estrogen and the doldrums (demo)

super-glued to the feeling
that no matter how kind
i will become
how much i wail in regret
it will never ever excuse
my mistakes

when i chat with you i just want to hear you understand
i know my voice was never that pretty
though it might feel like you hold me hostage (all the time)
it might be better this way

oh, i just wanna be held

cant wear myself down for such stupid reasons anymore
youre another me with all the good parts
and mishaps all intact

i want to say it again
my grip isn't something i could fix with something as simple as a sorry

just so terrified of losing everything again 
once i let loose it'll all move apart
like with everyone else whose faces are etched into the back of my eyes
while i stayed nothing but a messed up canvas of their past life

hostage

Drive Like I Do (The 1975) - Nice Sweater (unreleased preview)

came crashing thru ur boundaries
confused friendship with tug of war

as much as i tried
i dont think ive treated you right

so let me be the one
to build up a wall
its fine if we catch up again
once in a while

i never had the kindest eyes
a little souvenier of some terrible years

cant get rid of the worried looks
that keep staring back at me 
through every mirror that sees me

back+forth

STOP LEAKING MY SHIT .... PROD.F1LTHY .... ALBUM 2023

POLAND - LIL YACHTY(PROD. F1LTHY)

https://spiritofariel.com

i've been dreaming of you inside my bed
if you call me up would i wake up now?
well you chose another good guy instead
and i'm over it and all of that but i miss you now

i want you to see me as someone you can reach when i'm in your head
i'm holding myself cuz i'm lonely as hell and i only see you in my dreams

i've been dreaming of you inside my bed
if you call me up would i wake up now?
well you chose another good guy instead
and i'm over it and all of that but i miss you now

i want you to see me as someone you can reach when i'm in your head
i'm holding myself cuz i'm lonely as hell and i only see you in my dreams

i've been dreaming of you inside my bed
if you call me up would i wake up now?
well you chose another good guy instead
and i'm over it and all of that but i miss you now

don't fret if it wasn't the world we thought it would be
don't panic if you think it's the end
we're gonna make it out taking effort one day at a time
it's gonna be ours in a matter of time
i've been dreaming dreaming dreaming

i've been dreaming of you inside my bed
if you call me up would i wake up now?
well you chose another good guy instead
and i'm over it and all of that but i miss you now

11.16.22

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my sadboi take on one of my favorite sentimental Bad Bunny songs 
para cuando you miss your shawty, shawty tiene un culo bien grande 🥲

performed and produced by Nina del Río
thanks to Fran Winer, Alejandro Vilarrasa-Corriero and Benji Jimenez for mixing guidance <3

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