Deppression pt 2

late night shi 💜🧡

little things v2

the city of dreams (rxseboy)

I’ve been feeling depressed recently, so I made this playlist of depressing songs, hope you like the ones here.

Nothing Matters…

some of my favorite songs throughout the years (will be updated when I feel like going thru my 5.7k liked songs)

bangers 🩷🩶

200 (santana)

lyrics
I've been thinking about you with a blunt rolled
none of these drugs can take away my sorrow
I don't know if I'm gon be here tomorrow
so fill my lungs with smoke until my thoughts go
theres no denying that you something special
but you aint give a fuck about my mental
now I'm driving hoes through residentials
sipping purple sprite in foreign rentals

bitch dont match my energy
she bumping all my melodies
im 17 with felonies
these drugs gon take my memory
they want something that I'll never be
wish she love me like ecstasy
used to look at me so breathlessly 
but her mind full of jealousy

all these fucking drugs that I abuse
cause I don't got nothing better to do
hope you know that I'm in love with you
I'm just scared these drugs will get you too

sendflowrs
I've been thinking about you with a cup poured
if this shit gon kill me why it feel so good for
these feelings must be what they make the mud for
ion know I promise I'm ok girl why'd you run for?
if you really being honest why you hide it?
n they say it gets better, I don't mind it
2019 I lost my heart cant find it
ion know if I'll love again I guess I'll find out soon

residential
I've been thinking about you with a blunt rolled
none of these drugs can take away my sorrow
I don't know if I'm gonna be here tomorrow
so fill my lungs with smoke until my thoughts go
theres no denying that you something special
but you aint give a fuck about my mental
now I'm driving hoes through residentials
sipping purple sprite in foreign rentals

2019 w sendflowrs (nevrfall x branwen)

purple magic in the cup I see
when the fuck you gonna leave me be
only hit my phone for thc
but you a lick so count your money g

started to express my feelings told me tough luck
look at me in my eyes before I drive drunk
hitting me up to party, but I'm still slumped
telling me I'm too mean but I give no fucks

thought she was yo bestie
till she try and text me 
heartbreak in a Bentley

codeine on my white tee
heart so cold my friends leave
cocaine till my nosebleed x2

its 3 in the morning and I pour up twice
but nobody like me when I'm getting high
so fuck everybody that keep me alive
I'm cutting the ties
you aint even try

I stay making money and picking my fights
pull out the purple and pack that shit
I play with the paper and let that shit fly
word from the wise
set shit aside
(set that bullshit aside)

purple magic in the cup I see
when the fuck you gonna leave me be
only hit my phone for thc
but you a lick so count your..

prpl magic (meltycanon)

Stream / Save on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/3MfuHLdFZJYplLaoGnMlZ9?si=7ns2IR-qQoGC_wiqyFJroA

Sorrow (https://soundcloud.com/feelingmysorrow): 
https://open.spotify.com/artist/31azc78QwLIIQWCLDgOnTk?si=jr5F3-AfRl6jgk49r8VdrQ
https://www.instagram.com/feelingmysorrow

Thomas Reid (https://soundcloud.com/thomasreidmusic):
https://open.spotify.com/artist/0dcxj82ddksd6tDDcJgbqo?si=EwHf2TWuR3m4pGF2IdYUOg
https://www.instagram.com/thomasreidmusic

Must always credit us in title when re-uploading
Lease Beats: https://zainibeats.beatstars.com

SPOTIFY

Sorrow x Thomas Reid x Zaini - see you leave

paranoia (prod. rexpy) OUT EVERYWHERE + MUSIC VID OUT ON YT

split (santana x reidenshi)

It's Been A Lot (Feat. Hope People)

These Stormy Days (Prod. Venus)

@mookigang & @thebootlegboy - drowning (ft. @ohhaven)

Caffeine

Caffeine (feat. Chevy & Nalba)

life in a locker (feat. Jomie & Skinny Atlas)

In memory of @ohtrapstar 🫶🏼 
thankful to have met u

This song will not be monetized nor distributed for any financial gain it’s solely only to share the art I made  deserved to be heard n to honor a good friend

jomie & ohtrapstar - emotions (prod. skinny atlas)*never finished*

@rxseboy - i still love you (prod. heydium)

@sorrow - loneliness (prod. sundwn & autrioly)

@rxseboy x @heroe x @promotingsounds - i'll wait for you

I Don't Know Where To Go (Rxseboy & Drex Carter)

@sorrow x @thomasreid x @thebootleg boy - i don't belong anywhere

@akumuh - AM I REALLY THE DEVIL? (prod. RezzyDaCreator)

treasure chest

not a friend

@rxseboy x @thomasreid - please don't go

@prodreaper
@guccihighwaters

[chorus]
ash out on some cardboard
sour lips, wide hips, fall in love with your contour
mi amor, mi amor

[verse]
kiss me in the rain or leave me at the front door
tell me you despise me tell me that you need more
tell me i'm a freak, tell me i'm insecure, mi amor mi amor

if i wanna dance with the devil i can ask
why you lock your phone baby tell me what is that
if you got an issue then you know i got your back
if he wants to meet you can say just, that

it won't come to floracion
i know that you kissed him i know that he put you down
he can find, someone else, he can throw, around

[chorus]
ash out on some cardboard
sour lips, wide hips, fall in love with your contour
mi amor, mi amor

[verse]
indecisive leaning on the vices i don't like advice, i just flip the light switch
sleep it off, overslept got missed calls, 
do not disturb on my phone got sick thoughts,

 mi amor, i wanna love you till my hearts sore, 
i was drowning in emotions, when i met you i really stopped choking
 but you deserve the world, i really mean that
i don't have it all, i know that you can see that,
 allot of things to explore, but i just want you behind this closed door

mi amor w/ guccihighwaters (prod.reaper)

https://genius.com/Illah-itriedtokillmyself-lyrics

S P O T I F Y

itriedtokillmyself          (prod. ty rose | xanxan)

cet album est pour toi

my parents didn't want me why would you
you're the best so i will do, what i will do, for you
my parents didn't want me why would you
you're the best so i will do, what i will do, for you

i've got problems in my brain, you,
help me ease the pain, 
help me numb it out when i been cryin in the rain cause
i've got these demons that i can't shake

show me what i face, show me what you love, promise not to break my heart </3

you deserve better

you deserve better (p. ocean)

@lilxtraatl <3

[chorus]
ripped black jeans and Snow White hair it’s like no one sees or no one cares,
its like all I crave is her
but I’m not what she deserves 

[verse]
she fucks with my head on daily
she fucked me like she really hate me
she love when I sing her to sleep
I love her so much I can’t breathe when she speak I see stars in my dreams

every girl I talk to hates me
I feel like I can’t even cry I wouldn’t date me
and if you told me that you loved me you were faking
I make the most of all the hearts I end up breaking so,

I don’t even cry no more
but, lately I been cryin on the floor, like
I don’t even want this life
why, does it have to so bright

I, know
i, know
i, know

you're not alone
[chorus]
ripped black jeans and Snow White hair it’s like no one sees or no one cares,
its like all I crave is her
but I’m not what she deserves

[verse]
yeah i know i'm not alone but it sure does feel like
everyone hates me i just don't feel right
and you said, you're not alone, but when i show up there's no one home

its not easy believe me, when i'm standin' right here and you still can't see me i'm, in your ear but you still can't hear me i'm, speaking truth and you still don't believe me

i've been broken before and i'm broken again
i guess i'm being punished for my sins
lately my nightmares feel like my friends cause
only they understand me in the end

you're not alone

not alone w/ lil xtra (prod. boyfifty)

sadeyes - mi amor w/ guccihighwaters (slowed)

Dreaming In Color (Prod. Noden)

Burgos - Hiding my face (Prod. by Dreggz)

prod me <3

lyrics:

i can feel your heartbeat when you fall asleep
there's something nice bout knowing all of you is next to me
and i don't think that there's a single place i'd rather be
honestly, i need you here with me

i need somebody, don't wanna fuck me,
just wanna love me right

i need someone to, need me to come thru,
love me and hold me tight

i need to see it, i need a way to believe it
my feelings will change with the season, make me feel guilty for breathing

and i can't write a single song i'm scared of how it makes her feel,
she hears my song she thinks i'm wrong she's scared that i won't ever heal
i try my best to show you how i love you more and more each day
but understand i'm just a man i'm vulnerable to all the pain

i love you, more than i can put in words
how come no one out there ever told me love would ever hurt

i love you, more than i can put in words
how come no one out there ever told me love would ever hurt

i can feel your heartbeat when you fall asleep
there's something nice bout knowing all of you is next to me
and i don't think that there's a single place i'd rather be
honestly, i need you here with me

i need you

I’m a pretty emo boy screaming fuck the world
I hate everything and I hate myself
I hate my voice and I hate these girls
I hate this song I hate being ignored
I’m a pretty emo boy that’s dying inside
I hate my home and I hate my life
I hate my heart and I hate my knife
It don’t cut deep enough I’m still alive
I’m a pretty emo boy screaming fuck the world
I hate everything and I hate myself
I hate my voice and I hate these girls
I hate this song I hate being ignored
I’m a pretty emo boy that’s dying inside
I hate my home and I hate my life
I hate my heart and I hate my knife
It don’t cut deep enough I’m still alive

Cry tonight
I might die tonight
Lonely night drives
Goin’ 95
I close both my eyes 
Let the wheel go
Single tear rolls down my face
Lose control I’m swerving lanes
I regret the choice I made
But it’s too late now

Chasing my dreams imma’ be 
Everything you said that I wouldn’t be 
Fuck everybody who ain’t fuckin’ with me
Imma’ make sure you remember my name 
I’m INFINITY
Y’all gonna’ see 
Everyone chanting and screaming with me
I am the wave that torments the seas 
Wolf in the sheep skin disturbing the peace
Everyone hates me but they don’t know me
You don’t think i see the looks that you gave me
Why am I treated so differently?
Scream out the pain feelin’ like me

I’m writing these songs
Yeah I’m pouring my heart out 
No feeling im numb 
Sippin’ more til’ I black out 
Need smoke in my lungs
Just to know that I’m breathing
I thought I was dead, turns out I was dreaming

I’m sobering up 
I gotta’ pour up 
I gotta’ drink more 
I tried to get up 
I fell to the floor 
I need to feel loved
I need to roll up 
I need to puff blunts
I’m lighting a blunt to stay warm in the winter
I don’t recognize the person in the mirror
I, feel, so, lost now

prettyemoboy

my first official release as an artist. So happy to of been able to collab with two amazing artists @rxseboy & @powfu 
Hope you guys enjoyed it, please support on Spotify aswell :)
https://open.spotify.com/track/50HURWGNsCiJw4qFDQu40X?si=i47qp5K_TQ-hJpRretA2pQ