you, I'm so in love with you

beta orbiter (xo_willow cover)

@akira3ksucks @weejk 

(pwnd:)

red eyes
i might die
you fill my thoughts with suicide
drugged up everytime
you cut my name into your thigh
bloodstains on your dress
you left me here with nothing left
stab your knife right in my chest
treat me like all of the rest

i cant decide
if you should live or die
rot my brain everytime
you're never satisfied
if i say that i love you
would you say it back
my head is filled with fluoride
turn to a maniac

(wujek:)

you decide if i should live or die
i cut my wrist while you look in my eyes
tell me lies until i feel alright
watch me die as you lay by my side

(pwnd again:)

red eyes
i might die
you fill my thoughts with suicide
drugged up everytime
you cut my name into your thigh
bloodstains on your dress
you left me here with nothing left
stab your knife right in my chest
treat me like all of the rest

Forever

pwnd

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